Friday, July 31, 2015

I went Through the Same Persecution Planned Parenthood is Going Through in the Stage of the World

I went through exactly this same type of persecution at my last job that Planned Parenthood is going through in the stage of the world. Having closed meetings planning how to destroy me with a very strategic smear campaign, so they could discredit me and what I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from lies and illusions exposing the lies and illusions these types of people create to deceive the masses in order to protect themselves from having to face their own personal painful truths.

"Planned Parenthood is in the news a lot these days thanks to a maliciously edited video making it look like they SELL BABY PARTS.
It’s weird for those of us with two brain cells to rub together, that this is even a thing. Because first of all, obviously Planned Parenthood doesn’t sell BABY PARTS. Jesus fucking christ, get a hold of yourselves. Baby parts!
3% of all Planned Parenthood’s activities are abortions, and more than 90% of those are in the first trimester when it’s about size of a kidney bean, so they do see some pieces of fetal tissue. Which are just going to be thrown away in the garbage, but which the patient can instead choose to donate to important medical research.
HOW DARE THEY! How dare Planned Parenthood allow women to aid in the research and treatment of conditions like H.I.V. and Parkinson’s disease, when instead those women could just be throwing that tissue in the garbage!
So yeah, there’s the fact that Planned Parenthood obviously isn’t “selling baby parts.” And then there’s the fact that the group releasing this video are some of the same people who worked for the group Live Action, which is best known for…editing together misleading videos attacking Planned Parenthood.
So despite the fact that this is an obviously made up and ridiculous accusation, actual politicians are taking it seriously. If you live in the US, your tax dollars are now going toward Congressional Republicans calling for a formal investigation, and the House Energy and Commerce Committee has announced they’ll launch a probe. A probe for baby parts! Good luck, guys!
This all reminds me of a course I took in college on heresy. I remember learning about how multiple times throughout human history, various groups of people have been accused of the very specific act of gathering together and hosting orgies, and then taking the resulting babies from any past orgies and burning them into ashes, which are then formed into cakes, which are then eaten. Usually it’s supposed to be the Jews doing this but plenty of other marginalized groups have been accused as well. And it always baffled me to think that people could really, truly believe that their fellow humans were doing something so obviously stupid and made up.
Well, now it’s 2015 and an organization that is mostly responsible for making sure poor women have access to basic medical care including cancer screenings, checkups, and birth control, are accused of convincing women to abort their babies and then tearing them into parts and selling them on the black market.
And I realize, that if it helps you achieve your goals — whether they be persecuting people of a different faith or cutting funding for poor women’s health care — it becomes surprisingly easy to believe something unbelievable." Rebecca Watson
Read more and watch the video here

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Open Letter to Senator John McCann

Yesterday I got the e-mail at the bottom from Senator John McCann. I tried to reply to his e-mail, but I got a reply saying that they don’t read replies and to go to his website to make a comment, but then they said that I had passed the word count allowed, so here is my reply to him:

 Dear Senator McCann,

Thank you for your reply regarding my recently e-mail to you about the released videos for the purpose of smear campaign of Planned Parenthood. 

 For some people in our society, if a woman gets pregnant, they want to remove all her rights to body autonomy and what she does with her fetus, the fetus belongs to the woman and not to politicians like you; it’s her decision, if she wants to sell it or donate it or if she wants to carry it to term and create a new life, it's her choice and it’s not anyone’s business what she does with her body parts.

You say you understand my position, but you don’t. You want to regulate my body and my body is not up for debate and to be regulated by others. I am the captain of my body and I rather die than let a politician like you make decisions relating to my own body.  No, abortion is not a hot issue! People like you make it a hot issue, because they want to control women’s fate under the disguise of wanting to protect unborn life, if you have problems with abortion don’t have one, but stay out of my own body. I don’t have a problem with abortion and I will have one if I ever need one, even if I would have to kill myself to exercise my right not to carry a pregnancy to term and bring a new life into this world for people like you to enslave.

What’s appalling to me, is that you are more concerned with women’s body parts like fetuses, but don’t give a damn about real children already born suffering and being exploited and  tortured around the world everywhere, that’s what is really appalling! 

You want to protect the sanctity of life?! Start protecting real children, breathing living human beings and stop wasting tax dollars protecting women's  body parts that don’t need protection and we don’t want your protection! But real children do want and need your protection everywhere.

Please educate yourself and read Alice Miller’s article below:  Protecting Life After Birth.

Thank you for your attention.


 Sylvie Imelda Shene


DESPITE THE MANY GLIMMERS OF TRUTH THAT 1989 brought to us, the same year was seen out in Germany with an unexpected, and unsettling, event. In numerous Catholic churches, the bells were rung for fifteen minutes to proclaim to the faithful that abortion was a sin.  In the midst of the euphoria at the tearing down of the Berlin wall and the growing consciousness among young people, we were thrown back into the Middle Ages--an era in which much of what we know today was as yet undiscovered, and which, anyway, had little interest in enlightenment.


Church bells have never been rung to proclaim the mistreatment of children sinful.  They weren’t rung as Hitler organized the mass deportation of Jews throughout Europe, or as Stalin presided over the extermination of millions.  And they didn’t ring as Ceausescu terrorized his nation, using its children as apprentice “Securitate” men, who would later open fire on real children.  But now they did ring, for a full fifteen minutes, so that even more unwanted and later tortured children could be born into the world!

In disbelief, one asks oneself:  Is it possible that the people behind such actions really are so clueless?  Do they not know that no less than one hundred percent of all seriously abused children are unwanted?  Do they not know what that can lead to?  Do they not know that mistreatment is a parent’s way of taking revenge on the children they never wanted?  Shouldn’t the authorities do everything in their power, in the light of this information, to see to it that the only children who are born are wanted, planned for, and loved?  If they did, then we could put an end to the creation and continuation of evil in our world.  To force the role of a mother on a woman who does not wish to be mother is an offense not just against her, but against the whole human community, because the child she brings into the world is likely to take criminal revenge for its birth, as do the many (mis)leaders threatening our lives.  All wars we ever had were the deeds of once unwanted, heinously mistreated children.  It is the right to lived life that we must protect wherever and whenever it is threatened. And it should never be sacrificed to an abstract idea.
Not everyone is capable of thinking in real, concrete terms.  Many seek refuge in religious beliefs.  In their weakness, they place their trust in “relics,” awaiting salvation at the hands of one stronger than themselves.  Anyone who claims to be a strong and knowledgeable authority for such people, and to be acting on their behalf, has the duty to be conscious of the appropriate facts.  If they aren’t, if they ignore or neglect that duty, clamming instead that their palpable lack of information and their abstract conceptions of “life” are sanctioned by God and practiced in the name of humanity, they are acting against life, by misusing the weakness and trust of the faithful and dangerously confusing them.  The injunction against abortion goes even further:  Consciously or unconsciously, it represents support for cruelty against children and active complicity in the creation of unwanted existences, existences that can easily become a liability for the community at large.
When I see the passion with which Catholic priests - men childless by choice - fight against abortion, I can’t help asking what it is that motivates them.  Is it a desire to prove that unlived life, as perhaps their own destinies suggest, is more important and more valuable than lived life?  Was that, perhaps, how the parents of those passionately committed to stopping abortion thought, though they expressed it in different ways?  Or is it a case of seeing to it that others share the same fate as oneself?  Both are possible.  Both are dangerous, when people are driven to blind and destructive actions by the dead hand of their own repression.
It is, in fact, not surprising to find that those who are both victims and apologist for the use of violence and severity against children are often those who most passionately proclaim their love of the unborn child, i.e., the kernel of life.  Abortion can, indeed, be seen as the most powerful symbol of the psychic annihilation and mutilation practiced since time immemorial on children.  But to combat this evil merely at the symbolic level deflects us from the reality we should not evade for a moment longer:  the reality of the abused and humiliated child, which, as a result of its disavowed and unresolved injuries, will insidiously become, either openly or aided by hypocrisy, a danger to society.
It is above all the children already born that have a right to life - a right to coexistence with adults in a world in which, with or without the help of the church, violence against children has been unequivocally outlawed.  Until such legislation exists, talk of “the right to life” remains not only a mockery of humanity but a contribution to its destruction.
Few countries in Europe have, in fact, made parental violence against children a criminal act.  Sweden, Norway, Finland, Denmark, and recently, Austria have done so.  The largest European countries, however - France, Great Britain, and Germany - still refuse to enact such legislation.  Their argument against it employs the familiar language of pedagogy.  It is, they say, “in the interest of the child” not to have such laws.  It is even claimed that the mistreatment of children would increase if parents were to be threatened with prosecution.  In my book Banished Knowledge, I analyzed in detail the motives and reasons behind such arguments in connection with the writing of a number of “professional helpers,” so I will not go into it again here.  Suffice it to say ten years’ experience in Sweden has proved precisely the opposite.  The law against corporal punishment, introduced ten years ago in Sweden, has set in motion an irreversible process that sets that country apart from its European neighbors.  Thanks to that legislation, the fact that the physical maltreatment of children is a manifestly criminal act has now become anchored in the consciousness of the Swedish people.  Which is not to say criminality has been abolished overnight as a result of such legislation.  It does mean, however, that only a small minority of the population, through their ignorance, furthers the cause of criminality.  There is, for instance, a religious sect in Sweden that counsels the use of physical force against children with recourse to biblical precedent.  But in the society at large such views win few friends.  In the eyes of the aware majority, such a sect is merely a destructive fringe element.
In the most powerful European countries, however, the situation is quite different.  There, only a minority is committed to the abolition of child abuse.  The majority, drawing on a long tradition, rest comfortably in the conviction that the use of force is the best way of rearing children.  Peter Newell, founder of the organization EPPOCH, has reported in his book Children Are People, Too (London, 1989) that since legislation was introduced in Sweden only one case----involving a father, and punished with a small fine---has come before the courts.  And though such information needs to be supplemented by other data, it nonetheless appears perfectly logical that a criminal act is committed less often when it is made illegal than when it is permitted.  Why, then, do the powers-that-be go on ignoring this self-evident logic, two hundred years after the declaration of human rights?  Why is it still not illegal to hit a defenseless child when it is an indictable offense to strike a grownup---someone who can, after all, defend him-or herself?  How many arguments must still be mustered before this inhuman practice is finally, and unequivocally, outlawed?
Even if most civic authorities do not know---or do not wish to know---that their refusal to pass legislation only contributes to the growth of crime, terrorism, drug addiction, widespread psychic illness and the survival of ignorance, they surely have to recognize the indisputable fact that children are people and have the right not be beaten, as do we all.  It is to be assumed, therefore, that Peter Newell’s initiative to change the laws governing the mistreatment of children in England will spread to France and Germany, thereby putting an end to ignorance of and complicity in this, the gravest of crimes against humanity.
I agree with Peter Newell’s view that such legislative reform would be of epochal significance.  At last, victims of mistreatment would be freed from their acute, and paralyzing, guilt-fears---feelings that later prompt them to be in their turn the persecutors of others.  By categorically condemning the criminal actions of the past generations, such laws would also enlighten the coming generation and help it to avoid the blind repetition of its forefathers’ guilt.  It would also bring an immediate change to the way that parents behave.
Only then, when the law has unequivocally condemned the mistreatment of children as a criminal offense---making it punishable, say, with a fine---can a change in public awareness be expected.  Criminality may not disappear in a trice, as a result.  But such legislation will a least fill all those gaps in our consciousness that allow us to go on referring to such crimes as “socialization” or “upbringing.”  It would set an important caesura, marking the beginning of a process leading to a real humanity, a humanity that would create the necessary conditions for fundamental change to our way of living.
The horror of Hitler and Stalin, and the way in which their deed and ideologies spread across the continent of Europe like a grotesque plague when I was young, taught me what price human being pay ---or make others pay---for their blindness.  It also taught me that this blindness cannot be allowed to continue.  Young people can today learn the same lessons from Ceausescu’s example and others---above all, that dictators, once they have established themselves, can, with the help of the technical means available to them today, hold in to power far longer than they could before and are more difficult to topple without the loss of many lives.  Only under the favorable conditions created by Gorbachev’s courage to face the facts the Rumanian people manage to free themselves from the maniacal and destructive political machine one madman, attempting---and failing---to save himself from the fears rooted in his childhood, had created.
One of today’s tasks is to take preventive measures and thereby see to it that our children’s future is not left to chance.  That can only happen if we attempt to understand and avoid the origins of the kind of situation that the Rumanian people were forced to endure for twenty years.  And we must do everything we can to prevent similar situations occurring.  In the light of our knowledge today, they do not need to occur.  Once the wall of silence surrounding childhood has been completely demolished, once people have access to the information they need---from the press, from books dealing with the subject, or in their own experiences in therapy---to explain how fantasies of revenge and the hunger for revenge arise, and once legislation outlawing the mistreatment of children has been passed, we will stop helping ignorance breed destructiveness and crime.
Then it will finally be visible to the great majority of people that a human being comes into the world as a highly sensitive creature, and that, from the first day of its life, it learns the nature of good and evil--learning faster, and more effectively, than it ever will again.  Only then will we realize with horror, what these tiny, immensely sensitive creatures did learn, and learn indelibly, as they were treated like so much inert matter that their parents---our forefathers---sought to mold into malleable objects.  Hammering at this creature as they would at a piece of metal, they finally got the obedient robot they wanted. In the process they fashioned tyrants and criminals.  The products of this process---those who managed to come through with a small part of their potential intact---spent the rest of their lives claiming that the mistreatment they were subjected to as children had not harmed them one bit.  And how could it be otherwise, if they did not know how mutilated they had been?  Many still don’t know, don’t know that they forfeited a wealth of possibilities as their souls---and that means also their capacity to perceive---were mutilated.  Only their children’s children, who grew up with more freedom, will realize this in all its implications.  Thanks to their consciousness and knowledge of such crimes in the past, they will be able to avoid them in the future.  They will, I am sure, also do everything they can to counter blindness with enlightenment, knowing that it is just this blindness that enables ignorant and irresponsible people to climb to the pinnacles of power.
From the book: "Breaking Down the Wall of Silence: The Liberating Experience of Facing Painful Truth" By Alice Miller

July 24, 2015 

Dear Ms. Shene:

Thank you for contacting me regarding the recently released videos depicting senior executives of Planned Parenthood discussing the organization's practice of harvesting and selling the tissue and organs of unborn babies.    I appreciate you taking the time to share your views on this matter with me, and while we disagree, I understand your position.   

As you know, abortion is one of the most heavily debated social issues and it often invokes strong emotions from its supporters and opponents.    I am sure you are also aware that I have long opposed abortion and have consistently voted against federal funding for abortion-related activities.    Because of my strong belief in protecting the sanctity of life, I found the videos regarding Planned Parenthood, and the apparent practices being discussed in the videos, to be appalling.    With this in mind, I recently joined 42 other Senators on a letter to Department of Health and Human Services (HHS) Secretary Sylvia Burwell questioning the legal, ethical, and policy implications of the footage and calling on the Department to cooperate with future investigations into Planned Parenthood's practices.            

I believe that society has a moral obligation to protect the unborn, and this obligation cannot be considered insignificant or irrelevant.    The Supreme Court's ruling in Planned Parenthood v. Casey did not overturn Roe v. Wade, but it did affirm the right of the individual states to determine whether and how abortion services could be regulated. Therefore, I encourage you to let your state legislators know your thoughts on this issue. 

Again, thank you for sharing your views with me.    I hope you will continue to share your thoughts on other issues of mutual concern with me, as I am sure that we will find that we agree on a number of these issues.    I look forward to hearing from you again.   


John McCain

United States Senator 

That’s all she ever did pass the buck and cover her ass

Since writing this blog, my ex-boss, who the property manager recruited to do her dirty work, killed himself in a standoff with the local police after robbing a bank on March 11, 2016, that by coincidence was my birthday! So, the property manager does have blood on her hands after all, because I know without a doubt, if she had not started this psychological warfare against me, he would still be alive – he was her collateral damage – when people start wars someone always gets hurt or killed!!! I was her target to destroy, but when was one of her helpers to lose his mind and self-destruct, everyone involved became silent, and now is a big cover-up that involves the FBI, the US Marshals, and the media. It's a shame he was not strong enough to stand up to do the right thing and let himself become a puppet of the property manager -- he paid a high price for it. Puppets never have a good end. If it was me, the little woman to commit a crime my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all probably go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was -- to discredit me and my book -- and make a name for themselves by standing on my head. And all probably say that you need God in your life, my ex-boss was a Mormon, a man of God, but he was the one to lose his mind, but now is a big cover-up. I could see their dirty games and traps so clearly.
Read more in the link below:  

Dear J,

You have been in my mind and I was thinking about writing you when got your e-mail! So happy to hear from you!

I know you are not criticizing me. I was thinking the same thing, that maybe you were thinking I was criticizing you in my last e-mail. I hope you know that I was not criticizing you. It reminds me when the property manager at my last job accused me of not taking criticism well. I don’t take criticism well when I know someone is accusing me maliciously and plotting to try to destroy me by projecting herself into me in order make herself look good and make me look bad.  And the fact is: she is the one that doesn’t take criticism well, and she got really vicious when I confronted her about passing the buck every time someone makes a complaint to her, and she never solves any problems herself that she only cares about is covering her ass.  That’s all she ever did pass the buck and cover her ass.

The quotes below describes exactly what happened at my last job after I published my book! The property manager recruited a team of flying monkeys taking turns doing her dirty work and she got the new guy and the security company to finish the job she started, this is how cowards work! We all know who the real culprit is!? The property manager!!!

Driven by Jealousy to Hurt Others

I was born to expose the bad people in our world wearing sheep's clothes, so I did my job well at my last job because it sure did bring out their true colors!

Reading the words in the article What Really Makes Narcissists Tickthe property manager at my last job come to mind, she got so jealous and envious of my success of publishing my book, that she had to do everything in her power to try to destroy me to transfer her bad feelings into me, so she could feel better and superior again, but she was not able to and I'm sure she is suffering from depression-like never before and probably taking medication. 

“The characteristic subjective experience of narcissistic individuals is a sense of inner emptiness and meaninglessness that requires recurrent infusions of external confirmation of their importance and value. . . . When the environment fails to provide such evidence, narcissistic individuals feel depressed, ashamed, and envious of those who succeed in attaining the supplies that they lack.”

I am not always as clear as you think about my emotions, sometimes it takes me a little while to figure out what feelings and emotions belong in the present and which ones belong to others and which ones belong to the child I once was.  It’s not always easy for me to understand, put and consciously feel all of my feelings in the right context. 

While going through the dark cloud  cast over me by the sociopaths at my last job, I had to have a lot of talks with the child within me and reassure her that everything was going to be okay, that we were not dependent and defenseless on these dark people, like we were as a small, powerless and defenseless child, and I would find another job to take care of us in no time, because the child in me got very angry at the present betrayal and for very short brief moments, the child within me  wanted to lash out in ways that could hurt us in the long run and this was exactly what the sociopaths were hoping I would do, they wanted me dead, in jail or in mental hospital, so they could discredit me  and my book.

I kept telling the child within me that had the right to be angry and the anger was very much justified, because their lies and actions were very hurtful, but if we acted out in anger we would be as evil as them and would hurt us, not them, and then we would be exactly where the sociopaths want us to be, acting out these cowards own evil transferred into me, they were pure evil, because they knew exactly what they were doing with their lies, mind games and schemes. 

I never had experience in my whole life someone wanting to consciously hurt me to this extreme so bad, it was a game for them, they were very good at their game, but they lost, because I removed their masks and I exposed their wicked games and how evil they were. 

What makes these people pure evil is the fact they consciously knew what they were doing and that’s why the child within me got even angrier, because they were consciously trying to destroy me to cover up their own wrongdoing, especially with their own children, not like my childhood abusers that were unconsciously reenacting their own painful childhood dramas and they had no idea of what they were doing.  

In order to keep their own illusions and protect their false image of "good people" and "good parents", they needed to destroy me; they were nothing but cowards, but sadly this happens everywhere in our world.

I could not agree more with the words in the quote below by Robert Reich! When I got hired nine and half years ago, I was invited to board meetings, but after they read my book and found out I was not one of them, but I was a real honest person that could see everything and everyone clear, it made them uncomfortable, so they start having board meetings how to destroy me and of course I was excluded from their meetings to destroy me! But I didn't need to be in their meeting, because I knew exactly what they were saying and doing! Overnight my opinion no longer counted and I became their number one enemy they needed to destroy so they could go on with their lies, facades, and illusions as usual. When I would question the property manager, she always answered: “that’s not how we do things here!” of course not, the way they do things there is the fascist way and not in a democratic way!

Maybe you still need to hang onto the illusion of your mother’s illusion of love, because you still too afraid and don’t trust yourself that you can keep standing by yourself on your own two feet, but the truth is: if you had experienced true love as a child you would not be so fearful of trying new things like moving to a new apartment.  It took me over 40 years to see clearly that most love given to me over the years was not real, but just an illusion of love, sometimes when I need help from others, I accept temporally their illusion of love, until I can get on my feet again. Most people are just acting as if personality, pretending to be loving, giving an illusion of love that can end at any time.  Everyone at my last job acted nice to me and pretending to be kind and loving towards me, but after my book was published, most people’s love ended overnight! If their love was real, they would still love me after reading my book and their love for me would have grown instead of ending, because I wrote a good honest book and I should be praised for my hard work and honesty and not rejected. Thank goodness I am not dependent on others praises and opinions, otherwise, I would have been in big trouble.

You are right a lot of people are in a symbolic way rescuing the child they once were by rescuing a cat, dog or any other being, but they can’t feel their own pain of having been emotionally and sometimes physically abandoned themselves as small children. I did this myself with my first cat, but now I can help an animal or any other being without using it to distract me to  avoid from feeling my own painful feelings, and I do enjoy the cats company and taking care of them and loving them, and I enjoy the love they give me back. I totally treated my first cat like a baby! I got him when he was a little kitten and I even bathed him like a baby and he learned to like water so much that when I took a bath, he would jump in the tab with me! :-) I miss him.  I never let the cats getting in the way or distracting me from doing things I really want to do, but I miss them when I am gone for a long time, but I have to be honest that I have used the cats as an excuse to say no to people, because I didn’t want to hurt their feelings that I didn’t want to be with them or do things with them. Also having the responsibly to take care of my cats and the love I had for them kept me alive at my dark moments when I had no will to live anymore; the cats saved my life more than once. My book probably would never come to be if I didn’t have and loved my cats. I do think the love we have is what transports us and our compass or guide in life. And so far cats and animals have been the only beings I feel save to express and share my love with. Cats are beautiful and fun! :-)

Thank you for writing and for your continued support.
Take good care,


Also, read my blog Experienced Knowledge

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Deception Kills Love

"Only unflinching realization of one’s own past reality, of what really happened can break through the chain of abuse. If I know and can feel what my parents did to me when I was totally defenseless, I no longer need victims to befog my awareness. I no longer need to reenact what happened to me with the help of innocent people because now I KNOW what happened. And if I want to live my life consciously, without exploiting others, then I must actively accept that knowledge.

...Am I saying that forgiveness for crimes done to a child is not only ineffective but actively harmful? Yes, that is precisely what I am saying. The body does not understand moral precepts. It fights against the denial of genuine emotions and for the admission of the truth to our conscious minds. This is something the child cannot afford to do, it has to deceive itself and turn a blind eye to the parents’ crimes in order to survive. Adults no longer need to do this, but if they do, the price they pay is high. Either they ruin their own health or they make others pay the price – their children, their patients, the people who work for them, etc." -- Alice Miller

Above excerpt from the article Deception Kills Love by Alice Miller

Will more Women in Portugal Find the Courage to Report Dr. Julio Machado Vaz Sexual Abuse?

What happened to these women in Spain with Dr. Javier Criado, it’s also what happened to me when I was a teenager with the prestigious Dr. Julio Machado Vaz in Portugal! I am sure they are women in the thousands in Portugal, that happened the same thing with them, but Portugal is so much more secretive and protects people in power that women are so much more afraid to come out, that is going to take a lot, for other victims to come out to report his sexual abuse and tell their stories. These women and the whole country have been so brainwashed by Dr. Julio Machado Vaz that probably, they don't even recognize that what happened to them was sexual abuse. It took me over two decades to recognize it as such!

Text in Portuguese: O que aconteceu com essas mulheres em Espanha, com o Dr. Javier Criado, é também o que aconteceu comigo com o prestigiado Dr. Julio Machado Vaz em Portugal! Estou certo de que ha mulheres na casa dos milhares em Portugal que aconteceu o mesmo com elas, mas Portugal é um pais muito mais secreto que protege pessoas abusadorars em poder que as mulheres tem muito mais medo de denunciar o abuso sexual de Dr. Julio Machado Vaz e relatar suas histórias. Estas mulheres e todo o país tem o cérebro lavado pelo Dr. Julio Machado Vaz de tal forma, que provavelmente, elas nem sequer reconhecem que o que aconteceu com elas foi abuso sexual. Levou me a mim mais de duas décadas como reconhecê-lo como tal!
Un diván de pesadilla
Isto é exatamente o que aconteceu comigo também quando eu era jovem a viver em Portugal, com o prestigiado Dr. Julio Machado Vaz. “Se produjeron tocamientos impúdicos, besos y relaciones sexuales en el sofá y en el suelo. También en el propio domicilio del doctor”
Sera que Portugal tambem vai encontrar um dia a coragem para investigar o prestigiado Dr. Julio Machado Vaz?
Eu estou apelando a outras mulheres por aí que tenham sido doentes do Dr. Julio Machado Vaz por favor, venham para a frente e compartilham suas histórias. Se você deseja permanecer anônimo vou respeitar os seus desejos e eu nunca revelarei sua verdadeira identidade, mas o compartilhamento de sua história, mesmo se feito anonimamente, pode ajudar a expor os profissionais de saúde mental doentes causando mais danos a pessoas ja maguadas e vulneráveis em nossa sociedade. Se você tem sido um doente do Dr. Julio Machado Vaz e seu método de tratamento para os seus problemas emocionais estava fazendo sexo com você, por favor escreva-me para o meu e-mail: 

This is exactly what happened to me also as a young girl while growing up in Portugal with the prestigious Dr. Julio Machado Vaz. “"Lewd fondling, kissing and sex on the couch and on the floor occurred. Also in the own home of the Dr.”

Will ever Portugal also find the courage to investigate the prestigious Dr. Julio Machado Vaz?

I am appealing to other women out there that have been a patient of Dr, Julio Machado Vaz to please come forward and share your stories. If you wish to remain anonymous I will respect your wishes and I will never disclose your true identity, but the sharing of your story, even if done anonymously, can help expose the sick mental health professionals causing more harm to already wounded and vulnerable people in our society. If you have been a patient of Dr. Julio Machado Vaz and his method of treatment to your emotional problems was having sex with you. Please write me at  

Below is the excerpt from my book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions, where I talk about my experience with Dr. Julio Machado Vaz. 

From the Chapter

I had just turned 17 and my sisters thought they had finally found someone who could tame me. His name was Dr. Julio Machado Vaz. At the time he was young and unknown, but today he’s Portugal’s most famous sexologist. He has several best-selling books and a TV show that’s a lot like Dr. Phil’s. To get so popular all Julio talked about was sex. Sex was his obsession, and he got all of Portugal to enable his addiction. He became a high-profile celebrity advisor. But before he hit the big time, his methods were unprofessional, to say the least. From my personal experience, he was extremely abusive. My sister Laura worked at the public clinic where Julio was building his reputation. Back then he was a dashing 27-year-old doctor. His mother, Maria Clara, was a famous singer, and his father, Julio Machado Vaz de Sousa, was a respected faculty member at the University of Porto’s medical school. Given Laura’s connections, it was easy for me to get an appointment to see this rising young star. And he was more than willing to take me on as a patient. When we met, the first question he asked me was whether or not I had a boyfriend. When I said no, he asked if I’d ever had one. Once again, I said no. Then he told me that my sister brought me to see him because she was afraid that I was sexually active. He explained to me that sex is normal, that most people are sexually repressed and that what I needed was a boyfriend. After just one visit to the clinic, he moved our sessions to his private office. He pressed his advantage and manipulated me into having oral sex with him. I knew he was just using me and that he didn’t have a clue about how to really help me, but I kept seeing him to spite Laura and the others. Our little arrangement went on for months, and the whole time I was thinking, “What would my sisters think of their charming doctor now, the one man they thought could solve all my problems?” Looking back I almost can’t believe how despicable this so-called doctor was. One time, he took me to his house while his wife was at the hospital having his second baby. Obviously, part of me was aware that what we were doing was wrong, but I was so focused on somehow harming my sisters that I let him get away with it.

When he was tired of his latest conquest, Julio ended our sessions. I imagine that he found another patient to fool around with. In an interview many years later a reporter asked him, “Is a psychiatrist also a seducer?” “Maybe the reverse is truer,” was my doctor’s smug response. 31 Such a reply should have exposed him. But people in Portugal, and everywhere else in the world for that matter, are too emotionally blind to recognize even the most obvious red flags. Julio revealed just how sick he really was, but by then he was all but glorified for being an outlet for the whole country’s sexual repression. The people of Portugal still live vicariously through the escapades of this bold doctor who talks so openly about sex. And no doubt he continues to take full advantage of the collective repression for his own pleasure. In my opinion, it’s absolutely disgraceful. Interestingly, Alice Miller has a few words to say about the seduction dramas that are reenacted by men like Julio who are compelled to use women. “The seducer is loved, admired, and sought after by many women because his attitude awakens their hopes and expectations,” she writes. “They hope that their need for mirroring, echoing, respect, attention and mutual understanding, which has been stored up inside them since early childhood, will finally be fulfilled by this man. But these women not only love the seducer, they also hate him, for he turns out to … be unable to fulfill their needs and soon abandons them. They feel hurt by the demeaning way he treats them because they cannot understand him. Indeed, he does not understand himself.”32 All I really knew at the time was that I was more confused than ever. Dr. Julio Machado Vaz’s “treatment” made me a lot worse off. And my sexual encounters with him opened the door to exactly what my sisters feared most. …The chain of harm done by doctors, therapists, and gurus under the guise of help is endless. Alice Miller believed that most people with a “Dr.” in front of their name or a “Ph.D.” at the end of it weren’t in any kind of position to help or guide anyone, especially if they were repressing their own traumas and creating their own illusions. For many years I blamed myself for what happened with Dr. Julio Machado Vaz. It took me more than two decades to see the truth and speak about the fact that this doctor had exploited my anger at my family to feed his sexual perversions and abuse me sexually, instead of helping me work through and resolve my anger.

In the book Boundaries: Where You End And I Begin, Anne Katherine states, “A therapist is entrusted with his or her clients’ deepest secrets. A minister bestows sanctions from the highest power in the universe. The potential for harm is overwhelming. For a person in such a role, essentially that of a guardian, to cross sexual boundaries is a grave violation. A child, a client, a patient, a follower or a worshiper are vulnerable and usually approach authority out of need. A sexual action by a guardian is very confusing, even to a very strong and healthy individual. For someone vulnerable and in need, such an action can be devastating. When a parent is sexual toward a child, the violation reverberates for decades. Trust is broken, the child takes on responsibility for the act, sexuality is affected, and the bond is damaged. When a therapist, physician, attorney or clergy person is sexual with a client or worshiper, it is also incest. A trust is broken, a bond is perverted. The person who sought care was used to meet the needs of the caregiver.”33

I didn’t need sex or a boyfriend when I saw Dr. Julio Machado Vaz. What I needed was an enlightened witness to help me feel my repressed pain and give me a better way to deal with my self-righteous, overbearing, domineering, invasive and authoritarian sisters and brothers.
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Quote of the day Posted by Melissa McEwan 
"It is not who Cosby is that accounts for our long silence. It is who we are: a culture that does not believe people who share stories of surviving sexual violence. Were Cosby an unremarkable man of modest 
means, we would still doubt allegations like these, because that is what we do. The rationales we offer for why we doubt survivors are varied: the accused is a legend, or religious, or has been nice to us. The survivors have any number of real or perceived flaws. What doesn't change is that when someone alleges rape, we immediately begin to grasp for reasons why that person is unbelievable."—Tope Fadiran, in a terrific piece for RH Reality Check.

Also, read Open letter to the Prestigious Dr. Julio Machado Vaz

Abuse on the couch Silenced transgression

Tuesday, July 21, 2015


Since writing this blog, exactly a year later, my ex-boss, who the property manager recruited to do her dirty work, killed himself in a standoff with the local police after robbing a bank on March 11, 2016, that by coincidence was my birthday! So, the property manager does have blood on her hands after all, because I know without a doubt, if she had not started this psychological warfare against me, he would still be alive – he was her collateral damage – when people start wars someone always gets hurt or killed!!! I was her target to destroy, but when was one of her helpers to lose his mind and self-destruct, everyone involved became silent, and now is a big cover-up that involves the FBI, the US Marshals, and the media. It's a shame he was not strong enough to stand up to do the right thing and let himself become a puppet of the property manager -- he paid a high price for it. Puppets never have a good end. If it was me, the little woman to commit a crime my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all probably go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was -- to discredit me and my book -- and make a name for themselves by standing on my head. And all probably say that you need God in your life, my ex-boss was a Mormon, a man of God, but he was the one to lose his mind, but now is a big cover-up. I could see their dirty games and traps so clearly.
Read more in the link below:  

The property manager, the members of the board, and the security company that employed me, they were very good at gaslighting. I didn't have a name for it, but I knew exactly what they were doing.

8 Signs You're in a Relationship With a Gaslighter

The 7 Stages of Gaslighting in Relationships

"Gaslighting is a form of persistent manipulation and brainwashing that causes the victim to doubt her or himself, and to ultimately lose their own sense of perception, identity, and self-worth. Gaslighting statements and accusations are usually based on blatant lies or exaggeration of the truth. The term is derived from the 1944 film Gaslight, in which a husband tries to convince his wife that she’s insane by causing her to question herself and her reality.
In its milder forms, gaslighting creates a subtle but inequitable power dynamic in a relationship, with the gaslightee subjected to the gaslighter’s unreasonable, rather than fact-based, scrutiny, judgment, or micro-aggression. At its worst, pathological gaslighting constitutes a severe form of mind-control and psychological abuse. Gaslighting can occur in personal relationships, with verbal, emotional, and/or physical hostility from one partner to the other; at the workplace, when a supervisor regularly and unfairly berates employees; or across an entire nation, as when commercial advertising or public figures make pronouncements that are clearly contrary to the public good." Read more here 
#DonaldTrump is doing to America exactly what the sociopaths/assholes in the community where I used to work for nine and half years tried to do to me after I published my book. My understanding of the human mind was too threatening for them that they started gaslighting me in hope with their lies and mind games would get me to doubt my reality and drive me to self-destruct. Donald Trump is stalking the soul of America the same way the sociopaths/assholes at my job did, but sadly most people in America are too emotionally blind to see through it and they might destroy America as we know it and many lives in the process.  

I could not agree more with George Clooney! "“We have a demagogue in the White House. We need the fourth estate, which is journalists, to hold his feet to the fire.
They didn’t do a very good job during the campaign. And they haven’t done a particularly good job yet. But those things will change.
The idea that Donald Trump is a man of the people is the biggest political scam perpetrated in American history since Republican voters were somehow convinced that George W. Bush was somehow a “political outsider.”
Donald Trump is a representation of the very worst of the American wealthy elites who view their compatriots as nothing more than a means to the end. Bannon, a former Goldman executive, is similarly connected to the ruling elites that have outright purchased the Republican Party and plot to squeeze every last cent from the American middle class. Clooney’s comments are spot on and are sure to make President Trump glower in anger." Read more here 
3. Gaslighting does not always involve anger or intimidation
The book The Gaslight Effect refers to a type of gaslighting called glamour gaslighting. This is where the gaslighter showers you with special attention, but never actually gives you what you need. They put you on a pedestal, but then they are not there, in fact, they may get angry at you when you need a shoulder to cry on. It becomes difficult, after a while, to identify why it is that you feel so alone and hollow. In another type of gaslighting, the gaslighter is always transformed into the victim. Whenever you bring up a problem, you find yourself apologizing by the end of the conversation. For me, these were the worst exchanges. 

10. Gaslighting may be amplified in families, poly relationships, and other groups
It is hard to stand firm when one person is trying to replace your experience, but when they have a chorus of supporters, it is nearly impossible. There is a reason why cult abuse can lead to a complete breakdown of someone’s personality. Group manipulation and abuse is devastatingly effective. I cannot easily explain the level of shame and fear that a group you are deeply invested in can produce with a coordinated attack. We need to be very careful of this in poly groups so we do not exploit this power or unwittingly enable abuse.
I know there is a lot of shame tied up in ending a relationship, and no one wants to be the bad guy. But we all owe it to each other to not participate in relationships where anyone’s self-esteem is being degraded. It doesn’t matter whose fault it is, and it doesn’t matter whether or not it is fair. There are bigger things at stake here. Let’s not punish each other for doing the things we need to do to be healthy.” 

That's exactly what they did!!!! Read more here.

Also, this article Eight Mental Abuse Tactics to watch out for  articulates beautifully what I went through:

Psychopaths are social chameleons who can fit perfectly into any situation. They are experts at morphing their identities to get what they want and mirroring others for money, sex, and — most commonly — attention. Because of their ability to idealize others, psychopaths are often perceived as charming, innocent, and fun to unsuspecting onlookers and casual acquaintances. But there is another side to them.

When they’re feeling threatened or bored, a psychopath’s true colors start to come out. They draw you into arguments that are unlike anything you’ve ever experienced. 

The argument usually stems from something hurtful or inappropriate they’ve done, but you’ll quickly find that you’re the one defending yourself. Eight Mental Abuse Tactics to watch out for If you feel manipulated into doing or saying something, out of character, endure regular insults and rejection, and feel exploited by near and dear ones, you might be a victim of emotional abuse. 

Abuse is not just physical. There are many other forms of abuse, such as sexual, financial, emotional, mental, and verbal. While some of the other forms of abuse are obvious, mental abuse can be difficult to spot.
It could start simply with a casual comment about anything: the design of a furniture, opinion about a movie, or the car needing maintenance. The remark is taken out of context by the abuser to mean that they are disapproved by the victim in some way. The victim tries to explain that it wasn’t his/her intention, but they are off on a tirade, which ends in the victim feeling helpless as if he/she is losing his/her mind.

An abuser can come dressed in any way. Here are a few of the common abuse tactics, that are widely used. All you have to do is, Memorize these maneuvers, remain silent when they are being used, and end the conversation as soon as possible. This will keep you from being a victim of mental abuse.
Rage – This is intense, furious anger that comes out of nowhere, usually over nothing. It startles and shocks the victim into compliance or silence.

Gaslighting – Mental abusers lie about the past, making their victim doubt her memory, perception, and sanity. They claim and give evidence of her past wrong behavior further causing doubt. She might even begin to question what she said a minute ago.

The Stare – This is an intense stare with no feeling behind it.  It is designed to scare a victim into submission and is frequently mixed with the silent treatment.

Silent Treatment – Some abusers punish by ignoring. Then they let their victim “off the hook” by demanding an apology even though he/she isn’t to blame. This is to modify his/her behavior. They also have a history of cutting others out of their life permanently over small things.

Projection – They dump their issues onto their victim as if she were the one doing it. For instance, narcissistic mental abusers may accuse their spouse of lying when they have lied. Or they make her feel guilty when he is really guilty. This creates confusion.

Twisting – When abusers are confronted, they will twist it around to blame their victims for their actions. They will not accept responsibility for their behavior and insist that their victim apologizes to them.

Manipulation – A favorite manipulation tactic is for the narcissist to make their victim fear the worst, such as abandonment, infidelity, or rejection. Then they refuse it and ask her for something she normally would reply with “No.” This is a control tactic to get him/her to agree to do something he/she wouldn’t.

Victim Card – When all else fails, the narcissist resorts to playing the victim card. This is designed to gain sympathy and further control behavior."  read more here

Comments from the sharing of this post on Facebook

John Wilwerding Thanks Sylvie, I'm sorry for your treatment upon writing your truth. I'm familiar with the term, I recalled this phenomenon when I was involved in some helpful therapy revisiting a few troubling memories of youth.
Sylvie Imelda Shene All the little gifts the property manager brought me from her stupid trips while on vacation and at Christmas time, I threw them all in the garbage a long time ago.
Monica Chelagat Excellent article. Just finished reading. A name to describe a complicated and unhealthy relationship just like narcists do to their victims. This is even more subtle and draining as the abuser does not seek understanding but constant torment.

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