Humanity Everywhere is Full of Monsters

 Dear J, 

I started following this guy on YouTube. I love his videos because they help me improve my English pronunciation. This is the city you live in! Right?!

You probably have figured out that I was forced out of my job because once again, I was targeted by another sociopath or asshole. But now, thank goodness, I don't have to work unless I want to. 

I was hoping to last a few more years in the workplace so my pension would be a little bigger, but it's not possible now that eventually these sociopaths or assholes in the workplace can find out I'm a seeing and feeling person...  

Since I published my book, I have been dealing with sociopaths or assholes in the workplace one after another, and usually, I'm able to deal with them if they don't have power over me, but when it's the boss, it's a different story.  

My most recent boss for almost 4 years used to work for the former company I worked for 9 and a half years before I published my book, and he worked with my ex-boss, the bank robber... they are all corrupt. Still, the present boss is even more dangerous than the bank robber. Amazingly, I survived 4 years working under this guy; he, too, used to be an ex-police officer. They are well-trained in psychological warfare to get rid of anyone they feel threatened by. 

I hope you are doing well and hanging in there. 

Hugs from Arizona, 

Sylvie 

 Dear Sylvie,

I started writing this email the day before yesterday. And was too tired to finish it. In between, I experienced a very bad situation, which is a stark contrast to the easy start of this email, so you are warned... but I didn't want to rewrite the whole beginning. This is how I started the day before yesterday:

Gosh, this is absolutely amazing to watch on YouTube.

You won't imagine how near to my home and workspace this guy has brought you ;)

And the city center is not that small, so there would have been a lot more places he could have visited. But he chose what we call the "old town," which is the part of the city where I live.

I know all the places so well and pass them almost daily.

Starting with the bridge, where folks put on the little padlocks.

Then, most amazingly, he walked into the little bakery store at the end of our street. Then the place, where he eats his "kässpätzle", is a butchery with great quality and really good regional products. They offer a lunch buffet with typical Bavarian dishes each day.  This is about 300 meters from the house I live in. I like both places.

Then, again, a photo from the little river passing through the "old town", which looks like 1000 soft cascades. And the "puppet on strings theater" is all around the quarter I live in.

And the showdown is the last picture, which is almost a still: if you look at the right side of the picture, there is a small sign, which says "new hair". And the building next behind would be the shop where I still work. It was just a thing of some meters, and he didn't film it.

So crazy, isn't it?

Well, I am sorry that I didn't realize that you were attacked so badly at your workplace once more. I admit that I thought you did publish older postings from earlier bad times at your former job.  I am so sorry to hear that. I will write more about this another time.

But now to the thing I had to experience yesterday.  It is connected to the Augsburger Rathaus, which is quite near to the shop where I work.

Yesterday at noon, a young man managed to climb to the top of the Rathaus. He stayed there for about an hour. Police and rescue personnel were on the spot, etc. I went to work, not knowing what was happening nearby. And I saw this guy standing and moving around the Rathaus statue. Which is at least 50 meters high. Specialists try to reach him by talking to him. They made preparations to save him. But he couldn't be reached without "threatening" him. One couldn't believe how he got there anyway. 

Sylvie. You know. He finally jumped. There was quite a crowd watching this. My colleague did see it too.  The spot couldn't be evacuated or protected from sight in any way. A passenger told us that he shouted something about Jesus and Mary before he jumped. he must have been in a severe psychosis or something similar. The police closed the street for about 15 hours. And we had to close the shop. Then they opened up everything. It was Saturday. There was the Christmas market. Loads of people were on the street and came to Augsburg to shop, etc.

And one more worst thing is that I heard there are videos on the internet that show the whole scenery, including its end. How cruel is that? This is almost worse than the terrible thing itself.

The human race is so far from freedom, consciousness, and nature that we have turned into monsters.

Well, Sylvie. I stop for now. Here it is in the middle of the night. I try to get some more sleep.

Good night to you

J

Dear J,

I am so sorry you were so close to this tragedy - the demise of that poor young soul -- that never found liberation from the corrupted system created by monsters in the human race.

 
I agree humanity everywhere is full of monsters. 

We have to be constantly on the lookout for these monsters everywhere, especially authentic, real, seeing, and feeling people. These monsters don’t want authentic, real, seeing, and feeling people around… we will be rejected, harassed, prosecuted, and ostracized by the monsters in the human race in power positions, acting as if personality, pretending to be good people, but are wolves in sheep's clothing. 

 
We are all responsible for these tragedies happening around the world. Nothing happens in a vacuum. 

Just like I wrote in my book on pages 34, 35, 36, and 37: “Researchers are constantly learning more about the impact of trauma on children, while gaining a better understanding of how children sense the world around them. 

More and more caregivers are advocating for more gentle infant deliveries, as well as the elimination of circumcisions and other mutilation rituals that are performed without any thought to the consequences their pain and trauma may cause. 

Alice Miller believed that so many people are late to the party when it comes to avoiding the brutality of things like circumcision and spanking because they’ve been traumatized themselves. 

“The reason why parents mistreat their children has less to do with character and temperament than with the fact that they were mistreated themselves and were not permitted to defend themselves,” she writes. The vicious circle of trauma goes back countless generations. 

Such systemic trauma can lead to the creation of monsters. If we all start out life as innocent little babies, why do some of us turn out to be psychotic killers? Why are so many of us so self-destructive and insecure? Why do millions of people accept abusive relationships? Is it in the genes, or, as Alice Miller believed, the result of parental punishment and other traumas?

Dr. Bruce Perry, who directs the Child Trauma Academy in Houston, Texas, agrees with Alice Miller that violence begins in the brain as a result of traumatic experiences. 

“It’s not the finger that pulls the trigger; it’s the brain. It’s not the penis that rapes; it’s the brain,” he says. 

The organ that controls our behavior begins developing in the womb, and gets the bulk of its programming from our earliest relationships. 

Robin Karr-Morse and David Lawrence Junior, who write about the importance of brain development in childhood, confirm Alice Miller’s theories about the brain’s use-dependence, which we already touched on earlier. 

“Experiences of all kinds literally stimulate electrical connections among brain cells as well as build gray matter in the brain,” they write. 

“The stimulation a baby experiences before birth and in the first years of life shapes the type of brain the child develops. 

Those years are simply for developing capacities. An inadequate or traumatic caregiving relationship is deeply damaging, especially during those early years when the brain is forming chemically and structurally. 

That part of the brain that allows the baby to feel connected with another person can be lost or greatly impaired. 

Absent adequate nurturing by an emotionally competent caregiver, the baby faces an unpredictable tide of unregulated emotions. 

… If a baby’s experiences are pathological and steeped in chronic fear early in development, the very capacities that mitigate against violent behavior (including empathy, the capacity for self-regulation of strong emotions, and the emotional modulation essential for complex problem-solving) can be lost. 

As these children grow into adolescence and adulthood, impulsive and aggressive behaviors are so often the outcome. 

Moreover, genetic proclivities toward mental illness also are exacerbated. Communities inevitably absorb the consequences. We ignore the root of the problem at our peril.” 

More and more medical professionals are confirming the theories put forward by Alice Miller from the late 1970s until her death in 2010. 

Dr. Gabor Maté, for example, confirms Alice Miller’s contention that addiction, autism, and other conditions aren’t caused by genetics, but by trauma in childhood or even pre-birth in some cases. 

“The hardcore drug addicts that I treat …are, without exception, people who have had extraordinarily difficult lives. And the commonality is childhood abuse,” Dr. Maté says. 

“In other words, these people all enter life under extremely adverse circumstances. Not only did they not get what they needed for healthy development, but they actually got negative circumstances of neglect.

 I don’t have a single female patient in the Downtown Eastside who wasn’t sexually abused, for example, as were many of the men, or abused, neglected, and abandoned serially, over and over again.

 And that’s what sets up the brain biology of addiction. In other words, the addiction is related … in terms of emotional pain relief and neurobiological development, to early adversity.” 

Perhaps the largest single examination of childhood trauma comes in the form of the famous Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACE) study, conducted by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.

 The study incorporates responses from more than 17,000 participants. The initial phase of the landmark study was performed by Kaiser Permanente from 1995 to 1997 and demonstrated how specific childhood traumas can predict problems in adulthood. The baseline participants, who ranged in age from 19 to over 60 years old, are still being studied to determine their medical status. 

Revealing the “staggering proof of the health, social and economic risks that result from childhood trauma,” the study shows a significant link between a person’s ACE score and their chances of being saddled with addictions and medical problems. 

Adults with an ACE score of 4, for example, were 460 percent more likely to have depression and 1,220 percent more likely to attempt suicide than adults with an ACE score of zero. 

The study concluded that a strong relationship exists “between the breadth of exposure to abuse or household dysfunction during childhood and multiple risk factors for several of the leading causes of death in adults.”

It’s really crazy that I came across this guy’s video and show me around your town. It sounds so nice and interesting! I loved seeing the city you live in.

Maybe when I move to Spain, I will go to Augsburg, Germany, and see it in Person and visit you too. I would love that!

 
I have to go now, so I will write more at another time.

Hang in there and take good care of yourself.

Hugs,

Sylvie