Saturday, December 10, 2016

I Get a Little Satisfaction

Brrrrrrrrr... you will be shoveling snow pretty soon! 

Yesterday when i said people want to get rid of me, but they can't. I just mean sociopaths in gated communities, because I make friends in every community I work at and I always go back to the communities and they have to look at me! 

When I run into the sociopaths in Sxxxxxxxr, if looks could kill I would be dead right now, many times over! 

It gives me a little pleasure that i make them experience the helplessness of the child thy once were, because they can't destroy me and get rid of me! Just like the child they once were could not get rid of the abusive parents, but it's sad they only feel this helplessness with substitute figures that has nothing to do with the wrongs done to them when defenseless little children and not within the context of their own childhood, in order to protect their idealized parents and childhood. And endless stay stuck, because repression can only be resolved within the context of childhood and not with substitute figures or scapegoats. They are scared little children for eternity living in the state of confusion. But if you ever like to get rid of me, just say the word and I be out of your life just like that!

Just as I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions page 83, 126 and 127 "People who idealize their childhoods, or otherwise ignore their pain, have limitless cravings for scapegoats on whom they can avenge themselves for the fears and anxieties of childhood. This is why some people have a lot of children, because unconsciously they want to make sure they have an endless supply of vulnerable, defenseless new victims. ...The unhealthy, cult-like devotion they invested in the group was actually getting in the way of their true happiness because the group was just filling in for their parents and keeping them blind to the truth. In an email to a reader, Alice Miller writes that “even smart people become stuck in confusion for years if the ‘healers’ demand from them the same as the parents did from the child: to stay blind, to forgive, to make amends, not to make troubles. The fear of the parents, stored up in the body, can make a person obedient and sick forever. I hope that you can overcome this fear by seeing through the hypocrisy of your helpers.”62 “It is a great mistake to imagine that one can resolve traumas in a symbolic fashion,” Alice Miller writes in The Drama of the Gifted Child. “If that were possible, poets, painters, and other artists would be able to resolve their pain through creativity. This is not the case, however. Creativity helps us channel the pain of trauma into symbolic acts; it doesn’t help us resolve it. If symbolic revenge for maltreatment received in childhood were effective, then dictators would eventually stop humiliating and torturing their fellow human beings. As long as they choose to deceive themselves about who really deserves their hatred, however, and as long as they go on feeding that hatred in symbolic form instead of experiencing and resolving it within the context of their own childhood, their hunger for revenge will remain insatiable.”63 Abstract techniques like yoga and meditation only serve to repress our anger and fear, even more, making us completely dependent on mantras or daily affirmations every time our anger gets triggered. Don’t you think it would be better to ask where our anger and fear come from? What are their real roots? And how can we deal with the causes and resolve them for good? Wouldn’t it be nice to free up your energy for real living, instead of wasting it on tools that seem helpful but only keep your anger and fear repressed?"

If you like to read more about my experience with a mob of sociopaths also read my blog post Experienced Knowledge