Friday, May 25, 2018

Sylvie Shene Big Brother Audition Tapes

I thought going on Big Brother would be a great opportunity for people to see me, and see for themselves that I'm real and not that harsh because I think in my writings I come across as being a little too harsh.

I think is because I'm dyslexic and writing being one of the hardest things for me to do in life and it's the most time-consuming for me.

But now that I'm starting to get the hang of making videos and upload them on YouTube -- I think I will do and publish more videos soon.

The video above that I published on YouTube is the original one and the one below is the edited version that I submitted to Big Brother producers. 

Below is what I wrote on on their question Self Biography (Up to 70 words): "I’ve lived in many countries, including Portugal, Spain, England, France, and the U.S. In 1985 I moved to Phoenix, Arizona and worked for 18 years as an exotic dancer. In 2014, I wrote a book called A Dance to Freedom to help people break free from their emotional prisons. I love spending time with my cats, being in nature, hiking, bicycling, having meaningful discussions, laughing, and joking around."

“…Watched your vid. You are such a super cool and taking person, honestly!!!!! I loved to meet you this way. Wow...  not any kind of pretension or trying to be something.  Just 100% authentic, which is so rare... wow... why don't you do videos, where you read passages from your book, or give an interview about you and your life and your insights?  And put it on your blog??? Aside from the bb vid??? There is so much light and love and inspiration shining from you.  Sorry, this sounds esoteric, but I don't mean it like this... maybe this could be an add-on to your words. Really, your appearance and the way you talk, this is, I have to say that again, taking, in a good way... sorry, lacking a  bit of the right words in English... in German, I would say: du bist (you are)  mega sympathisch :-)))
Really, you are such a super person, which shines through so strongly, if one can see you live!”
[Thank you! But making the BB video was a little difficult for me because I would keep mispronouncing my words and I would have to start over. It was very tiring to shoot the video.  Remember I’m dyslexic! And it doesn’t only affect my writing. It also affects my speech.  But I think I’m going to take your suggestion and try to do more videos.  Below are my answers to some of the questions they have asked past contestants. I am trying to be prepared just in case they call me:
Occupation: Author, Gate attendant manager
Three adjectives that describe you: Persistent, understanding and generous.
Favorite activities: Relaxing at home with my cats, taking long walks in the park by my house and hiking. 
What do you think will be the most difficult part of living inside the Big Brother house? Being away from my cats and close friends. I like my own space and privacy, so not having any privacy and sharing space with strangers will be difficult for me.
What moment in your career do you think prepared you to live in the Big Brother house?
My whole life has been a preparation for the Big Brother house. I've been through many challenges in my life and always intuitively knew how to turn them into opportunities to move forward. I have to say that the turning point in my life was when I discovered the books of Alice Miller. Her insights literally saved my life, and I wrote a book called A Dance to Freedom to help others break free from their emotional prisons like I did. Writing the book gave me a lot of confidence, and I think I can help a lot of my housemates if they’ll listen to me.
Which past Big Brother cast member did you like most?
I like Shannon Elizabeth, but I don't particularly have a favorite.
What are you afraid of? I don’t let fears stop me or control me. I prepare the best I can and I hold my nose and jump. My motto is: face your fears or they will just keep biting you in the butt.
What is the accomplishment you are most proud of? Leaving Portugal and facing and resolving my own childhood repression, and of course, writing a book on how to resolve childhood repression, and finding peace and becoming free to really love and live my own life.
Do you have a strategy for winning the game?
I just plan to be myself. People always underestimate me, so I have a feeling I’ll be off everyone’s radar early on. That will give me time to learn about everyone in the house and get a sense of the repressed traumas in their lives that they take out on others unconsciously and compulsively. I’ve learned how to deal with malignant narcissists and sociopaths, so if there are any in the group I think I’ll surprise them.
My life's motto is... Keep it simple, love and have fun
What would you take into the house and why? One of my cats for company and comfort and my book that is my baby and my gift to the world so I like to share it with as many people as possible that might be in the same place I once was, and hopefully be a support to them and not feel alone like I once did.
Fun facts about yourself:  - I love cats 
                                               - I am a goofball 
                                               -I read people very well and I’m a great judge of character 
                                               -Outspoken and not afraid of controversy
What would you do if “Big Brother” made you famous?  If Big Brother made me famous, I would use it to raise awareness of the dangers of childhood repression in our society.
“I like your application. Again smoothly and nicely put, really, you do so well, expressing yourself!!!” [It’s hard for me to believe someone saying something to me like you wrote above! 1995 when I read for the first time one of Alice Miller’s books I barely could write a full sentence. And look where I’m now?! I wrote a book with a lot of help, but I wrote a book and I have a blog. It’s amazing how far I have come?! Thanks to Alice Miller I broke free from my autistic state and now no one can stop me from talking and writing.]
“In this context, I especially like the adjectives, which you chose to describe you, and your life’s motto, your life with your cats etc. :-))) it has the lightness, which the readers at BB might need to read/ hear?  Otherwise, they might be triggered, by mentioning childhood and Alice Miller and so on??? We know both, how fast people run if they are confronted with their pain and are not ready to face it... I am the best example for this...of course, this is how you are and what you think about life and there is no need to hide anyway.
Maybe you could mention, that you have learned to be a "public" person (on stage) at your time as a dancer, including the fact, that you managed to keep your boundaries even in this special situation... ??? but you mentioned that a little in your vid anyway...  is there a timeline, when you will be informed, if you are in the next round??? I keep my fingers crossed! Keep on rocking, H”
[Thank you! I'm glad you liked my BB application. I think tomorrow is the deadline so if I don’t get a call by tomorrow it means I didn’t make the cut. Maybe I don’t fit in with this year’s theme. I will try again next year, but if what Sarah Benitez wrote below on Facebook: 

“So I was listening to my local morning radio show today and one of the young, recent college graduate assistant producers came on the air to tell a story about how yesterday someone from CBS slid into her Instagram DM’s and asked if she’d be interested in going on Big Brother. They’re looking for young, competitive, fun, SINGLE contestants. So..that’s what they’re looking for. Casting isn’t going to change.” 

So if this is true I will be too old in their eyes and I will never fit in in their show. Or maybe like you wrote they are just too afraid of me because I trigger their own repressed fears.]
"WOW, I just reread your exposition for Big Brother... 
you did amazing work. this is super clear and has the perfect mix of ease and depth...

and what an astonishing idea to apply for big brother... here in Germany, they copied this show, so I know at least a little about it. 

of course, it would a be huge challenge to finally really be there
anyway, you application sound really great, and maybe, how unlikely this might seem, they give you a chance. 
that would be great, even concerning all the risks, such a exposition to public might bring.
but i trust 100% in your integrity :-))))

you wrote so many thoughtful things about the emotional life of cult members...

i can relate very much.. it is true, that I hadn't had the chance to gather... about who I am and what I want... I realized that ..."

[Not being able to make a decision might be a trigger for people, but leaving people hanging waiting for too long might be even a bigger trigger and is understandable that eventually they give up and feel disappointed and stop waiting for you to make a decision and move on. 

Another possible question is: did people leave you hanging as a child and would not give you an answer either way too?! And now you treat others the same way.

I remember you mentioning before about the cult leader you got involved with and this could explain a lot why you don’t trust yourself to make the right decision for yourself because you made such a bad judgment about a person before.

I have read that people that have been involved with gurus or cults leaders have a hard time making decisions for themselves. “Trust -- Former cult members find themselves feeling phobic in many social situations. They tend to withdraw and to stay away from crowds and gatherings of more than several people. Feeling badly ripped off by the cult experience, they don't trust their own judgment, and they don't trust other people. Additionally, they lack self-esteem and self-confidence; they feel incompetent, clumsy, and undesirable as a consequence of their cult training. Former members' inability to trust is one of their most frequent and vivid problems. Not only do they realize that they trusted too much, but also they often end up blaming themselves forever joining the cult and for feeling inadequate about their decision-making abilities and judgment.”  

I never joined a cult, but I don’t trust anyone much and I’m always waiting when they will let me down, because eventually everyone due to their own unresolved repression will eventually let me down, it’s always a matter of time,  but it does not stop me from taking a risk with people and give them a chance --- I trust myself that I will be able to handle it when and if they let me down and move on if necessary.

Like you said there is no life without risks and we have to learn to take risks in life. 

I’m ready to retire and let go of everything, but if something crosses my path that I see it might give me a chance at exposing the work of Alice Miller to the masses I will jump into it and take the risk. 

I don’t watch much T.V., but I watched for the first time The Big Brother show and I thought to myself: I’m going to audition for the show that would be a good opportunity for people to get to know me and expose the work of Alice Miller to the masses! 

I really don’t want to be locked up for three months in a house with a bunch of strangers and have a camera follow my every move and listening to every word I say!  

Most likely they will not call me, because my story and Alice Miller scares most people, but if they call me I will go because that would be a great opportunity for people to see me and introduce Alice Miller’s work to the masses.  I’m going to have a few days off in the second week of April and I’m going to make my audition tape and send it to them.

Below is what I wrote for the Self Biography (Up to 70 words) question:

"I’ve lived in many countries, including Portugal, Spain, England, France, and the U.S. In 1985 I moved to Phoenix, Arizona and worked for 18 years as an exotic dancer. In 2014, I wrote a book called A Dance to Freedom to help people break free from their emotional prisons. I love spending time with my cats, being in nature, hiking, bicycling, having meaningful discussions, laughing, and joking around."

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