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Wednesday, January 31, 2018

If You Question it if You Are a sociopath – Then Most Likely You Are Not!

Dear H,

Thank you for writing.

“I would wish, that this woman does better than me. That she will look at her own truth. If she is like me, be glad, that she run away...”

Every day I thank the stars that she runs away, because if she lacks the courage to consciously face and feel her emotions within the context of her own childhood. I’m better off she runs -- otherwise sooner or later would make me her poison container or scapegoat. And she was starting to do it -- if I didn't make my boundaries clear to her --- of what I would tolerate and what I would not tolerate.

If it’s true she read my book again and the words she wrote are authentic --- maybe she is not a full blown sociopath --- and maybe down the road when she feels -- it’s safe for me to be around her without making me her poison container or scapegoat -- then we can spend time together again.

The fact you question it -- if you might be a sociopath -- it means you are not--- you don’t go out of your way to hurt people intentionally, right?! 

So you are not a sociopath. It’s normal sometimes to feel hateful feelings towards some people that disappoint us in the present moment and triggers the repressed pain -- if not yet worked through – or for reminding us of the pain we suffered as a child, but if we don’t go out of our way and take actions to deliberately hurt people, then we are not sociopaths or malignant narcissists. 

Remember thoughts and feelings don’t hurt people – actions hurt people.  

Sociopaths or malignant narcissists go out of their way to hurt people and take pleasure in destroying lives and see people hurting. 

Hurting and destroying others’ lives is their painkilling drug. It's an addiction that keeps their own childhood repression intact.

I agree! Alice Miller is the only person I know with the courage to go to the bottom of our repression to retrieve the real key that really opens the door to true liberation and everyone else out there is just selling an illusion.

If you think talking with me might help you see clearly if taken the new job offer would be a good move for you and a risk you can afford to take --- we can try to schedule a time to talk via Skype if you like.

“most of the therapists assume, that there is a kind of a core or a center, within us, which is our pilot, our healer etc. but this might be not true, not in that easy way: just to connect with that force and using it as a basis...”

No, I don’t think is true either, if a person’s spirit was completely murdered in childhood. These people don’t have an inner center or pilot to trigger their healing and as adults can become very dangerous people.  But I don’t think it’s your case dough. I feel there is a lot of spirit left in you to trigger your own healing and with courage and the right support you can liberate yourself from your childhood emotional prison.

Hang in there and take good care.

Much love,

Sylvie




Wednesday, June 20, 2018

People Rather Kill Themselves, others or both than Face the Fears of Being Alone and Feel the pain to Become Real

Dear HH,
Thank you for sharing and translating the beautiful song Erkläre mir die Liebe by Philipp Poisel into English.

Explain "love" to me
Like two dogs under the sky, heading towards the night.
So lost and so different.  Do you know, what you really want???
When will you catch me from this darkness?
Tell me, where you are!

Please explain life to me,
I don't know, how it works.

Like two foxes in the polar sea, constantly heading for the night.
I haven't slept for a long time
Do you know, what you actually need?

When will you catch me, in this hot snow of july?
Two times summer, and back

Please, explain life to me
cause I don't know how it works.

Tell me about love.
I have never seen it.

When will you catch me.
In the hot snow of July?
Two times Sommer and back.

Tell me about your Life.
i have never seen you like this.

Tell me about love.
I have lost before i ever had it.
It describes beautifully most people’s and once my condition. Lost and searching for love all in the wrong places.
Love is within. And the only way to experience true love -- we must resolve our own childhood repression -- and after that love that’s all, there is – understanding equals to love -- but the path to resolving our childhood repression is not an easy path, and most people don’t have the space, courage, and strength to take. So far I only know me and Alice Miller to really have taken this path.
It took me more than 40 years all alone and thanks to the the books and the website of Alice Miller as my enlightened witness to arrive at this place and here I’m all alone because I don’t know anyone else that is truly on this path and have arrived at this place of true love, peace, and freedom.
Alice Miller was the only one I know that arrived at this place and took her also more than 40 years because, she, like me, was alone most of her journey and had to battle many sociopaths/psychopaths, even her own son. I’m pretty sure he is a full blown sociopath with a sharp intellect knowing exactly what to say to fool everyone, make them feel sorry for him and manipulate people to join him in his emotional prison -- because if he was real -- I have no doubt we would have communicated with each other by now -- he has no courage to consciously feel the repressed emotions of the child he once was -- and liberate himself -- he is too afraid to be alone in his emotional prison -- just like this proclaimed psychologist from the Netherlands -- Liliane Rombout or Olane Roos – whatever she calls herself now.
I still can’t believe it that this woman contacted me acting all understanding and saying all the rights things to gain my trust, but the moment I let her in and let her read my manuscript, she wasted no time looking for something in it that she could grab on to turn on me and play mind games with me -- to try to regress me into the emotional prison of my childhood -- to try to discredit me and my book.
She never saw me in my book or heard me, she just saw her own projections and what she wanted to see to use as tools for manipulation. And then when she was not able to regress me at the time, she sits 4 years with her critique full with her own projections and changes her name before publishing her critique. She never predicted that I would figure out that Liliane Rombout and Olane Roos is one and the same.
I see clearly the games people play and I’m free from all people’s projections and I no longer allow anyone standing in symbolizing my childhood abusers to manipulate me to bring me back to the emotional prison of my childhood. Free at last!!!
Isn’t this a calculated move of a malignant narcissist or sociopath?!
Malignant narcissists and sociopaths in the mental health profession are the worst because they have mastered the art of manipulating people's repressed emotions to do exactly what they want -- they are the most deceiving and cause a lot of harm.
I guess she didn’t believe what I wrote in my book that I had consciously experienced and understood the repressed emotions of the child I once was within the context of my own childhood and no longer can they be used by sociopaths, psychopaths or malignant narcissists to grab on to use as reins to manipulate me and gain control over me to bring me back to an emotional prison.

I will still try to write to everyone that writes to me but from now on I will be very careful and not trust anyone that contacts me saying all the right things, because most likely -- they are not real -- it’s a lie. Just like Alice Miller wrote me in an e-mail: “I have learned over the years of my work on the internet that there are readers who SEEM to understand SOME of what I have written, at least intellectually, but they are still so afraid of their very cruel parents and of their repressed FEELINGS of rage towards them that they are constantly looking for scapegoats.
They thus live in a continual confusion pretending that they are healed and even offering help and empathy to others. But eventually they use unconsciously other people (even the ones who are quite friendly to them) as a poisonous container like their parents did to them, and if the offended people begin to defend themselves they can become very mean.
I can only urge you to trust your feelings and do NOT offer your empathy and interest to everybody just because they say they read and understood everything I have written. In most of the cases, it is a lie. To understand my books means to overcome the fear of one’s parents, to honestly feel the justified rage TOWARD THEM and to no longer use others to getting free from the accumulated rage.”
 Obviously Liliane Rombout or Olane Roos, she still scared of the repressed emotions of the child she once was at her own mean mother, otherwise, would not have looked on the internet for someone she could target to project herself into and use as her scapegoat.
She broke the camel’s back and from now on I just want to be left alone to enjoy for the rest of my life my freedom and peace. It was a long journey!
But eventually, I still want to write and publish “Reenactment” for those searching for the whole naked truth about the real face of humanity, it is ugly, very ugly!!! I ask myself many times: is anything real out there?!
Thanks to writing and publishing A Dance to Freedom I got to see how ugly it really is!!! I always felt and suspected it -- that it was very ugly, but thanks to my book I got to see it really close -- staring it in the face -- at a very close range -- it was dangerous to be that close to evil, and now I have no doubt humanity is evil -- cancer. And the more I come to the conclusion that very few people out there are capable of being real and authentic.
I understand your fear of sharing your authentic feelings with people around you. Becoming real and authentic is very risky because most likely people around us will turn on us -- as you witnessed in my case -- we have to be strong enough to stand alone on our own two feet because most likely people will ostracize us and we find ourselves alone. Most people are fake, acting as if personality, and feel threatened by real liberated people because real authentic people trigger their fears of exposure and they will gather all forces at their command to destroy you so they can go on, as usual, acting as if personality and sell to the masses their lies and illusions.
I have learned nothing scares people more than facing and feeling their own painful truths that they rather kill themselves, others or both than face the fears of being alone and feel the pain to become real.
Wishing courage and strength,
Sylvie

Saturday, June 16, 2018

Evil is Born Anew with Every New Generation

Hi E,
Thank you for writing!
I know how hard it is to get things taped. I want to make more videos, but it’s hard to make good ones! I’m thinking about buying a teleprompter so I don’t have to memorize the text of what I like to say. 
To tell you the truth, I’m kind of giving up on humanity, and I don’t feel like trying anymore to reach those like me, who feel all alone -- waiting to hear the truth that can set us free, like I once was.
I have put out there my testimony of the steps to take to free oneself. Now those like me that want it, they have to do their part and dig hard and deep like I did to find the truth that can set us free, because the sociopaths and charlatans of this world will work very hard day and night to distract the masses and bury the naked truth very deep and make it very difficult for people like me to find it.  Because if the naked truth reached many people like me, their pretty lies and illusions would crumble like a house of cards, and they would lose all their power over others.
This is why I keep getting targeted by sociopaths, because they feel threatened by me and my book, so they want to break me down to discredit me and my book. 
Liliane Rombout or Olane Roos – whatever she calls herself now- the Netherlands psychologist who broke the camel’s back. 
It’s unbelievable, and I still can’t believe that this woman contacted me, acting all understanding and saying all the right things to gain my trust. Still, the moment I let her in and let her read my manuscript, she wasted no time looking for something in it that she could grab on to turn on me and play mind games with me -- to try to regress me into the emotional prison of my childhood -- to discredit me and my book.

She never saw me in my book or heard me; she just saw her own projections and what she wanted to see to use as tools for manipulation. And then, when she was not able to regress me into the state of the wounded child, she sat for 4 years with her critique full of her own projections, and changed her name before publishing her critique. She never predicted that I would figure out that Liliane Rombout and Olane Roos are one and the same.
I see clearly the games people play, and I’m free from all people’s projections. I no longer allow anyone to stand in symbolize my childhood abusers to manipulate me to bring me back to the emotional prison of my childhood. Free at last!!!

Isn’t this a calculated move of a malignant narcissist or sociopath?!

Malignant narcissists and sociopaths in the mental health profession are the worst because they have mastered the art of manipulating people's repressed emotions to do exactly what they want -- they are the most deceiving and cause a lot of harm.
I guess she didn’t believe what I wrote in my book that I had consciously experienced and understood the repressed emotions of the child I once was within the context of my own childhood and no longer they can be used by sociopaths, psychopaths or malignant narcissists to grab on to use as reins to manipulate me and gain control over me to bring me back to an emotional prison.
Let's make it easy. Narcissist... Sociopath..... Psychopath... there is no need to distinguish which is which. They all suffer from "childhood repression who have grown into a full-blown malignant person." Avoidance is the only known treatment

I will still try to write to everyone who writes to me, but from now on, I will be very careful and not trust anyone who contacts me, saying all the right things, because most likely, they are not real -- it’s a lie. Just like Alice Miller wrote me in an e-mail: “I have learned over the years of my work on the internet that there are readers who SEEM to understand SOME of what I have written, at least intellectually, but they are still so afraid of their very cruel parents and of their repressed FEELINGS of rage towards them that they are constantly looking for scapegoats.
They thus live in a continual confusion, pretending that they are healed and even offering help and empathy to others. But eventually they use unconsciously other people (even the ones who are quite friendly to them) as a poisonous container like their parents did to them, and if the offended people begin to defend themselves they can become very mean.
I can only urge you to trust your feelings and do NOT offer your empathy and interest to everybody just because they say they read and understood everything I have written. In most of the cases, it is a lie. To understand my books means to overcome the fear of one’s parents, to honestly feel the justified rage TOWARD THEM and to no longer use others to get free from the accumulated rage.”

Obviously, Liliane Rombout or Olane Roos, she is still scared of the repressed emotions of the child she once was at her own mean mother, otherwise, would not have looked on the internet for someone she could target to project herself into and use as her scapegoat.
What Really Makes Narcissists Tick, “The characteristic subjective experience of narcissistic individuals is a sense of inner emptiness and meaninglessness that requires recurrent infusions of external confirmation of their importance and value. . . . When the environment fails to provide such evidence, narcissistic individuals feel depressed, ashamed, and envious of those who succeed in attaining the supplies that they lack.”

Narcissists are very prone to jealousy and envy. They will devalue the accomplishments of others, especially of scapegoats. If they feel someone is a threat, they devalue this person in general, talking negatively to others behind this person's back. Other times, they will give backhanded compliments or focus on the negative when someone is experiencing success or when they are discussing achievements. If someone is experiencing success, the narcissist will turn this around and accuse this person of being selfish or narcissistic for talking about it. ~Traci Dillard

Every time there is a mass shooting or a celebrity commits suicide, they all talk about the importance of mental health and share the phone number for National Suicide Prevention Lifeline --  that all it does is to make themselves feel better and fool the masses that they care --- their lies and mind games is what pushes some people over the edge, because they are tired of performing. They can no longer live pretending and acting as if personality, and they give up, killing themselves, others, or both.
I’m done, I just want to be left alone to enjoy my freedom and peace for the rest of my life. It was a long journey! 

I just wish sociopaths, psychopaths and malignant narcissists stopped targeting me and left me alone --  and gave up on trying to bring me back into an emotional prison -- but I understand that nothing triggers their jealousy and hatred more than a seeing a truly happy and free person and are driven blindly by jealousy and hatred.   And to protect myself, I have to keep  long bridges from people and not cross it too often in order to enjoy my freedom and peace for the rest of my life.
People need to understand that once you go through your worst time alone, you really don't care who stays in your life anymore.
They say, "Misery loves Company." Well, I say, "Narcissists love to bring happy people down." What BETTER type of power trip to a narcissist's ego than to take a naturally happy person and, by their own "arising abilities," turn them into a shell of their former selves while walking off "wearing their skin"? You know that they WANT to see you lying on the sidewalk, crying out in pain because you're "nothing" without them; just as they told you (or insinuated many times). ~ANA (After Narcissistic Abuse)

Eventually, I still want to write and publish “Reenactment” for those searching for the naked truth about the real face of humanity, it is ugly, very ugly!!! And sometimes I think no one is really out there.
Thanks to writing and publishing A Dance to Freedom, I got to see how ugly it really is! I always felt and suspected it -- that it was very ugly, but thanks to my book, I got to see it really close, staring it in the face at a very close range. It was dangerous to be that close to it, and now I have no doubt humanity is evil. The more I come to the conclusion that very few people out there are capable of being real and authentic.

Evil is born anew with every new generation. Humanity is insane, and this insanity will end only when humanity is wiped off the face of the Earth. Maybe, that's why they are creating AI to wipe out most of humanity...

Humanity is unconsciously and compulsively shackled into the chains of compulsion repetition...

Evil is born anew with every new generation
https://www.alice-miller.com/en/the-ignorance-or-how-we-produce-the-evil/

Human beings are great at creating illusions. And the sharper their intellect is, the bigger the illusions they create. When it comes to humanity, nothing ever is what it seems.

No one can ever accuse me of being an obedient child! Thank goodness I had the courage to rebel against the system from a young age.  
Enough talking about humanity! Enjoy your weekend,
Sylvie

Monday, December 26, 2016

This Article Sums it Up Pretty Good about Donald Trump and All of Us

My BF sent me this article Christmas morning -- THE TRUMP PRESIDENCY: AN INVITATION TO DIG DEEPER -- A must-read article; it sums it all up pretty well about Donald Trump and all of us.

Donald Trump and his supporters suffer from unresolved, deep-seated traumas that have been passed down from generation to generation. 

A, I hope you read the whole article in the link above. These are the reasons I was persecuted at my job for nine and a half years after I published my book. My book is a mirror, and they didn’t like their own reflections, and they would rather destroy me than look in the mirror and take responsibility for their own childhood repression. It sadness me beyond words that after working with me and with the evidence of what happened to me at Sxxxxxxxr -- you are still blind to these psychological mechanisms and let the dead hand of your own repression to vote into power to the highest office of the land, a very wounded man that has develop into a full-blown psychopath or sociopath,  in order to avoid to look in the mirror and face your own childhood repression.  Like it says in the article, it must shift, in one way or another, but I was hoping it would shift peacefully with the help of my book together with Alice Miller’s books and not with the devastation and destruction that Donald Trump will most likely take us, and of course, the most vulnerable will have to pay the highest price of all. Donald Trump is going to traumatize others in the same way he was traumatized as a child and like my childhood abusers and the sociopaths at Sxxxxxxxr tried to do to me. See dictators 

“According to biographers, Trump’s father was a workaholic, a ruthless, cold, and authoritarian man who believed life is a competition where the “killers” win.” He passed his public bigotry and trauma on to Donald, who was such a troublemaker that his father sent him off to military boarding school. We don’t usually have to dig too far to glean that it’s likely the unruly child has been damaged, unconsciously, to be sure, by the family. How many of us unwittingly pass off our trauma to our children, then deny it, then leave the confused child to try to figure it out, foreshadowing the seemingly inexorable continuation of generational betrayal and trauma. …

(By voting for Trump, you are showing me that as a small child, you had an authoritarian father who remained repressed in you, and now, with your vote, you help elect into power an authoritarian father figure to rule over others the same way your father ruled over you.)

 “Our avoidance in tackling our traumas is totally understandable. We are afraid to look in the mirror because of what we will see. It’s painful. Between the latent historical traumas and our personal childhood trauma, which so many of us have, we find ourselves at a tipping point. This state of affairs can no longer be endured. One way or another, it must shift.

Enter: Donald Trump, an extreme manifestation of our collective neglected trauma screaming for attention, desperate for acceptance, yet perpetually rejected. It’s not on purpose. It’s too painful to engage with, so we distract ourselves to avoid the truth that has become patently obvious: America, the world, is sick, the severity of the condition represented by President-elect Trump.

Whether you voted for him or not, his is the prevailing energy at this point in time. And everyone has a piece of it because nothing happens without the tacit/active approval of the people. At the extremes, which have become increasingly normalized, some of us hate along with Mr. Trump, and others just hate Mr. Trump. In the end, there is little difference between the two positions beneath the veneer.

…The result of this profound historical imbalance between the masculine and the feminine is a fearful, abusive, violent, misogynistic, racist, pornographic culture that has relegated community, compassion and empathy to sideshow status, leaving in its wake a traumatized and confused culture that escapes and survives via its cornucopia of addictions that have become normalized. …

… let’s try sending the President-elect some good vibes. Throw him a bone. He needs it badly. So do we all.”

I agree with everything written in this article, but I don’t agree with the last sentence. Sending good vibes and throwing him a bone will not stop him from destroying himself and many in the process. Just like I wrote in a text to my BF, “Donald Trump is going to do to America and the whole world what the sociopaths in Sxxxxxxxr did to me. It's heartbreaking that some people, after working with me and seeing what I went through at Sxxxxxxxr, still are emotionally blind and driven by the dead hand of their own repression to vote for a very damaged man like Donald Trump. I agree with everything written in the article. I only disagree with the very end. Because once we give power to a lunatic like America, people have given power to this lunatic, Donald Trump, they will not give up power without their own destruction and the destruction of many. Throwing him a bone will not stop him NOW from destroying himself and many in the process. Just look into the history and how every dictator ended.”

This last sentence shows me the author is still blinded by the repressed emotions of the child he once was, and still has the illusion that with good vibes, love, and throwing a full-blown psychopath a bone, we can make things better. The only way we can prevent future damage is by preventing giving power to people whose souls have been murdered in childhood in the first place, because once they gain power, they don’t give it up without destroying themselves and many in the process.  

You wrote in a past e-mail, "I trust that when you had an abortion, you were making the best decision for yourself. I respect your choice, and it’s really none of my business what anyone does or doesn’t do with their bodies or their lives. I’m really not anti-abortion, and I definitely agree with you that every child that’s born should be protected and loved."

 With your vote, you are not respecting my decision; otherwise, you would never vote for a man who wants to punish women for having abortions and wants to pass laws to restrict women's access to having an abortion. And if you agreed with me that every child should be protected and loved, then you would be voting for politicians who will make it easy for women not ready to have a child to access birth control and abortion. Again, with your vote, you tell me something different.  

 Merry official Christmas
Hope you're having a nice day!
XOXOX

Sylvie: Thank you! I hope you, too, are having a nice day!
I'm working, besides guests visiting family, it's pretty quiet! I'm reading the article you sent me! That article sums it up well. Thank you for sending it.

Says a lot of the things that you and Alice Miller say, and I bet you thought I didn't pay attention LOL.

Sylvie: Where did you find that article?! You have no idea how much you made my day to see that you pay attention and truly understand these psychological mechanisms. Having someone in my life who understands me is the best Christmas gift I could ever have. Thank you!

It's inspiring me to write a blog. People are afraid to look in the mirror. That's why I was targeted by a mob of sociopaths at my work, because my book is a mirror, and they didn't like their own reflections. They would rather destroy me than take responsibility for their own childhood repression. Financially, they did put me in a real bind, but as long as I have health, my finances will eventually recover sooner or later. Seeing this scenario played on a grand scale on the world's stage is breaking my heart.

Donald Trump is going to do to America and the whole world what the sociopaths in Sxxxpxxxr did to me. It's heartbreaking that some people, after working with me and seeing what I went through at Sxxxxxxxr, are still emotionally blind and driven by the dead hand of their own repression to vote for a very damaged man like Donald Trump. I agree with everything written in the article. I only disagree with the very end. Because once we give power to a lunatic like America, people have given power to this lunatic, Donald Trump, they will not give up power without their own destruction and the destruction of many. Throwing him a bone will not stop him from destroying himself and many in the process. Just look into the history of how every dictator ended.

These words by Alice Miller go right to the heart! "Kafka was hardly aware that the main sources of his imagination were deeply hidden in his early childhood. Most writers aren't. However, the amnesia of an artist or writer, though sometimes a burden for their body, doesn't negatively affect society. Readers simply admire the work and are rarely interested in the writer's infancy. However, the amnesia of politicians or leaders of sects does afflict countless people. It will continue to do so as long as society remains blind to the important connections between the denial of traumatic experiences in early childhood and the destructive, criminal actions of individuals.” Read more here

Here is another must-read article by Rolling Stone, Trump and the Pathology of Narcissism

Diagnosing the president was off-limits to experts – until a textbook case entered the White House.


The most current iteration of the DSM classifies narcissistic personality disorder as: "A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts." A diagnosis would also require five or more of the following traits:
1. Has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g., "Nobody builds walls better than me"; "There's nobody that respects women more than I do"; "There's nobody who's done so much for equality as I have").
2. Is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love ("I alone can fix it"; "It's very hard for them to attack me on looks because I'm so good-looking").
3. Believes that he or she is "special" and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people or institutions ("Part of the beauty of me is that I'm very rich").
4. Requires excessive admiration ("They said it was the biggest standing ovation since Peyton Manning had won the Super Bowl").
5. Has a sense of entitlement ("When you're a star, they let you do it. You can do anything. Grab them by the pussy").
6. Is interpersonally exploitative (see above).
7. Lacks empathy, is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings
and needs of others ("He's not a war hero . . . he was captured. I like people that weren't captured").
8. Is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her ("I'm the president, and you're not").
9. Shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes ("I could stand in the middle of 5th Avenue and shoot somebody, and I wouldn't lose any voters").
NPD was first introduced as a personality disorder by the DSM in 1980 and affects up to six percent of the U.S. population. It is not a mood state but rather an ingrained set of traits, programming of the brain that is thought to arise in childhood as a result of parenting that either puts a child on a pedestal and superficially inflates the ego or, conversely, withholds approval and requires the child to single-handedly build up his or her own ego to survive. Either way, this impedes the development of a realistic sense of self and instead fosters a "false self," a grandiose narrative of one's own importance that needs constant support and affirmation – or "narcissistic supply" – to ward off an otherwise prevailing sense of emptiness. Of all personality disorders, NPD is among the least responsive to treatment for the obvious reason that narcissists typically do not, or cannot, admit that they are flawed.
Trump's childhood seems to suggest a history of "pedestal" parenting. "You are a king," Fred Trump told his middle child, while also teaching him that the world was an unforgiving place and that  it was important to "be a killer." Trump apparently got the message: He reportedly threw rocks at a neighbor's baby and bragged about punching a music teacher in the face. Other kids from his well-heeled Queens neighborhood of Jamaica Estates were forbidden from playing with him, and in school, he got detention so often that it was nicknamed "DT" for "Donny Trump." When his father found his collection of switchblades, he sent Donald upstate to New York Military Academy, where he could be controlled while also remaining aggressively alpha male. "I think his father would have fit the category [of narcissistic]," says Michael D'Antonio, author of The Truth About Trump. "I think his mother probably would have. And I even think his paternal grandfather did as well. These are very driven, very ambitious people." Read more here

If you would like to read more about my experience with a mob of sociopaths, also read my blog post, Experienced Knowledge 


Monday, August 8, 2022

I Will no Longer Be on Social Media

Scroll down for an AI-polished version of this blog—same heart, clearer words.

"The Emperor's New Clothes" is a fairy tale. In reality, the kid who points out that the emperor is naked will get murdered. 

https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2022/08/the-emperors-new-clothes.html

This is why I have been harassed, prosecuted, and ostracized by very bad players most of my life, starting with my first-grade teacher and especially in the workplace, since I published my book, because, with my book, I point out that the emperors of the world are naked. In this world, seeing and feeling, people are the most discriminated against, no matter what color or background. I have been the target of bad players in every color and background. 

Never too late to get real! First, with yourself and then, if you choose, with the whole world, but what's important is that you must become real, at least in private, with yourself if you want to die free and not in an emotional prison. 

If you do choose to go public with your story, make sure you really have resolved your childhood repression and you are no longer blinded by the repressed emotions of the child you once were.

Otherwise, you might not be able to see clearly the mind games and the traps the sociopaths of the world targeting you put in front of you to trap you and bring you back into an emotional prison. 

And you will be endlessly stuck in your story in an emotional prison with little chance of ever escaping. If I had not truly resolved my childhood repression, I would not have survived a mob of sociopaths targeting me after I published my book. 

I no longer have the patience and time for people who use their sharp intellect to go around in circles in their heads to avoid facing their own painful truths.

All of my life, I have been working undercover to witness the depths of humanity's repression and corruption.  I have learned humanity's corruption or evil is bottomless -- it's very ugly -- most people are acting as if personality pretending to be good people but are wolves in sheep's clothing, and if you trigger their unresolved childhood repression, their meanness, and cruelty, it has no end. Publishing my book was the ultimate test that gave me all the proof.

My work undercover is coming to an end, and I will be retiring soon and walking into the sunset and live happily ever after in peace and tranquility!  I have given up on humanity, and I consider myself divorced from humanity. 

I think Russia might have started World War 3, and we all might get nuked soon, anyway, so I'm going to enjoy all my days left on this Earth away from toxic people.

I'm tired of dealing with sociopaths at every corner I take and I will not get out of my way anymore to try to reach others that are in the same place I once was; if people want the naked truth and leave behind the world of lies and illusions, they will have to go underground and dig for the naked truth like I did because without the naked truth -- true liberation and healing --  is not possible. I will still try to write back to anyone, and mean ANYONE, family or not, that finds me and reaches out to me -- you might not like my answers, but you can be assured I will give you an honest answer. But I'm done with social media. Social media is all about creating pretty illusions and pretty seductive lies. 

If you have read my book, you know who Marty is! Before I met Marty, I used to be a very private person, sharing very little of myself with others. Now I'm going back to being the very private person I once was. 

For now, I will just keep this blog. If there is anything I like to share with the world, I will only share it here, and if people find it helps them gather the courage to leave the world of lies and illusions behind, and liberate themselves. Great! Being supportive of others is all I have ever wanted.   

I have deleted most of my social media accounts. Twitter and LinkedIn, I had no trouble deleting them, but Instagram and my personal Facebook page are giving me a hard time deleting them. 

When I click the button to deactivate accounts, I keep getting a query error, which is very annoying because I feel like I'm being held hostage by Facebook/Meta and they are forcing me to just abandon my pages. 

They like to control and block my truthful posts but they don't want me to deactivate my accounts because I'm sure they just want to keep the numbers of subscribers up because that's how they make money -- it's all about the math for them -- and they could care less about truth and humanity. 

I have been on Facebook for over 10 years and have not gotten much out of it! With any other relationship, I would have broken up a long time ago. I can't believe I stayed with Facebook this long without getting much back.

All they care about is money, power, and control. Facebook/Meta blocks the truth -- and allows the lies and illusions to spread like wildfires feeding the violence and all the wars around the world; therefore, Facebook is part of the problem and is evil. 

Facebook has been censoring me for many years, as you can see in the link below:

https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2011/05/i-am-being-censored-by-facebook.html

The wall of silence is everywhere, and why would it be any different online?! And yes, self-censoring means a lot of important information never gets shared, but seductive pretty lies and illusions with disconnected half-truths, and feel-good disconnect stories that work like medication to keep us numb, they get a lot of sharing and likes. 

People love to be distracted from their own painful truths and from doing the most important work in their lives -- doing their own emotional work. 

“This kind of self-censoring can mean that important information is never shared. Some had hoped that social media might provide new outlets that encourage more discussion and the exchange of a wider range of opinions. But we see the opposite – a spiral of silence exists online, too.”

Where there is 'control', there is ALWAYS abuse.



On YouTube, I only left the Big Brother video and deleted all others. 

As long as people are too afraid to face their own painful truths and consciously feel the repressed emotions of the child they once were within the context of their own childhood, they will be driven by the dead hand of their own repression into the state of repetitive compulsion to endless reenact their disastrous childhood dramas and no matter what anyone says or does, or how well someone articulates great ideas and pretty theories -- nothing matters in this world -- humanity is on the path to self-destruct -- and with the aid of technology -- it's going to self-destruct much faster -- humanity it's doomed. And there is nothing anyone can do or say to change this.

Every time a person goes off the deep end and takes others with them, like many dictators and mass shooters do. People say they need to raise awareness about mental health, remove the stigma, and make mental health a priority. But don't be fooled most people even those in the mental health field don't care about your mental health, if they did, they would not lie to you, they would not play mind games with you and they would find the courage to tell you the naked truth -- because without it -- true liberation and healing is not possible. 

"Children who are told the truth and are not brought up to tolerate lies and cruelty can develop as freely as a plant whose roots have not been attacked by pests (in our case, lies)" Alice Miller 

"Unfortunately, narcissists in positions of high visibility or power-particularly in the so-called helping professions (medicine, education, and the ministry) -often do great harm to others."

Communities are micros of the world and If people cared about mental health I would not have been the target of a psychological warfare by a mob of bad players at the community where I worked for nine and a half years after I published my book sharing my life experiences and psychological discoveries -- at this community -- they were medical doctors, psychologists, psychiatrist doctors and even the ones that were not part of psychological warfare, they stayed silent on the sidelines looking at me stone-faced waiting to see if I would burn and crash. The silence from those on the sidelines is the worst.

If it was me, the little woman to commit a crime, and self-destruct my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all the "experts" would come out of the woodwork and take ownership of my story to spin it in any direction they wanted. 

Probably all go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was -- to discredit me and my book --and make a name for themselves by standing on my head. And all probably say that you need "God in your life", my ex-boss was a Mormon, a man of God, but he was the one to lose his mind, but now is a big cover-up. I could see their games and traps so clearly. I was their target to destroy, but when was one of them to self-destruct, all became silent, and no one cared that these criminals with their projections and lies -- I lost my job and more than half of my income  -- AND they could have destroyed my life completely.

Most people's objective in life is not freedom for themselves and others. Most people's objective in life is to one day own their own slaves.

Most people only care about themselves and create bubbles around themselves to feel safe. They don't realize that their unresolved childhood repression will catch up with them and their bubbles and illusions will burst from within sooner or later in one form or another.

Suppose you truly break free and the system finds out. In that case, it will gather all the forces at its command to try to bring you back into the emotional prison --- remember the system doesn't want you to be free -- the system wants to keep you in an emotional prison and treat you with medications and manipulative therapies to keep you subdued, obedient and well behaved without a chance of breaking free from your emotional prison --- your freedom is the last thing the system wants --- It's a game they are playing, a cat and mouse game, a very dirty game they play to keep their own fears at bay of having to face and feel their own tragic repressed childhoods.

There are many people online articulating very well how the narcissist's mind works and how to deal with them, but very few mention the reason why people become full-blown narcissists and sociopaths?! So most likely, many are narcissists, themselves - talking a good talk without doing the emotional work and liberating themselves first.

The reason many people become narcissists and sociopaths is that they grew up with lies and had very tragic traumatic childhoods and because they can't face and feel this painful truth and consciously feel the repressed emotions of the child they once were within the context of their own childhood -- this is why people grow into full-blown malignant narcissists, sociopaths, psychopaths...

Most people rather idealize their parents and childhoods, and to survive, they have learned the art of projection and transference to perfection -- they go through life unconsciously and compulsively looking for scapegoats to use as poison containers to temporarily and superficially alleviate their own repression -- so they can have the illusion that they are perfect, better and superior to others and they rather kill and be killed than face and feel their own painful truths. 

They endless are driven by the repressed emotions of the child they once were to hurt themselves, others, or both. I don't see many saying that there is people's denial and the repressed emotions that turn many into -- people of the lie -- and become full-blown sociopaths, malignant narcissists, assholes, bad players, or whatever you like to call these evil people.  

Just like I wrote in my book on pages 144 and 145, "Thanks to Alice Miller, I came to understand that the widespread repression of early traumas is the great malady of
our society. If we look closely enough, we can see that this repression is responsible for most of our individual troubles, as well as our societal ills. It appears symptomatically in
illnesses, obsessions, addictions, violence, greed, deceit, and loss of meaning. And it can lead to cruelty, violence, and criminal behavior. So many of us carry on as if all this perverse behavior is normal, while most of us who really want to find a way out go down the wrong path. All too often, we follow false prophets who get us to believe that eradicating individual
symptoms is the way to solve our problems. Little do we know that in doing so, we always fail to get to the real heart of the matter — the denial and repression of childhood suffering."

Let me make it clear if you have unresolved childhood repression you will be blind by the unresolved repressed emotions of the child you once were and if you become the target of a sociopath or a malignant narcissist you will not see the emotional manipulations and traps these bad players set up for you -- and no matter -- how many very well articulated advice and tips you get on how to deal with these bad players -- you will fall prey into their traps and it will be very hard to escape from and you might not survive.

Also, in my book on pages 172 and 173, "Resolving childhood repression is the vaccine against the charlatans of the world who exploit those who are still emotionally blinded by the unresolved, repressed emotions of the children they once were.

Once you’re free, your whole outlook on life is going to change. This quote, from a patient of Alice Miller’s, expresses what happens perfectly: “The world has not changed. There is so much evil and meanness all around me, and I see it even more clearly than before. However, for the first time, I find life really worth living. Perhaps this is because, for the first time, I have the feeling that I am really living my own life. And that is an exciting adventure. On the other hand, I can understand my suicidal ideas better now, especially those I had in my youth — when it seemed pointless to carry on — because in a way I had always been living a life that wasn’t mine, that I didn’t want, and that I was ready to throw away.”80

I’ve removed all the barriers of false morality and am totally free to experience all my feelings, take them seriously and decide whom, if anyone, to share them with. I’ve faced my past and can deal with my present circumstances in the context of growing awareness instead of childhood fears. These words by Alice Miller express how I exactly feel: “If I allow myself to feel what pains or gladdens me, what annoys or enrages me, and why this is the case, if I know what I need and what I do not want at all costs, I will know myself well enough to love my life and find it interesting, regardless of age or social status. … I will know that I have
lived my own, true life.”81

It really is a powerful feeling, and you’re likely to find yourself possessing a power that will be threatening to a lot of people. Society is on the side of the status quo, so be prepared. As Alice Miller writes in Free from Lies, going against the parents “is a source of major alarm for others … They will sometimes mobilize all the forces at their command to discredit the former victim and thus keep their own repression intact.”82

But thanks to Alice Miller, I’m content to be who I am regardless of what other people think. This passage, from Breaking Down the Wall of Silence, sums it up so well: “To live with one’s own truth is to be at home with oneself. That is the opposite of isolation. We only need confirmation when we are alienated from ourselves and in flight from the truth. All the friends and devoted admirers in the world cannot make up for the loss.”83

When I die, I will not be sad because I have truly lived and will die in freedom, no longer scared and no longer a captive of the emotional prison into which I was born." 

After I published my book, all the sociopaths at my job felt threatened by my knowledge and sure enough, they all gathered the forces at their command to try to destroy me and discredit me and my book. 

I'm sure the sociopaths at my last job had never met anyone before me who I had truly resolved childhood repression. And thought my knowledge was just intellectual, like theirs, 
They didn't believe what I wrote in my book that I had faced and resolved my childhood repression, and I had broken free from my emotional prison. And I'm sure they were confident that they could bring me back into an emotional prison. Big mistake! Underestimating me has always been people's biggest mistake.

"Narcissists aren't inconsiderate of your feelings. On the contrary, they are extremely considerate of your feelings. Your feelings are exactly what they are trying to affect. They closely observe how you react every time they do something to hurt you. And they are like sharks, able to smell a drop of blood a mile away. Why? Because your hurt feelings are their pain-killing drug. They are addicted to it. Ever since childhood. That's what their illness is, an addiction." Kathy Krajco

Hurting and destroying others' lives is their pain-killing drug. It's an addiction that keeps their own childhood repression intact. Just like I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom, page 118: "... as long our pain remains repressed, we will unconsciously and compulsively do to others what was once done to us." 

As long as people's childhood repression goes unresolved, they will endlessly unconsciously and compulsively look for scapegoats to take revenge for the wrongs done to them when they were defenseless little children to temporarily and superficially alleviate their childhood repression...

And as Alice Miller wrote in the answers below to one of her readers:

"I am also glad that you have the hope that we can pass on our knowledge to the masses. I had this hope 30 years ago when I wrote the Drama. I thought that showing the truth can change so much. Meanwhile, I became more skeptical or just more impatient after I discovered the fear of the beaten child in all of us that built up the omnipresent resistance against the truth." Alice Miller

(Me too, I had the hope that with the writing of my book would help pass this knowledge to the masses, but like Alice Miller, I have become skeptical, and with the writing of my book, I too learned that people's repressed fears at the parents build omnipresent resistance against the truth. And people would rather destroy others than face and consciously feel their own repressed fears to see the truth. And this is why I have been harassed, prosecuted, and ostracized in the workplace by bad players since I published my book. I understand people's fears of their childhood pain that have been trying to keep repressed all of their lives, but it is still disappointing that pretty much everyone I meet doesn't have the courage to face their fears and become real.   

I don't know a single person in this world with whom I would like to switch places! Until the day I die, I have created a little heaven on earth for myself. And no one can steal that from me. I'm at home at last. 

"Sometimes people try to destroy you, precisely because they recognize your power, not because they don't see it, but because they see it and they don't want it to exist." Yes, this is another reason I get targeted by bad players since I published my book. They don't want me and my power to exist. 

"Imagine growing up treated as if you're hard to love... later realizing you were the most worthy of them all... finding you've been surrounded by toxic people full of self-hate who gained light by putting out yours. An insight that makes you invincible."  Yes, realizing that others are not more worthy or superior to me was very liberating.  

"Those who are able to see beyond the shadows and lies of their culture will never be understood, let alone believed by the masses." ~Plato~

I have to agree. “A writer writes not because he is educated but because he is driven by the need to communicate. Behind the need to communicate is the need to share. Behind the need to share is the need to be understood. The writer wants to be understood much more than he wants to be respected or praised or even loved.” ― Leo Rosten

Polished version by ChatGPT below. 

I’m Done With Social Media — And With Humanity’s Illusions

“The Emperor’s New Clothes” is a fairy tale. In reality, the child who dares to say the emperor is naked risks being murdered.

That’s been my reality. From my first-grade teacher to colleagues decades later, I’ve been harassed, attacked, and ostracized for seeing — and speaking — the truth most people cannot face.

My crime? Daring to expose the naked emperors of the world. Publishing my book shattered the illusions of many. When you refuse to lie, manipulate, or play mind games, you become a threat — especially to those still trapped in childhood repression.

In this world, truth-tellers — not liars — are the ones condemned. Repression knows no color, race, or background. Evil wears many faces, but its root is always the same: unresolved childhood pain projected onto others.

You Must First Free Yourself

It’s never too late to face your own truth. That is the only path to freedom. But be warned: until you have fully resolved your childhood repression, you will remain vulnerable to sociopaths who will mirror your unhealed wounds and trap you in their toxic games.

Had I not fully confronted my past before publishing my book, I wouldn’t have survived the psychological warfare waged against me. The ultimate test of my liberation came when the mob tried to destroy me. They failed — because I was already free.

I No Longer Have Time for Self-Deceivers

For years, I’ve witnessed the bottomless corruption of humanity. People pretend to be good while hiding their true nature. When their wounds are triggered, cruelty pours out. I’ve seen it everywhere — including among “healers,” “helpers,” and so-called “spiritual” leaders.

Even in my own workplace, after publishing my book, doctors, psychologists, and religious leaders either attacked me or silently watched, hoping I would collapse. Their silence was the deepest betrayal. Had I committed a crime, the media would have paraded my face as a trophy. But instead, my ex-boss — a self-proclaimed man of God — was the one to unravel. Today, the truth is buried. They underestimated me. They always have.

“Narcissists aren’t blind to your feelings. They’re addicted to your pain.”
— Kathy Krajco

“As long as our pain remains repressed, we will unconsciously and compulsively do to others what was once done to us.”
— A Dance to Freedom

This is why people endlessly scapegoat others instead of facing their own childhood tragedies. Most would rather destroy others — or themselves — than confront the truth.

Social Media Feeds the Lie

I’ve walked away from social media entirely. These platforms profit from illusion, distraction, and lies. They censor truth, but refuse to let users leave, trapping accounts for profit. They are part of the very evil they pretend to oppose.

“Some had hoped that social media might encourage open discussion, but instead, a spiral of silence exists online too.”
— from a 2016 article on my blog

Wherever there’s control, there’s always abuse. Self-censorship keeps truth hidden while comforting lies spread like wildfire. Most people don’t want healing — they want distraction.

Humanity Has Made Its Choice

Mass shootings and violence erupt, and people chant about “raising awareness” for mental health. Yet most — even many mental health professionals — refuse to face the root: repressed childhood pain.

“Children who are told the truth and not brought up to tolerate lies and cruelty can develop freely, like a plant whose roots have not been attacked by pests.”
— Alice Miller

Tragically, many who enter helping professions are deeply wounded themselves — and end up perpetuating harm while wearing masks of virtue.

“The widespread repression of early traumas is the great malady of our society. It underlies most personal and societal ills — from illness, addiction, and violence to greed, deceit, and the loss of meaning.”
— A Dance to Freedom

Resolving childhood repression is the only true vaccine against manipulators. But this demands radical honesty — and few are willing.

“Those able to see beyond the shadows and lies of their culture will never be understood — let alone believed — by the masses.”
— Plato

“Sometimes people try to destroy you not because they don’t see your power — but because they do.”
— Anonymous

“They will mobilize all forces to discredit the former victim to keep their own repression intact.”
— Alice Miller

My Heaven Is Built — And It Is Untouchable

Thanks to Alice Miller’s work, I no longer need anyone’s validation. My liberation is complete. I have built my heaven on earth, and no one can take it away.

“To live with one’s own truth is to be at home with oneself.”
— Alice Miller

The world hasn’t changed — but I have. And that is enough.

I am done with illusions, done with self-deceivers, and done with the endless repetition of humanity’s unresolved wounds. Those who seek the truth will have to dig as I did — underground, alone, free.

Until my last breath, I remain free. That is all I ever wanted.