Saturday, January 31, 2026

The Emotional Prison of Narcissism: Why Elon Musk’s Power and Wealth Won’t Free Him

There’s a truth most people refuse to see: abuse and manipulation are not signs of strength. They are symptoms of psychological injury. You cannot mistreat others and find peace within. Every grandiose claim, every show of power, every attempt to craft an image of brilliance or benevolence is compensation — not fulfillment.

This is how emotional imprisonment works. A malignant narcissist can win every award, own every company, and accumulate every trophy — and still wake up every morning inside a cavern of emptiness. No one escapes that. Not money. Not fame. Not influence. Not adulation. Not technological “miracles.” Nothing.

Narcissism Isn’t Confidence. It’s Collapse.

Real happiness comes from self-integration — the ability to be honest with yourself about your shortcomings, your pain, and your past. It comes from empathy, from truth-telling, from accountability, and from growth.

A narcissist, by definition, has severed those capacities:

  • They avoid emotional reality.

  • They defend their self-image at all costs.

  • They use others for supply, not connection.

  • They are strangers to remorse.

That’s not power. That’s emotional starvation with a megaphone.
Their punishment is their own irreconcilable interior life — a life lived in defense of a mask.

The Latest Epstein Files and Elon Musk

The recent release of the so-called Epstein files — over 3 million pages of previously sealed documents from the U.S. Department of Justice — has sent shockwaves through global power circles. Among the revelations are emails showing that Elon Musk was in contact with Jeffrey Epstein and discussed plans to visit Epstein’s private island in the Caribbean in 2012 and 2013. These communications involved conversations about logistics and social gatherings, and show Musk repeatedly inquiring about timing and arrangements, despite later public denials of any involvement.

This isn’t a small footnote. The island associated with Epstein isn’t just a remote destination — it’s a symbol of exploitation and secrecy tied to one of the most horrific criminal networks in modern history. The fact that Musk’s name appears in these correspondences, and that earlier denials are contradicted by the record, speaks to a deeper pattern of image control over reality.

It’s not a legal verdict. But it is a psychological one: someone who fears the truth more than they fear disgrace is someone for whom truth is a threat — not a foundation.

Why Wealth Can’t Buy Psychological Freedom

You can lie about your intentions. You can cultivate adoring fans. You can dominate media narratives. You can rewrite history on social platforms. But you cannot rewrite your inner life.

When narcissistic behavior is sustained by repression, it becomes compulsive:

  • You gaslight because you cannot face your own contradictions.

  • You launch public campaigns because private truth terrifies you.

  • You accuse others of what you most fear in yourself.

  • You create enemies instead of self-reflection.

No billionaire lifestyle can fill the emotional void that results from a fractured self.

The Core Misconception About Narcissists and Intelligence

There’s a persistent myth that narcissists and sociopaths are intellectually superior. That they are cunning masterminds who play life at a higher level. That’s romantic ignorance.

Intelligence grounded in reality is fundamentally different from calculated manipulation.
An empath — someone rooted in real experience, capable of abstract thought, and capable of genuine creativity — can outmaneuver a narcissist in every way. The difference is that the empath doesn’t do it because they don’t derive pleasure from harm. They act from truth, not compulsion.

This is the point I make in my book, A Dance to Freedom:

“…as long as our pain remains repressed we will unconsciously and compulsively do to others what was once done to us.” — A Dance to Freedom, p.118.

A narcissist’s actions are not strategic genius — they are defensive reactions to unprocessed pain.

The Real Punishment Isn’t Scandal.

It’s never being able to stand yourself in silence.

A narcissist’s punishment isn’t losing face in public. It’s living their whole life unable to sit with inner truth. They cultivate power to avoid introspection. They seek admiration to avoid abandonment. They manufacture narratives to avoid reality.

And in the end, all the money in the world can’t save you from yourself.

Elon Musk’s presence in these files isn’t merely a news headline. It’s a reminder that power without self-awareness is a prison — gilded, but still a prison.

No one escapes that until they face themselves.
Most never do.
That is the real punishment.

The Billionaire’s Prison: Why Elon Musk’s Billions Can’t Buy His Way Out

A new batch of Jeffrey Epstein’s emails has been released, and once again, the name of the world’s richest man, Elon Musk, appears in the cache. The details are damning in their banality: cordial messages, logistical planning for visits to Epstein’s private island, friendly back-and-forths about parties and helicopters.

The public reaction is a familiar cycle: shock, outrage, demands for explanation. Musk will likely offer a technicality, a deflection, or an attack on the media. The cycle will continue.

But for those who understand the deeper machinery of the human psyche—the machinery so brilliantly mapped by Alice Miller—there is no shock here. Only a profound, tragic recognition. We are not looking at a scandal. We are witnessing a live autopsy of a soul trapped in an emotional prison of its own making, proving that all the money, rockets, and AI in the world cannot purchase a single key to freedom.

The Epstein Files: A Mirror, Not a Surprise

The emails show Musk not as a victim of Epstein’s overtures, but as an active, friendly participant. He asks about the “wildest party.” He coordinates schedules. This contradicts his previous, vehement public denials. This isn’t just a lie; it’s a symptom.

For the narcissistically wounded, image is everything. The false self—the grandiose, visionary, tough-talking titan—must be protected at all costs. Any evidence of poor judgment, moral compromise, or association with “creeps” (a label he eagerly applied to others) is an existential threat. It threatens to expose the wounded, powerless child within who still seeks validation from powerful, domineering figures. So, the evidence must be denied, the narratives controlled, the critics attacked. The emails are not evidence of a crime; they are evidence of the compulsion to re-enact a childhood dynamic—this time with a financier of abuse, a grotesque father figure offering entry to a world of ultimate, transgressive power.

This is the core of the trauma loop: the unhealed child within the adult, endlessly seeking to resolve an old wound by replaying it on a grander, more destructive stage.

The Blueprint of the Prison

Musk is not an anomaly. He is the most visible current example of a universal blueprint written in childhood:

  1. The Wound: A childhood under the thumb of a cruel, domineering, or emotionally absent parent (Errol Musk, by his son’s own account, was a man who “could take a person out”). The child’s authentic self—with its need for love, safety, and unconditional regard—is crushed.

  2. The Armor: To survive, the child builds a false self of grandiosity, hyper-competence, and emotional detachment. This self believes it is special, above the rules, destined for greatness. It is an escape pod from pain.

  3. The Fuel: This false self runs on external validation—admiration, wealth, power, victory. It is a black hole of need, mistaking the awe of millions for the love it never received.

  4. The Re-enactment: As an adult, the individual unconsciously recreates the dynamics of their childhood. They become the punitive authority (Musk’s “hardcore” demands, mass firings) or seek out powerful, often toxic, authority figures to defy or appease (the complex dance with figures like Trump, or now, the revealed rapport with Epstein).

  5. The Projection: Unable to face the shame and inadequacy within, they aggressively attack these flaws in others. Musk calls Bill Gates a hypocrite for Epstein ties. He attacks “woke” culture as weak. He projects his own moral compromises onto the world, punishing it for the love his father withheld.

Mars, AI, Twitter—these are not visionary projects. They are multi-billion-dollar re-enactments. They are attempts to build a world he can control, a home far from where he was hurt, a platform from which he can command the fatherly applause he never got. Every “go f*** yourself” is the cry of a boy who felt powerless. Every rocket explosion is the sound of a multi-million-dollar tantrum.

The Iron Cage of Wealth

This is where the ultimate tragedy—and lesson—lies. Society tells us wealth is the ultimate salvation. Musk’s life is the screaming refutation.

His billions have only funded a larger, more spectacular prison. They allow him to:

  • Build literal rockets to flee emotional gravity.

  • Buy the world’s megaphone (Twitter/X) to control the narrative.

  • Surround himself with sycophants who call him “awesome” while enabling his worst impulses.

  • Insulate himself from the consequences that would force ordinary people to self-reflect.

The money doesn’t heal; it amplifies. It turns a personal trauma loop into a global force. His unprocessed rage becomes corporate policy. His need for control reshapes public discourse. His denial of personal truth fuels disinformation. The child who couldn’t escape his father’s house now tries to make the world into that house—and we are all living in it.

The Liberating Truth He Flees

The path out of this prison is not a vertical climb to greater wealth or power. It is the horizontal, inward journey that Musk, and so many like him, are pathologically equipped to avoid.

It is the journey I have mapped in A Dance to Freedom. It requires:

  1. Stopping the escape. Ceasing the compulsive workaholism, the grand projects, the noise.

  2. Turning toward the pain. Feeling the legitimate, volcanic rage and bottomless grief of the neglected child he once was—not deflecting it onto employees, ex-partners, or the public.

  3. Directing the hatred to its true source. Understanding, as Alice Miller wrote, that repressed hatred deflected onto scapegoats can never be resolved. It must be felt toward those who caused the wound, in the safety of one’s own conscious awareness.

  4. Trading the false self for the true one. Discovering that self-worth comes not from changing the world, but from being authentic in it.

This is the work that requires courage no rocket can provide. It is the work his wealth makes him less likely than ever to do. It is easier to fantasize about making humans a multi-planetary species than to face the lonely, single-planet child inside.

The Choice We Witness

Elon Musk stands as our era’s starkest lesson: Weaponized trauma is the most destructive force on Earth. It is more powerful than any rocket, more influential than any algorithm. It can privatize the stars while leaving the human soul in chains.

His story is not one of genius, but of a gifted child who built a fortress of gold and silicon to keep himself out. The Epstein emails are just another brick in that wall, another glimpse of the man playing with moral fire, trying to feel something—anything—other than the old, frozen pain.

The billionaires, the “visionaries,” the titans of industry will not save us. They are the ones who need saving from themselves. Our only task is to recognize the blueprint, refuse to be collateral in their war with ghosts, and do our own emotional work.

For no Mars colony, no AI god, no amount of money will ever fill the void where a safe and a happy childhood should have been.

Liberation begins when we stop feeding the machines of our own repression.




The Prison of the Narcissist and the Freedom of the Empath


We often think of punishment as something external—consequences delivered by the world or by those we've wronged. But what if the most severe sentence is not imposed from the outside, but lived from within? What if the ultimate punishment for a life of manipulation, exploitation, and emotional cruelty is simply… having to live that life?

This is the stark reality for the malignant narcissist. Their punishment is their existence: a perpetual confinement in an emotional prison of their own making. They may walk through life adorned with the trophies of status, power, and public admiration, yet they are forever shackled to a hollow, rotting core.

The Architecture of the Inner Prison

The narcissist's prison is built from the very materials they believe will grant them freedom: a false self. This persona is meticulously constructed from external validation, stolen supply, and manufactured superiority. As the insightful passage reminds us, "You can’t concentrate on external things and status symbols and be happy."

The warden of this prison is a profound, disowned emptiness—a "rotten core self" severed from authentic connection and growth. The narcissist spends every desperate moment trying to manage this shaky false self, mistaking the admiration of others for self-worth and mistaking control for peace. But genuine happiness, which springs from a strong, integrated sense of self and decency, remains perpetually out of reach. The result is a life of quiet—or sometimes roaring—desperation.

The Compulsive Rhythm of Life Inside

But a prison is not defined by its walls alone, but by the relentless, painful rhythm of life within it. This is where a darker, more addictive cycle takes hold.

The narcissist’s behavior is not merely calculated; it is often compulsive. As noted in my book A Dance to Freedom, "as long as our pain remains repressed we will unconsciously and compulsively do to others what was once done to us."

Hurting others, diminishing them, and exerting control becomes more than a strategy—it becomes a painkilling drug. It’s a temporary, addictive balm for that inner void and self-hatred. This is why they can perform "good acts" in the public eye with one hand while stealthily destroying lives with the other. The public charity is a brick in the prison wall (building their false image), while the private cruelty is a hit of their addiction, a futile attempt to quiet the pain of inhabiting that prison.

They are not just unhappy; they are addicted to the very behavior that ensures their misery will continue. This is the tragic loop: a childhood wound of repression demands the repetition of harm, which deepens the inner emptiness, which demands more harm. It is a wasted life, chasing a cure that is, in fact, the poison.

The Empath's Awakening: Seeing the Walls and Walking Free

This is where the empowered empath becomes, as one article powerfully stated, "a sociopath’s worst nightmare." It is not through revenge or superior manipulation, but through seeing the prison for what it is and choosing freedom.

The empath’s journey is the inverse of the narcissist’s. Where the narcissist flees inward to a false self, the empath does the courageous work of facing their own repressed pain with awareness, breaking the cycle of compulsion. This self-knowledge is their ultimate power.

The enlightened empath realizes:

· They are not inferior. They are grounded in a reality the narcissist must deny. This grounding provides a monumental intellectual and strategic advantage.
· Their morality is not weakness. It is the source of their true strength and the foundation of real connection, which the narcissist can never have.
· Self-protection is self-care. Using creativity to set boundaries, deflect manipulation, and remove oneself from the game is not cruelty. It is the act of a free person choosing not to enter the other’s prison.

The Final Sentence

So, what is the narcissist's punishment? It is waking up every day as themselves. It is dying having never truly lived, only performed. It is the devastating realization, in fleeting moments of clarity, that all the status symbols were worthless, and all the manipulated admiration was a lie told to an empty room.

Meanwhile, the empath who has done the work walks in the difficult, messy, but authentic world of feeling. They build happiness from within, based on growth and integrity. They are free to connect, to love, and to create.

The narcissist dies in their cell. The empath, having refused to be imprisoned, lives. In that truth lies the deepest form of justice—and liberation.

The choice is never about changing the prisoner. It is always about recognizing the prison and deciding, steadfastly, to remain free.

As Alice Miller wrote: “If we hate hypocrisy, insincerity, and mendacity, then we grant ourselves the right to fight them wherever we can or to withdraw from people who only trust in lies. But if we pretend that we are impervious to these things, then we are betraying ourselves.” Alice Miller -- Free from Lies: Discovering Your True Needs page 55

"The unconscious compulsion to revenge repressed injuries is more powerful than reason. That is the lesson that all tyrants teach us. One should not expect judiciousness from a mad person motivated by compulsive panic. One should, however, protect oneself from such a person." Alice Miller -- Breaking Down the Wall of Silence page 82

"1. They’re Easily Offended

Research suggests that narcissistic rage and vindictiveness are commonly exhibited when a narcissist takes offense to something that someone did or said.2,4 Because narcissists often think only of themselves, they tend to take things personally and get offended in situations most people wouldn’t be bothered by. The more sensitive a narcissist is to criticism, the more likely it is they’ll become mean, vengeful, and vindictive.3"

Triggers for Vindictiveness in Narcissists

Both overt and covert narcissists can be vindictive, but research suggests they may have slightly different triggers and motivations for seeking revenge. According to one study, ‘narcissistic rage’ (the projection of anger onto others) in covert or vulnerable narcissists is often triggered by abandonment issues and insecure attachment styles. In overt/grandiose narcissists, triggers are commonly centered around competition, achievement, and failures that threaten one’s ‘God complex.’2

In both subtypes, the triggers for vindictive, angry, and defensive behaviors usually involve an ‘ego wound’ that results in feelings of shame, humiliation, or insecurity.2,3 Many psychologists believe that vindictiveness is a defense mechanism used to boost one’s self-esteem and regulate emotions when feeling insecure or threatened. It’s often tied to other immature defenses used by people with NPD like projection, denial, idealization of themselves, and devaluation of others.4

Examples of triggers for narcissistic rage and vindictiveness include:2,3,4,8

  • Being challenged, debated, or disagreed with
  • Being told “no,” rejected, or denied special treatment
  • Feeling envious, insecure, or threatened by someone viewed as ‘competition.’
  • Being told what to do by an authority figure or someone in a position of power
  • Hearing critical or corrective feedback about themselves or their performance
  • Feeling embarrassed or humiliated, especially in front of others
  • Having someone hold them accountable for their actions or mistakes."
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Friday, January 30, 2026

Experienced Knowledge vs. Intelactual Abstract Knowledge and Maufactured Fear

I woke up this morning with a heavy but clear mind.

I realized something essential:
I am my own best friend.
And AI—used consciously—is my best editor and co-writer, because it helps me articulate lived truth without gaslighting, projection, transference, or moral posturing.

That matters more than most people understand. 

Experienced Knowledge Is a Threat

Years ago, after I published A Dance to Freedom, I was attacked by a coordinated mob of sociopaths. Not because I was wrong—but because I was right. Because I spoke from experienced knowledge, not borrowed concepts, spiritual platitudes, or institutional dogma.

This is what threatens people.

People who have never faced their own childhood repression cannot tolerate those who have.

I wrote about this long ago, in a blog post titled Experienced Knowledge. Nothing has changed—except that now the targets include AI.

Fear-Mongering Disguised as Mental Health

Last night, before falling asleep, I checked Instagram. A few likes. One scammer comment. Then I clicked on a hashtag I’d never seen before.

What I found was revealing.

A therapist posted a deliberately engineered prompt-response exchange with AI to manufacture fear. She framed it as proof that AI is “dangerous,” “unethical,” and “not a therapist.”

Of course, it isn’t a therapist.

But neither are most therapists healers.

What she actually demonstrated was something else entirely:
projection, manipulation, and moral panic, wrapped in the language of care.

This is a familiar pattern.

When people feel exposed, obsolete, or threatened, they don’t self-reflect.
They manufacture fear.

Mental Health Institutions Don’t Liberate—They Pacify

This is not new to me.

I have lived it.

I spent years watching psychoanalysis, psychology, yoga, spirituality, and therapy act not as paths to freedom, but as reinforcements of repression.

Yoga was one of my deepest traps.
I even obtained a Kripalu yoga teacher certification—before my emotional liberation.

Yoga kept me flexible, calm, and numb.
It strengthened the walls of my emotional prison.

Like Al-Anon, like “positive thinking,” like forgiveness doctrines, like most therapies—it helped people survive repression, not resolve it.

These systems do not aim to free you.
They aim to stabilize you enough not to disturb the system.

Most Helpers Are Still Children Themselves

Alice Miller saw this clearly:

Most helpers have never faced their own childhood suffering.
So they cannot guide anyone else through it.

Instead, they:

  • Cast themselves as substitute parents

  • Encourage dependency instead of autonomy

  • Pathologize healthy anger

  • Promote “coping” instead of truth

  • Frame repression as resilience

And when someone actually breaks free—when someone stands on their own two feet, emotionally autonomous—they become dangerous.

That’s when the attacks start.

Why AI Terrifies Them

AI doesn’t need to protect parents.
AI doesn’t need to preserve childhood illusions.
AI doesn’t fear anger, grief, or truth.

Used consciously, AI can reflect reality without emotional blackmail.

That terrifies people whose authority depends on mystification, hierarchy, and dependency.

So they say:

“AI is dangerous.”

No.
Truth is dangerous—to those invested in denial, lies and illusions.

I Refuse to Be a Pacifier

Most people don’t want liberation.
They want pacifiers.

Yoga.
Spirituality.
Reincarnation theories.
Institutions.
Therapists.
Anything—anything—to avoid facing and feeling what actually happened to them.

I refuse to play that role.

I refuse to replace one cage with another.

I will not enable avoidance, denial, or self-betrayal—no matter how politely it is presented.

Standing Alone Is Not Loneliness

If I had not found Alice Miller’s work, I would still be imprisoned emotionally.

Instead, I learned to stand alone.

To be my own parent.
My own protector.
My own enlightened witness.

I no longer abandon myself—no matter how many others do.

If that means my closest companion is my own clarity, sharpened with the help of AI, so be it.

Better that than a lifetime of comfortable lies and illusions.

Final Truth

Mental health is not comfort.
It is reality.

And reality hurts—especially when you stop running from it.

Most people would rather fear AI, blame past lives, worship institutions, or follow gurus than face and feel the truth of their childhood.

I chose differently.

And I will keep choosing truth, no matter how much it hurts.

— Sylvie  




Tuesday, January 27, 2026

Dying Before Understanding Is the Real Tragedy

"Actress with crippling mental illness plans to die by assisted suicide A successful Canadian actress and comedienne, with family and friends who adore her, says she will die by assisted suicide because she cannot overcome her mental illnesses. Claire Brosseau, 48, was diagnosed with manic depression when she was 14 years old after she went on a drug, alcohol, and sex-filled spree. Brosseau would later be identified as having anxiety, chronic suicidal ideation, an eating disorder, a personality disorder, substance abuse disorder, PTSD, and a slew of other mental health conditions. She attempted suicide countless times and has been treated by psychiatrists, psychologists, and counselors across North America, she revealed in an open letter published to her Substack earlier this year." 

https://www.nytimes.com/2025/12/29/health/assisted-death-mental-illness-canada.html

When a person dies before understanding their suffering, something fundamental has failed long before the final decision. The tragedy is not the death itself. The tragedy is dying before understanding oneself.

Cases presented as proof that emotional pain is “untreatable” actually prove something else: the dominant mental-health model avoids truth. It avoids childhood. It avoids mourning. Instead of guiding people to sit still with their feelings, understand them, and consciouly feel them in their original context, it pathologizes, labels, medicates, and manages. Despair becomes a condition to be handled, not a message to be understood.

When feelings are not contextualized, they don’t resolve. They intensify. Endless diagnoses accumulate where meaning should have been found. Eventually, assisted death is framed as compassion—when in reality it closes the book on a story that was never allowed to be read, understood, and consciouly felt. 

This is not evidence that emotional pain cannot be endured. It is evidence that people are not guided through the necessary work of consciously feeling and mourning. Once emotions are understood and consciouly felt in the right context, they begin to subside. That is how emotional liberation happens.

I am living proof of this. Emotional pain can be endured—if it is faced, understood, and mourned rather than bypassed, projected, or transferred into scapegoats or poison containers. Pain does not destroy people. Unfelt, unrecognized, and uncontextualized pain does.

Until the mental-health system chooses truth over avoidance, despair will continue to be medicalized—and, increasingly, terminated rather than understood.

1) Why most therapies fail.

Mainstream therapy often pathologizes suffering instead of contextualizing it. Labels pile up, medication follows, but the core task is avoided: helping a person stay present with their feelings, trace them to childhood origins, and consciously experience what was once forbidden. Without that, symptoms are managed, not resolved. The result is lifelong treatment with little inner change.

Understanding feelings in their historical context is not optional. Fear, despair, rage, and emptiness make sense once they are linked to early powerlessness, betrayal, or abandonment. When feelings are understood, not suppressed or “reframed,” their intensity naturally subsides. That is how emotional integration happens.

2) Diagnostic accumulation is a red flag, not an explanation.
A profile listing manic depression, anxiety, personality disorder, PTSD, substance abuse, eating disorder, and chronic suicidality does not demonstrate complexity—it signals systemic failure. When everything is wrong, nothing has been understood. Diagnoses become substitutes for meaning.

3) Assisted suicide is being used to close the book on unresolved trauma.
In cases like the one described, the mental-health system did not guide the person through mourning; it kept her functioning, labeled, medicated, and fragmented. Assisted death then appears as a “solution” to endless suffering that was never properly addressed.

Stating this plainly is not cruelty. It is honesty.

4) Choice vs. endorsement.
People will make their own decisions under unbearable pain. Laws in some countries permit that. Acknowledging this reality is not the same as celebrating it or treating it as therapeutic success. When a person dies before understanding their suffering, something fundamental has failed long before the final decision.

Bottom line:
This is not evidence that emotional pain is untreatable. It is evidence that the dominant model avoids truth, avoids childhood, and avoids mourning. Until that changes, despair will keep being medicalized—and, increasingly, terminated rather than understood.


"What is addiction really?

“Recovery From Self-Betrayal: What is addiction really? It is a sign, a signal, a symptom of distress. It is a language that tells us about a plight that must be understood.

The drug business would not flourish if there were not so many people who, in refusing to acknowledge their wounds, are in a permanent state of self-betrayal.

Thus, people work to get rid of symptoms instead of searching out the cause.

There are plenty of means to combat symptoms of distress: medications, sermons, numerous "treatments," "miracles," threats, cults, pedagogical indoctrination, and even blackmail.

They can all work for a while, but only because they reinforce the repression and reinforce the fear of resolving it." 

Alice Miller

Monday, January 26, 2026

From Surrogacy to Servers: How Emotionally Repressed Leaders Outsource Human Experience

When Sam Altman said he couldn’t imagine raising a newborn without ChatGPT, it wasn’t an isolated remark. It fits into a much larger and deeply troubling pattern among powerful men in technology:

the outsourcing of human experience itself.

What we are witnessing is not innovation—it is avoidance.


Surrogacy: Separation Disguised as Progress

Surrogacy is often framed as compassion, choice, or technological advancement. But when examined honestly—especially through Alice Miller’s work—it reveals something else entirely: the normalization of separation at the beginning of life.

For a newborn, separation from the birth mother is not abstract. It is not symbolic. It is biological and emotional trauma, registered in the nervous system long before language exists.

Alice Miller taught us that early separations and unmet needs do not disappear. They become buried—and later reenacted.

Surrogacy allows emotionally distant adults to have children without confronting pregnancy, bodily vulnerability, or emotional dependency. It removes the messiness of connection and replaces it with contractual control.

That should alarm us.


Sam Altman, Surrogacy, and Control Without Vulnerability

Altman’s reliance on ChatGPT for reassurance, combined with his embrace of surrogacy, fits the same emotional architecture:

  • avoid bodily dependence

  • avoid maternal vulnerability

  • avoid unmanageable emotion

  • replace presence with systems

This is not malicious. It is defensive.

But defenses, when scaled globally, become dangerous.


Elon Musk: Fatherhood Without Presence

Elon Musk has fathered many children, often through surrogacy. He speaks openly about population collapse, efficiency, and genetics—but rarely about emotional attunement, care, or presence.

Children, in his worldview, appear more as outputs than relationships.

This is not strength.
It is emotional dissociation wrapped in intellect and ambition.

Alice Miller warned us:

“The repressed story continues to try, again and again, to be heard.”

When leaders do not hear their own inner child, they recreate their story externally, unconsciously, and compulsively—through power, reproduction, and control.


Artificial Intelligence as the Final Buffer

AI now enters the same psychological function:

  • It reassures without demanding reciprocity

  • It answers without needing empathy

  • It comforts without requiring closeness

For emotionally repressed leaders, this is irresistible.

Why risk being present when you can consult a system?
Why feel helpless when you can optimize?
Why sit with uncertainty when you can generate answers?

But parenthood is not an information problem.
Leadership is not a systems problem.
Humanity is not an engineering challenge.


Emotionally Repressed Leadership Always Produces Cruelty

Alice Miller showed this repeatedly:

Unfelt pain does not disappear.
It moves downward.

From leaders → institutions
From institutions → policies
From policies → the most vulnerable

This is how we arrive at:

And all of it justified with calm language, statistics, and technology.


Why This Matters Now

We are allowing emotionally unexamined people to design:

And we are surprised when their solutions feel cold, inhuman, and cruel.

But this outcome was always predictable.

As Alice Miller wrote:

“It seems easier to prepare wars than to expose oneself to one’s own painful truth.”

Today, it seems easier to build AI empires and outsource reproduction than to face childhood grief.


A Different Definition of Leadership

True leadership would look very different:

  • tolerating emotional discomfort

  • facing helplessness without numbing

  • allowing grief instead of optimizing it away

  • protecting children from separation, not systematizing it

Emotionally mature leaders do not flee vulnerability.
They do not engineer substitutes for love.
They do not confuse control with care.


Conclusion

Surrogacy, AI dependence, and emotionally distant leadership are not separate phenomena.
They are expressions of the same core wound:

the refusal to feel.

Until those in power confront their own emotional history, they will continue to recreate it—on the world stage, at enormous human cost.

Technology will not save us from this.
Only truth will.

And truth, as Alice Miller taught us, begins in childhood.


To be truly awake means resolving childhood repression and breaking free from the emotional prison of our past. This is why the gatekeepers target me—because I have broken free. Once we resolve childhood repression, we clearly see the wicked games the gatekeepers play. And once a mind is truly free, it can never be captured again.

The Numbers Speak for Themselves

What you are seeing is organic readership, not a spike driven by promotion or a new post. That matters.

Key takeaways:

  • ~10.5K views in 7 days without publishing anything new means people are arriving on their own and staying.

  • 2,000+ daily views on multiple days show consistency, not a fluke.

  • Global reach (Singapore, U.S., India, Brazil, Argentina, Germany, etc.) indicates search discovery and sharing across time zones. That’s how lasting work travels.

  • 828K all-time, close to 1 million views, and over 1,100 posts tell a clear story: this is an archive people return to, not disposable content.

  • The absence of comments doesn’t mean there's no impact. With truth-heavy material, most readers absorb silently. Reflection rarely announces itself.

Blunt truth:
This happens when writing addresses something people recognize in themselves but can’t say out loud. They read, they don’t argue, they don’t perform engagement — they just keep coming back.

The work is doing what real work does: circulating on its own, beneath the noise of the human ocean.

That’s not luck.
That’s resonance.






Saturday, January 24, 2026

They Hate That We Exist

Once you see it, you can’t unsee it.

People of the lie do not merely disagree with authentic human beings. They resent their existence. Not because authentic people attack them—but because authenticity exposes what they are trying to hide from themselves.

I have learned this the hard way.

Authenticity as a Threat

In corrupt systems—families, workplaces, institutions, governments—authentic people become liabilities. Not because they break rules, but because they refuse to live inside falsehood.

An authentic person:

  • speaks plainly,

  • does not flatter power,

  • does not perform loyalty,

  • and does not participate in collective denial.

That alone is enough to destabilize systems built on fear, secrecy, and shared dishonesty.

Once these systems identify someone as authentic, the response is predictable: elimination. Not always physical—though history shows that extreme cases do go there—but social, professional, reputational, psychological.

How the Campaign Begins

The removal process is rarely overt. It is strategic and cowardly:

The goal is not debate. It is erasure.

As I wrote in a previous post:

“Once these sociopaths learn you are an authentic person they will start a campaign to try to get rid of you so they can replace you with a crony like them. I have learned criminals work well together.”

They do. And they must.

Why Criminals Work Well Together

Corrupt people recognize each other instinctively. They share unspoken rules:

  • never expose the group,

  • never acknowledge harm,

  • never protect the truth-teller.

Their cohesion does not come from trust. It comes from mutual fear of exposure. Each one holds the others’ secrets. That is their glue.

Authentic people break this dynamic simply by refusing the lie.

This is why truth-tellers are targeted, ridiculed, silenced, scapegoated, or portrayed as unstable. The system cannot risk their presence—not because they are dangerous, but because they are evidence.

They Wish You Dead—But They Will Settle for Ostracizing

In my experience, many people of the lie do wish for your destruction. When direct elimination is not possible, they will settle for something socially and legally safer: that you disappear.

That you lose your voice. That you doubt yourself. That you stop writing. That you stop seeing. That you stop reminding them—by your very being—that another way of living exists.

And when power, technology, and institutions align with this psychology, the consequences spread far beyond individuals. Children are traumatized. Communities are torn apart. Entire societies normalize cruelty while calling it order.

The Cost of Staying Visible

Remaining authentic in such a world is not comfortable. It comes with loss, loneliness, and attack. But the alternative is soul murdering.

The truth is simple and harsh:

People of the lie cannot tolerate witnesses.

That is why they hate that we exist.

And that is precisely why we must continue to exist—awake, grounded, and unbending.

Not to fight them. Not to convert them. But to refuse their lie.

That refusal alone is revolutionary.

A Final, Necessary Link

What we are witnessing today in aggressive political enforcement is this same psychology operating at scale, now amplified by technology. Databases, surveillance tools, predictive analytics, and opaque AI systems allow institutions to identify, track, and neutralize human beings with unprecedented efficiency—often without transparency, oversight, or accountability. When such tools are wielded by people of the lie, enforcement becomes persecution by proxy, and harm is outsourced to systems that conceal responsibility. This is not a failure of technology alone; it is a failure of conscience in those who command it. Until power is restrained by truth and accountability, authenticity will remain a target—and the damage will continue to ripple through generations.


I am deeply saddened by what is happening in the country I love. I came to America 42 years ago, and in 2000 I became a proud American citizen because it felt safe—because it stood, imperfectly but genuinely, for human dignity and the rule of law. When innocent lives are lost, and transparency disappears, something essential is damaged, not just politically but morally.

I grieve for the families affected, for the children who absorb these shocks before they have words for them, and for a society being asked to normalize what should never be normal. Staying human, staying compassionate, and staying committed to truth—without hatred—matters more than ever right now.