Nobody has a right to harass somebody for writing a book, though. They were wrong.
I’m not very good at giving support to others too, maybe, because I never got much support from others and been on my own all of my life.
Before the nightmare, I went through with the repressed people at my job after I published my book, even though was tough, but was more expected and understanding! When working on my book with my co-writer I mentioned many times to him that some of the “nice people” from my work that he met at my 53 birthday party in 2012 that the “nice people’s” own repression might be triggered and become very vicious towards me and I might even lose my job.
But my co-writer didn’t want to believe me! That’s the story of my life no one ever believes me! But eventually, the truth comes to the surface! But I did question myself and I thought maybe they will keep acting as if personality and go on with their façade, but I learned that once a sociopath, asshole, or whatever you like to call them, knows that you can see through their façade, they want you gone, and that’s when they will gather all the forces at their command to destroy you!
And that’s exactly what happened! Once they read my book they knew I knew that I was a seeing and a feeling person! But coming after me they end up exposing themselves! Some of the people were professors, doctors and one was a retired FBI or a CIA agent so they had a lot of training in psychological warfare and probably didn’t believe me like most people in my life that I had faced and resolved my childhood repression and were confident that they could manipulate my emotions to get me to self-destruct! Underestimating me was their big mistake!
And they proved my co-writer wrong and proved that my perceptions have been right all along! He even talked me into running the Indiegogo campaign to raise funds to help pay for the book publishing costs. I didn’t want to run a campaign to raise funds! I wanted to publish it when I had raised all the money myself, but he insisted that I should let people help me sometimes! I know people and learned very early in life that I can’t count on anyone but myself to do things that really matter to me! I don’t regret many things in my life, but I do regret letting my co-writer talking me into running the campaign. I know most people are fake supporting superficial things and giving stuff that we don’t really need, but when there is something that really matters, most people will shy away and it’s hard to find support for.
Anyway, before the nightmare at my job of nine and half years I went through a few nightmares that I’m still pretty silent about, with few people I reached out to try to get their feedback for my book and maybe write the foreword or a little review, I thought they were real because they were close to Alice Miller and they proclaimed to understand her books, some of these people are very well known and respected, but I got to see their real persona and how repressed they still are and I got a dose of their poison!
So this was even a bigger disappointment because these people were supposed to be more understanding and self-aware.
They have a lot of people fooled by using their sharp intellect with a lot of memorized good knowledge they learned from others like Alice Miller, saying and writing the right things. It’s sad they use their memorized Intellectual knowledge to play with people’s minds to gain power over them and make a name for themselves by stepping on others' heads.
I’m so glad I wrote and published my book because it showed me how most people are much worse than what I always suspected. What the public is allowed to see and what goes on behind the scenes are totally different stories!
I might publish anonymously just by using initials in my blog the e-mails exchanged with these people! The words below Alice Miller wrote to me come truer every day: “I have learned over the years of my work on the internet that there are readers who SEEM to understand SOME of what I have written, at least intellectually, but they are still so afraid of their very cruel parents and of their repressed FEELINGS of rage towards them that they are constantly looking for scapegoats.
They thus live in a continual confusion pretending that they are healed and even offering help and empathy to others. But eventually, they use unconsciously other people (even the ones who are quite friendly to them) as a poisonous container like their parents did to them, and if the offended people begin to defend themselves they can become very mean.
I can only urge you to trust your feelings and to NOT offer your empathy and interest to everybody just because they say they read and understood everything I have written. In most of the cases it is a lie. To understand my books means to overcome the fear of one’s parents, to honestly feel the justified rage TOWARD THEM and to no longer use others to getting free from the accumulated rage.”
In 2018 I published the e-mails exchanged with this self-proclaimed psychologist out of the Netherlands only because she waited 4 years to publish her flawed critique of my book full of her own projections and even went to the trouble of changing her name so I would not know who she was trying to mess with my mind!
Like I wrote to one of her followers that came to her defense: If your idolized Lilianne/Olane is such a compassionate person that cares so much about others --- how come she didn’t reach out to me with a kind word of support when I was being targeted by a mob of sociopaths at my job of nine and half years after I published my book in 2014?
I know she is following my blog incognito and witnessed everything that was taking place.
She didn’t care, because she is a malignant narcissist or a sociopath like them. She was witnessing an attempt of a psychological lynching and said nothing and most likely hoping they would succeed in destroying me for her sadist enjoyment and put her own fears of exposure to rest.
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