This blog is about learning to understand all of our feelings and learning to consciously face, feel, and experience all of our feelings within the context of our own childhood. Everything we become and everything that happens to us is connected to childhood. Not every victim becomes an abuser, but every abuser was once a victim of abuse. These are facts. Violence is not genetic; it’s learned. https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2014/08/a-dance-to-freedom-book-reviews.html
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
If You Question it if You Are a sociopath – Then Most Likely You Are Not!
Wednesday, June 20, 2018
People Rather Kill Themselves, others or both than Face the Fears of Being Alone and Feel the pain to Become Real
So lost and so different. Do you know, what you really want???
When will you catch me from this darkness?
Tell me, where you are!
Please explain life to me,
I don't know, how it works.
Like two foxes in the polar sea, constantly heading for the night.
I haven't slept for a long time
Do you know, what you actually need?
When will you catch me, in this hot snow of july?
Two times summer, and back
Please, explain life to me
cause I don't know how it works.
Tell me about love.
I have never seen it.
When will you catch me.
In the hot snow of July?
Two times Sommer and back.
Tell me about your Life.
i have never seen you like this.
Tell me about love.
I have lost before i ever had it.
Saturday, June 16, 2018
Evil is Born Anew with Every New Generation
Obviously, Liliane Rombout or Olane Roos, she is still scared of the repressed emotions of the child she once was at her own mean mother, otherwise, would not have looked on the internet for someone she could target to project herself into and use as her scapegoat.
Narcissists are very prone to jealousy and envy. They will devalue the accomplishments of others, especially of scapegoats. If they feel someone is a threat, they devalue this person in general, talking negatively to others behind this person's back. Other times, they will give backhanded compliments or focus on the negative when someone is experiencing success or when they are discussing achievements. If someone is experiencing success, the narcissist will turn this around and accuse this person of being selfish or narcissistic for talking about it. ~Traci Dillard
I just wish sociopaths, psychopaths and malignant narcissists stopped targeting me and left me alone -- and gave up on trying to bring me back into an emotional prison -- but I understand that nothing triggers their jealousy and hatred more than a seeing a truly happy and free person and are driven blindly by jealousy and hatred. And to protect myself, I have to keep long bridges from people and not cross it too often in order to enjoy my freedom and peace for the rest of my life.
They say, "Misery loves Company." Well, I say, "Narcissists love to bring happy people down." What BETTER type of power trip to a narcissist's ego than to take a naturally happy person and, by their own "arising abilities," turn them into a shell of their former selves while walking off "wearing their skin"? You know that they WANT to see you lying on the sidewalk, crying out in pain because you're "nothing" without them; just as they told you (or insinuated many times). ~ANA (After Narcissistic Abuse)
Eventually, I still want to write and publish “Reenactment” for those searching for the naked truth about the real face of humanity, it is ugly, very ugly!!! And sometimes I think no one is really out there.
Evil is born anew with every new generation. Humanity is insane, and this insanity will end only when humanity is wiped off the face of the Earth. Maybe, that's why they are creating AI to wipe out most of humanity...
Humanity is unconsciously and compulsively shackled into the chains of compulsion repetition...
Evil is born anew with every new generation
https://www.alice-miller.com/en/the-ignorance-or-how-we-produce-the-evil/
Human beings are great at creating illusions. And the sharper their intellect is, the bigger the illusions they create. When it comes to humanity, nothing ever is what it seems.
Monday, December 26, 2016
This Article Sums it Up Pretty Good about Donald Trump and All of Us
Here is another must-read article by Rolling Stone, Trump and the Pathology of Narcissism
2. Is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love ("I alone can fix it"; "It's very hard for them to attack me on looks because I'm so good-looking").
3. Believes that he or she is "special" and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people or institutions ("Part of the beauty of me is that I'm very rich").
4. Requires excessive admiration ("They said it was the biggest standing ovation since Peyton Manning had won the Super Bowl").
5. Has a sense of entitlement ("When you're a star, they let you do it. You can do anything. Grab them by the pussy").
6. Is interpersonally exploitative (see above).
7. Lacks empathy, is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others ("He's not a war hero . . . he was captured. I like people that weren't captured").
8. Is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her ("I'm the president, and you're not").
9. Shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes ("I could stand in the middle of 5th Avenue and shoot somebody, and I wouldn't lose any voters").
If you would like to read more about my experience with a mob of sociopaths, also read my blog post, Experienced Knowledge
Monday, August 8, 2022
I Will no Longer Be on Social Media
Scroll down for an AI-polished version of this blog—same heart, clearer words.
"The Emperor's New Clothes" is a fairy tale. In reality, the kid who points out that the emperor is naked will get murdered.
https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2022/08/the-emperors-new-clothes.html
This is why I have been harassed, prosecuted, and ostracized by very bad players most of my life, starting with my first-grade teacher and especially in the workplace, since I published my book, because, with my book, I point out that the emperors of the world are naked. In this world, seeing and feeling, people are the most discriminated against, no matter what color or background. I have been the target of bad players in every color and background.
All of my life, I have been working undercover to witness the depths of humanity's repression and corruption. I have learned humanity's corruption or evil is bottomless -- it's very ugly -- most people are acting as if personality pretending to be good people but are wolves in sheep's clothing, and if you trigger their unresolved childhood repression, their meanness, and cruelty, it has no end. Publishing my book was the ultimate test that gave me all the proof.
My work undercover is coming to an end, and I will be retiring soon and walking into the sunset and live happily ever after in peace and tranquility! I have given up on humanity, and I consider myself divorced from humanity.
I think Russia might have started World War 3, and we all might get nuked soon, anyway, so I'm going to enjoy all my days left on this Earth away from toxic people.
I'm tired of dealing with sociopaths at every corner I take and I will not get out of my way anymore to try to reach others that are in the same place I once was; if people want the naked truth and leave behind the world of lies and illusions, they will have to go underground and dig for the naked truth like I did because without the naked truth -- true liberation and healing -- is not possible. I will still try to write back to anyone, and mean ANYONE, family or not, that finds me and reaches out to me -- you might not like my answers, but you can be assured I will give you an honest answer. But I'm done with social media. Social media is all about creating pretty illusions and pretty seductive lies.
If you have read my book, you know who Marty is! Before I met Marty, I used to be a very private person, sharing very little of myself with others. Now I'm going back to being the very private person I once was.
For now, I will just keep this blog. If there is anything I like to share with the world, I will only share it here, and if people find it helps them gather the courage to leave the world of lies and illusions behind, and liberate themselves. Great! Being supportive of others is all I have ever wanted.
I have deleted most of my social media accounts. Twitter and LinkedIn, I had no trouble deleting them, but Instagram and my personal Facebook page are giving me a hard time deleting them.
When I click the button to deactivate accounts, I keep getting a query error, which is very annoying because I feel like I'm being held hostage by Facebook/Meta and they are forcing me to just abandon my pages.
They like to control and block my truthful posts but they don't want me to deactivate my accounts because I'm sure they just want to keep the numbers of subscribers up because that's how they make money -- it's all about the math for them -- and they could care less about truth and humanity.
I have been on Facebook for over 10 years and have not gotten much out of it! With any other relationship, I would have broken up a long time ago. I can't believe I stayed with Facebook this long without getting much back.
All they care about is money, power, and control. Facebook/Meta blocks the truth -- and allows the lies and illusions to spread like wildfires feeding the violence and all the wars around the world; therefore, Facebook is part of the problem and is evil.
Facebook has been censoring me for many years, as you can see in the link below:
https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2011/05/i-am-being-censored-by-facebook.html
The wall of silence is everywhere, and why would it be any different online?! And yes, self-censoring means a lot of important information never gets shared, but seductive pretty lies and illusions with disconnected half-truths, and feel-good disconnect stories that work like medication to keep us numb, they get a lot of sharing and likes.
"Sometimes people try to destroy you, precisely because they recognize your power, not because they don't see it, but because they see it and they don't want it to exist." Yes, this is another reason I get targeted by bad players since I published my book. They don't want me and my power to exist.
"Imagine growing up treated as if you're hard to love... later realizing you were the most worthy of them all... finding you've been surrounded by toxic people full of self-hate who gained light by putting out yours. An insight that makes you invincible." Yes, realizing that others are not more worthy or superior to me was very liberating.
Polished version by ChatGPT below.
I’m Done With Social Media — And With Humanity’s Illusions
“The Emperor’s New Clothes” is a fairy tale. In reality, the child who dares to say the emperor is naked risks being murdered.
That’s been my reality. From my first-grade teacher to colleagues decades later, I’ve been harassed, attacked, and ostracized for seeing — and speaking — the truth most people cannot face.
My crime? Daring to expose the naked emperors of the world. Publishing my book shattered the illusions of many. When you refuse to lie, manipulate, or play mind games, you become a threat — especially to those still trapped in childhood repression.
In this world, truth-tellers — not liars — are the ones condemned. Repression knows no color, race, or background. Evil wears many faces, but its root is always the same: unresolved childhood pain projected onto others.
You Must First Free Yourself
It’s never too late to face your own truth. That is the only path to freedom. But be warned: until you have fully resolved your childhood repression, you will remain vulnerable to sociopaths who will mirror your unhealed wounds and trap you in their toxic games.
Had I not fully confronted my past before publishing my book, I wouldn’t have survived the psychological warfare waged against me. The ultimate test of my liberation came when the mob tried to destroy me. They failed — because I was already free.
I No Longer Have Time for Self-Deceivers
For years, I’ve witnessed the bottomless corruption of humanity. People pretend to be good while hiding their true nature. When their wounds are triggered, cruelty pours out. I’ve seen it everywhere — including among “healers,” “helpers,” and so-called “spiritual” leaders.
Even in my own workplace, after publishing my book, doctors, psychologists, and religious leaders either attacked me or silently watched, hoping I would collapse. Their silence was the deepest betrayal. Had I committed a crime, the media would have paraded my face as a trophy. But instead, my ex-boss — a self-proclaimed man of God — was the one to unravel. Today, the truth is buried. They underestimated me. They always have.
“Narcissists aren’t blind to your feelings. They’re addicted to your pain.”
— Kathy Krajco
“As long as our pain remains repressed, we will unconsciously and compulsively do to others what was once done to us.”
— A Dance to Freedom
This is why people endlessly scapegoat others instead of facing their own childhood tragedies. Most would rather destroy others — or themselves — than confront the truth.
Social Media Feeds the Lie
I’ve walked away from social media entirely. These platforms profit from illusion, distraction, and lies. They censor truth, but refuse to let users leave, trapping accounts for profit. They are part of the very evil they pretend to oppose.
“Some had hoped that social media might encourage open discussion, but instead, a spiral of silence exists online too.”
— from a 2016 article on my blog
Wherever there’s control, there’s always abuse. Self-censorship keeps truth hidden while comforting lies spread like wildfire. Most people don’t want healing — they want distraction.
Humanity Has Made Its Choice
Mass shootings and violence erupt, and people chant about “raising awareness” for mental health. Yet most — even many mental health professionals — refuse to face the root: repressed childhood pain.
“Children who are told the truth and not brought up to tolerate lies and cruelty can develop freely, like a plant whose roots have not been attacked by pests.”
— Alice Miller
Tragically, many who enter helping professions are deeply wounded themselves — and end up perpetuating harm while wearing masks of virtue.
“The widespread repression of early traumas is the great malady of our society. It underlies most personal and societal ills — from illness, addiction, and violence to greed, deceit, and the loss of meaning.”
— A Dance to Freedom
Resolving childhood repression is the only true vaccine against manipulators. But this demands radical honesty — and few are willing.
“Those able to see beyond the shadows and lies of their culture will never be understood — let alone believed — by the masses.”
— Plato
“Sometimes people try to destroy you not because they don’t see your power — but because they do.”
— Anonymous
“They will mobilize all forces to discredit the former victim to keep their own repression intact.”
— Alice Miller
My Heaven Is Built — And It Is Untouchable
Thanks to Alice Miller’s work, I no longer need anyone’s validation. My liberation is complete. I have built my heaven on earth, and no one can take it away.
“To live with one’s own truth is to be at home with oneself.”
— Alice Miller
The world hasn’t changed — but I have. And that is enough.
I am done with illusions, done with self-deceivers, and done with the endless repetition of humanity’s unresolved wounds. Those who seek the truth will have to dig as I did — underground, alone, free.
Until my last breath, I remain free. That is all I ever wanted.




