Talking on the phone with an ex-resident from S, he asked me what I thought might have happened to PP in order to want to destroy me like she did. And I said: I am not sure, because the 9 and half years we worked together and the subject of childhood would come up, she could never talk about it, it was a big taboo for her and if I kept talking about childhood, she would get very uncomfortable and leave. I am very aware that people that can’t talk about childhood can’t be trusted because there is a big chance their repression can be triggered and they will make you their scapegoat. And no doubt my book triggered her own repression and instead of taking responsibility for it, she rather destroy me and kill my soul like her childhood abusers killed her own soul when she was a defenseless little child, so she can keep the idealization of her parents, childhood, and repression intact. And then while talking on the phone with my friend, the image of her father entered in my mind. I met her father a few times, he had a lady that lived with him in the same assisted living retirement home, where he lived, that used to live in Brazil and spoke Portuguese, so because I am Portuguese, they invited me to have lunch with them, her father kind of fell in love with me, and he wanted me to meet them for lunch on the weekends often, he was a very charming man that I could tell had a perverted sexuality and poor sexual boundaries, because when saying goodbye to me after having lunch, he would give me a hug and he made sure he could feel my breasts a little bit. I didn't think much of it at the time, but now, I have no doubt in my mind she was sexually molested by her father when she was a child. And now I had to pay and suffered for what her father did to her when she was a defenseless little child.
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Monica Chelagat A brief reflection on this post comparing with my own personal experience which is very different in the cause behind. In the previous related posting, you mention a person who was interested in your [job] which in my understanding is not PP. If so, PP was instrumental a sick opportunist but was not the cause. The mobbing I went through at the was Institutional but at the formal managerial level. Each character that joined in the lynch either was incited with lies or was a sociopath who capitalized on the blackmail against me and inevitably feels threatened on my defense reactions. It is complicated. It is important to understand why and who started once that is clear you can address it externally and inside you. I have done work and feel better overall. Addressing it is the best 'therapy'.
Sylvie Imelda Shene PP and another resident at the community where I worked started the plotting and MB, a new guy that was taking the place of a guy that died of heart failure, he wanted my job and saw me vulnerable, so joined in the plotting to steal my job. When I thought I had a battle won, another sociopath would take over and continue the emotional harassment the first sociopaths started. I was being attacked by sociopaths from every angle. They wanted to kill my soul to keep their own repression intact and some just for their own personal gain.
Read my blog post Stalking the Soul