Occupation: Author, Gate attendant managerThree adjectives that describe you: Persistent, understanding and generous.Favorite activities: Relaxing at home with my cats, taking long walks in the park by my house and hiking.What do you think will be the most difficult part of living inside the Big Brother house? Being away from my cats and close friends. I like my own space and privacy, so not having any privacy and sharing space with strangers will be difficult for me.What moment in your career do you think prepared you to live in the Big Brother house?My whole life has been a preparation for the Big Brother house. I've been through many challenges in my life and always intuitively knew how to turn them into opportunities to move forward. I have to say that the turning point in my life was when I discovered the books of Alice Miller. Her insights literally saved my life, and I wrote a book called A Dance to Freedom to help others break free from their emotional prisons like I did. Writing the book gave me a lot of confidence, and I think I can help a lot of my housemates if they’ll listen to me.Which past Big Brother cast member did you like most?I like Shannon Elizabeth, but I don't particularly have a favorite.What are you afraid of? I don’t let fears stop me or control me. I prepare the best I can and I hold my nose and jump. My motto is: face your fears or they will just keep biting you in the butt.What is the accomplishment you are most proud of? Leaving Portugal and facing and resolving my own childhood repression, and of course, writing a book on how to resolve childhood repression, and finding peace and becoming free to really love and live my own life.Do you have a strategy for winning the game?I just plan to be myself. People always underestimate me, so I have a feeling I’ll be off everyone’s radar early on. That will give me time to learn about everyone in the house and get a sense of the repressed traumas in their lives that they take out on others unconsciously and compulsively. I’ve learned how to deal with malignant narcissists and sociopaths, so if there are any in the group I think I’ll surprise them.My life's motto is... Keep it simple, love and have funWhat would you take into the house and why? One of my cats for company and comfort and my book that is my baby and my gift to the world so I like to share it with as many people as possible that might be in the same place I once was, and hopefully be a support to them and not feel alone like I once did.Fun facts about yourself: - I love cats- I am a goofball-I read people very well and I’m a great judge of character-Outspoken and not afraid of controversyWhat would you do if “Big Brother” made you famous? If Big Brother made me famous, I would use it to raise awareness of the dangers of childhood repression in our society.
“So I was listening to my local morning radio show today and one of the young, recent college graduate assistant producers came on the air to tell a story about how yesterday someone from CBS slid into her Instagram DM’s and asked if she’d be interested in going on Big Brother. They’re looking for young, competitive, fun, SINGLE contestants. So..that’s what they’re looking for. Casting isn’t going to change.”
Making the BB video was a little difficult for me because I would keep mispronouncing my words and I would have to start over. It was very tiring to shoot the video. I’m extremely dyslexic and it doesn’t only affect my writing. It also affects my speech. Sometimes I think about getting a teleprompter to help me with the making of videos. But to tell you the truth I think humanity has passed the point of no return and I have given up on humanity. I don't think it matters what anyone does -- it will not make much difference in our world.
These words by Leo Tolstoy could not be truer: “Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.” This is the problem with our society. No one wants to look in the mirror and face themselves.
I would like to reach people that are in the same place I once was -- searching for the truth -- that can set us free - waiting to hear the naked truth from someone else -- and validate their perceptions that they are not crazy! No one should have to wait as long as I did to hear the truth from someone else.
Alice Miller was such a witness for me and now I have written a book sharing my journey of how I liberated myself with Alice Miller books as my enlightened witness and if people want to find the truth that can set us free, they need to dig hard for it as I did -- because the liars of this world will work very hard day and night to block the truth and keep in the dark the real state of affairs.
I'm glad Big Brother didn't call me because I didn't really want to be locked up in a house full of repressed people telling their true stories with their unconscious and compulsive reenactments. To tell you the truth NOW I'm at the point in my life that I just want to be left alone to enjoy my freedom. It has been a long journey!
Yes, most therapists keep themselves and others stuck in an emotional prison -- the therapist playing the role of the parent and their patients endlessly stuck in the role of the child.
Most therapists have mastered the art of manipulation to perfection -- to regress people to the state of the defenseless child -- and keep them in an emotional prison to use and exploit for transference effect to temporally alleviate their own repression.
if he was real and really wanted to help me he would not have deleted his comments! And if he had read my book first -- he would never -- have written these words: "If I could take all the pain away I would, but if it makes you stronger"
He would know I'm no longer in pain and I don't agree with society's slogan: what doesn't kill you make you stronger, because those of us that have worked through our childhood repression knows what doesn't kill us make us weaker and until we have resolved our childhood repression -- we will be endlessly chuckled into the chains of compulsion repetition.
just like I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions page 107 and 108:
"The typical methods people use to search for answers — which are really ways to run away from the truth — are futile because our real, repressed story continues to attempt to make itself heard no matter what we do. Alice Miller believed that our true plight, the root cause of all our repeated problems, will keep trying to gain our attention in more extreme ways until we finally take notice. Alice Miller describes addiction, for example, as a way for someone in despair to get rid of his or her memory. But this method of self-medication is unsustainable. “This ‘solution’ is no longer needed if the goal is exactly the opposite, if you want to remember, if you want to feel your plight and to understand its reasons, if you slowly become aware of why you were so afraid of acknowledging the reasons,” she writes. “This can happen once you decide to stop running away, to stop betraying yourself, to allow the truth to enter your consciousness. You decide to do so because you finally understand that everything else is useless and because you no longer want to watch your life go by before having even begun to live. You decide to stop betraying yourself because you understand that only you can give yourself the love and care you never received and that you can’t do that as long as you deny the truth.”59 They say that whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, but I think they have it all wrong. Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you weaker, more repressed and more vulnerable to illness and disease.”