People Rather Kill Themselves, others or both than Face the Fears of Being Alone and Feel the pain to Become Real

Dear HH,

Thank you for sharing and translating the beautiful song Erkläre mir die Liebe by Philipp Poisel into English.

Explain "love" to me

Like two dogs under the sky, heading towards the night.
So lost and so different.  Do you know what you really want???
When will you catch me from this darkness?
Tell me, where you are!

Please explain life to me,
I don't know how it works.

Like two foxes in the polar sea, constantly heading for the night.
I haven't slept for a long time
Do you know what you actually need?

When will you catch me, in this hot snow of July?
Two times summer, and back

Please, explain life to me
'Cause I don't know how it works.

Tell me about love.
I have never seen it.

When will you catch me?
In the hot snow of July?
Two times summer and back.

Tell me about your Life.
I have never seen you like this.

Tell me about love.
I have lost before I ever had it.

It describes most people’s condition beautifully, and once mine. Lost and searching for love all in the wrong places.

Love is within. And the only way to experience true love -- we must resolve our own childhood repression -- and after that, love is all there is–understanding equals love– but the path to resolving our childhood repression is not an easy path. Most people don’t have the space, courage, or strength to take it. So far, I only know Alice Miller and me to really have taken this path.

It took me more than 40 years all alone, and thanks to the books and the website of Alice Miller as my enlightened witness, to arrive at this place, and here I’m all alone because I don’t know anyone else who is truly on this path and has arrived at this place of true love, peace, and freedom.

Alice Miller was the only one I know who arrived at this place and took her also more than 40 years because she, like me, was alone most of her journey and had to battle many sociopaths/psychopaths, even her own son. I’m pretty sure he is a full-blown sociopath with a sharp intellect knowing exactly what to say to fool everyone, make them feel sorry for him and manipulate people to join him in his emotional prison -- because if he was real -- I have no doubt we would have communicated with each other by now -- he has no courage to consciously feel the repressed emotions of the child he once was -- and liberate himself -- he is too afraid to be alone in his emotional prison -- just like this proclaimed psychologist from the Netherlands -- Liliane Rombout or Olane Roos – whatever she calls herself now.

I still can’t believe that this woman contacted me acting all understanding and saying all the right things to gain my trust. Still, the moment I let her in and let her read my manuscript, she wasted no time looking for something in it that she could grab on to turn on me and play mind games with me -- to try to regress me into the emotional prison of my childhood -- to try to discredit me and my book.

She never saw me in my book or heard me; she saw only her own projections and what she wanted to see, using them as tools for manipulation. Then, when she couldn't regress me at the time, she sat for 4 years with her critique full of her own projections and changed her name before publishing it. She never predicted that I would figure out that Liliane Rombout and Olane Roos are one and the same.

I see the games people play clearly, and I’m free from everyone’s projections. I no longer allow anyone standing in symbolizing my childhood abusers to manipulate me to bring me back to the emotional prison of my childhood. Free at last!!!

Isn’t this a calculated move of a malignant narcissist or sociopath?!

Malignant narcissists and sociopaths in the mental health profession are the worst because they have mastered the art of manipulating people's repressed emotions to do exactly what they want -- they are the most deceptive and cause a lot of harm.

I guess she didn’t believe what I wrote in my book that I had consciously experienced and understood the repressed emotions of the child I once was within the context of my own childhood, and no longer can they be used by sociopaths, psychopaths, or malignant narcissists to grab on to use as reins to manipulate me and gain control over me to bring me back to an emotional prison.

I will still try to write to everyone who writes to me, but from now on I will be very careful and not trust anyone who contacts me saying all the right things, because most likely, they are not real; it’s a lie. Just like Alice Miller wrote me in an e-mail: “I have learned over the years of my work on the internet that there are readers who SEEM to understand SOME of what I have written, at least intellectually, but they are still so afraid of their very cruel parents and of their repressed FEELINGS of rage towards them that they are constantly looking for scapegoats.

They thus live in continual confusion, pretending they are healed and even offering help and empathy to others. But eventually they unconsciously use other people (even the ones who are quite friendly to them) as a poisonous container, as their parents did to them. If the offended people begin to defend themselves, they can become very mean.

I can only urge you to trust your feelings and do NOT offer your empathy and interest to everybody just because they say they read and understood everything I have written. In most of the cases, it is a lie. To understand my books means to overcome the fear of one’s parents, to honestly feel the justified rage TOWARD THEM, and to no longer use others to get free from the accumulated rage.”

 Obviously, Liliane Rombout or Olane Roos is still scared of the repressed emotions of the child she once was at her own mean mother; otherwise, she wouldn't have looked on the internet for someone she could target, project herself onto, and use as a scapegoat.

She broke the camel’s back, and from now on I just want to be left alone to enjoy, for the rest of my life, my freedom and peace. It was a long journey!

But eventually, I still want to write and publish “Reenactment” for those searching for the whole naked truth about humanity's real face: it is ugly, very ugly!!! I ask myself many times: is anything real out there?!

Thanks to writing and publishing A Dance to Freedom, I got to see how ugly it really is!!! I always felt and suspected it -- that it was very ugly, but thanks to my book I got to see it really close -- staring it in the face -- at a very close range -- it was dangerous to be that close to evil, and now I have no doubt humanity is evil -- cancer. And the more I come to the conclusion that very few people out there are capable of being real and authentic.

I understand your fear of sharing your authentic feelings with people around you. Being real and authentic is risky because people around us will likely turn on us, as you witnessed in my case. We have to be strong enough to stand on our own two feet because people will ostracize us, and we end up alone. Most people are fake, acting as if, and feel threatened by truly liberated people because authentic people trigger their fear of exposure. They will gather all forces at their command to destroy you so they can go on, as usual, acting as if personality and sell to the masses their lies and illusions.

I have learned nothing scares people more than facing and feeling their own painful truths; they would rather kill themselves, others, or both than face the fears of being alone and feel the pain to become real.

Wishing courage and strength,

Sylvie