This is why MM is still stuck in his hatred for his mother because he is still emotionally dependent on his mother and also dependent on her money and using her to make money for himself. He is trying to make a name for himself by unconsciously in a symbolic way killing his mother with his book to free himself, but these are fantasies of a small child and we never achieve true freedom by allowing the wounded child’s fantasies dictate our present actions, but actually will keep us stuck and strengthening the walls of our emotional prison leaving very little chance of ever escaping our childhood emotional prison.
So my suggestion to you is to find someone you can talk with freely about all of your authentic feelings and help you clarify and consciously feel all of your feelings within the context of your childhood and focus on improving your physical health. Also, look for resources you might have to help you gain autonomy how slow or little might be, baby steps is better than not taking any steps at all. I wish you much luck, courage, and strength on your journey.
Sylvie
P.S. fell free to write back and let me know what kind of feelings my
words above triggered in you.
Also here is one of my blogs about the risks of primal therapy.http://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2012/08/the-risks-of-primal-therapy.html
Here is another blog about primal therapy.
Read Alice's article at the bottom.
http://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2013/10/neve-put-your-life-in-someone-elses.html
Mohamed: AM: To force oneself to live with people that we cannot stand them (ie own parents or others), it's like creating a nest for hatred. To get rid of this hatred one must get OUT of this dependence at all costs. Source (french):
ReplyDeletehttp://www.alice-miller.com/courrier_fr.php?lang=fr&nid=2083&grp=0608
Sylvie: Thank you Mohamed for sharing the very poignant words of Alice Miller above.