This blog is about learning to understand all of our feelings and learning to consciously face, feel and experience all of our feelings within the context of our own childhood.
Everything we become and happens to us is connected to childhood. Not every victim becomes an abuser, but every abuser was once a victim of abuse, these are facts, Violence is not genetic, it’s learned.
https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2014/08/a-dance-to-freedom-book-reviews.html
Sometimes it feels like you are more on the side of the sociopaths in the community where I used to work and of my ex-boss, the bank robber, than on my side and I wonder if it is because, they are white and rich, but the criminals of other races and poor, you are not shy to call them thugs. As I have shown you, they are plenty of thugs in the white race too, but a lot of them are just more sophisticated with more money hiding behind the law, their white privilege and money; sometimes posing as "helpers" and doing their crimes behind closed doors-- they are the most deceiving of them all -- It would have been nice to feel some outrage coming from you for what the sociopaths did to me and some sympathy.
Anyway, the real reason I'm writing now is that lately I sold a few copies of my book and someone just sent me the private message below on Facebook telling me that he likes my book and that I have done a great job.
"Hi Sylvie, I purchased your book last week. I have read a couple of chapters. You have done a great job on your book from what I have read so far. I really believe in Alice Miller's work and your book is a witness to her insights. I strongly feel wounds from childhood abuse are the cause of much of the present-day suffering. When I finish your book I plan on giving it a 5-star review. All the Best Sylvie...Dennis"
A: Still busy.
I kind of can’t believe you’re insinuating that I'm some kind of racist…I hope I’m reading this wrong!
I’ve never cared what color anyone’s skin is or how much money they have or don’t have.
Of course, I’m on your side and I’m pretty sure that I ask you about your case, etc. on a regular basis. Not sure how much more sympathy I can show.
Sylvie: I have been pretty busy too. I don’t think you are consciously doing it, but when the evidence is put in front of you that a white man has committed a crime that could have completely destroyed my livelihood, you have a hard time believing it and question me?! And you don’t call them thugs like you call the criminals of other races and from other countries. We see it all the time on TV too, when a criminal of other races or from others countries are caught committing a crime, they are called thugs and terrorists, and they want to build walls and travel ban of whole groups of people to keep the thugs/terrorists out, but when is a white man caught commenting a crime, there is sometimes a big cover-up, like we witnessed in the community where I used to work, or if many people are killed and they can't cover up the crimes, they say is a troubled or disturbed person that suffers from a mental illness, a lone wolf, but never called thugs or terrorists, that’s kind of racist and discrimination, don't you think?! So don’t be afraid to call the criminals at the community where I used to work and my ex-boss, the bank robber, terrorists, and thugs, because they were terrorists trying to install fear on me. That’s what terrorists do! I have no doubt that if It was me that had lost my mind and committed a crime, the face, and name of the little poor woman would have been splashed all over all the news stations.
A: I don’t doubt you and I’m happy to call him a thug.
If I seemed incredulous, it’s only because it’s such a bizarre situation. That’s different from doubting you and I’m sorry if I wasn’t clear.
Sylvie: Cool! But the question now is: would you be incredulous and find it such a bizarre situation if it had happened in a poor neighborhood with people of different races instead of in an upscale gated community with a bunch of rich white people?! Because in a poor neighborhood with people of different races is expected?!
Childhood repression is a phenomenon that affects all races and social-economic.
A: Yes it would. Any bank robbery is bizarre because it seems like a movie, not real life.
If you like to read more about my experience with a mob of sociopaths also read my blog post Experienced Knowledge
I could not agree more with Robert Reich's words above! When I first got hired at my job of nine and half years, I was invited into board meetings, but after they read my book and found out I was not one of them, but I was a real honest person that could see everything and everyone clear, it made them uncomfortable, so they start having board meetings how to destroy me and of course I was excluded from their meetings about how to destroy me! But I didn't need to be in their meetings, because I knew exactly what they were saying and doing! Overnight my opinion no longer counted and I became their number one enemy they needed to destroy, so they could go on with their lies, facades and illusions as usual. When I would question the property manager, she always answered: “that’s not how we do things here!” of course not, the way they do things there is the fascist way and not in a democratic way! http://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2015/07/thats-all-she-ever-did-pass-buck-and.html Reading the words below, the property manager comes to mind, she got so jealous and envious of my success of publishing my book, that she had to do everything in her power to try to destroy me, to transfer her bad feelings into me, so she could feel better and superior again, but she was not able to and I'm sure she is suffering from depression like never before and probably taking medication.
“The characteristic subjective experience of narcissistic individuals is a sense of inner emptiness and meaninglessness that requires recurrent infusions of external confirmation of their importance and value. . . . When the environment fails to provide such evidence, narcissistic individuals feel depressed, ashamed, and envious of those who succeed in attaining the supplies that they lack.”
Yesterday while at work I got the comment on myFacebookpost asking me to PM him about Kyle Wilson.And as you see below in the private messages exchanged, my ex-boss used to be a Sheriff and there is a big cover-up that involves, the sociopaths at the community where I use to work, the FBI, the US Marshals, AND the Media. It seems you can't trust anyone in a position of power. There is so much corruption everywhere. It looks like there is corruption at every level of power. Everyone is focused on the sociopaths in the white house, but how we prevent sociopaths from getting into the highest office of the land is to expose them and their corruption at the local level. We fight corruption from the bottom up and not from the top, but as we witnessed at my place of work -- where I worked for nine and half years -- no one had the courage to expose the sociopaths and their corruption. And no one cares that my livelihood was almost destroyed by these very bad players. In Portugal, there is a big cover-up to keep in the dark the crimes of Doctor Julio Machado Vaz and in an America, there is a big cover-up to keep in the dark the crimes of an Ex-Sheriff. and the company he worked for.
You and Mr. X. aren't connected on Facebook 9-6-2017 11:36AM
Mr. X.: I would like to know more about Kyle Wilson for personal reasons. not sure how to explain why. how much do you know about him anyhow I found a post online about the bank robbery. as I try to do my homework
You accepted X's request.
MR. X.: Not sure if I want to know, maybe its best to leave it alone, in the end, he broke her heart
Sylvie Imelda Shene: Kyle Wilson was a criminal that join a mob of sociopaths in a plot to destroy me. He broke her heart and because of him, I lost my job of nine and a half years and more than half of my income. He projected himself into me by treating me like I was a criminal, but a year later we saw who was the true criminal. But it's a big cover-up and everyone is silent. After the emotional harassment, I went through at my job I will never look at another human being the same way and I pretty much lost all hope for humanity. Every time society allows sociopaths to go Scott free and win, we all lose. No wonder we live in this messed up world.
Mr. X.: Did you know he was past law enforcement. There is so much covered up. But his wife did share what she knew. From what I gathered he was up to something bigger and it’s been covered up. Especially since the FBI and marshals got involved. I know about borderline personality disorders, as my ex messed me up for years. Still cleaning up the mess she left on the kids. But the kids finally figured it out. Sad world
Sylvie Imelda Shene: No, I didn’t know he was in law enforcement, I just know it’s a big cover-up! Thank you for writing. The information you share with me might be helpful in the future. My story is going to be heard sooner or later. I’m patient. I’m sorry your ex was also a sociopath and you still cleaning up her mess. Me too, I’m still cleaning up after the mess of being the target of a mob of sociopaths at my job.
Sylvie Imelda Shene: Don't worry I will keep you anonymous... but this information is very valuable to me.
Mr. X. Hope it helps.
Sylvie Imelda Shene: Thank you! Read my letters to the media in the links below: Open Letter to the Media The Silence from the Media is Deafening Sylvie Imelda Shene"For most people, when we do an act which hurts somebody else, we feel guilt, we have regret, remorse, and shame. The sociopath does not experience these feelings. He will only experience regret if his actions have affected his own life, and therefore damaged himself." Read More Here To read more about my experiences with the mob of sociopaths or narcissists at my last job read my blog Experienced Knowledge
The other day someone found my blog with the keyword "tackleberry bandit az", so out of curiosity I googled the keyword and I found the FBI's wanted poster of my ex-boss, a middle-aged white man and an ex-sheriff! They treated me like a criminal and they accused me of making threats, but look who was the criminal and going around making threats to kill people if they didn't comply with his commands!
If it was me, the little woman to commit a crime my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all probably go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was -- to discredit me and my book --and make a name for themselves by standing on my head. And all probably say that you need God in your life, my ex-boss was a Mormon, a man of God, but he was the one to lose his mind, but now is a big cover-up. I could see their games and traps so clearly. I was their target to destroy, but when it was one of them self-destructed, all became silent and no one cares that these criminals with their projections and lies -- I lost my job and more than half of my income -- AND they could have destroyed my life completely. There is no humanity! Most people are all fake and pretenders -- acting as if personalities pretending to be good people -- but are wolves in sheep's clothing. I'm done with humanity! Humanity is on the path to self-destruct and with the aid of technology is going to happen much faster! And there is nothing I can do besides smiling and waving at those that pass by me following false heroes and leaders taking them to an abyss. I will keep sharing my experiences and psychological discoveries with anyone that listens, but who wants to listen to someone that once made a living as a topless dancer and now as a gate attendant to upscale gated communities that in most people's eyes are nobodies and could not possibly have anything of importance to tell anyone! So I just smile and wave! AND enjoy my newfound freedom. Sad for them, but happy for me!
My ex-boss had the perfect cover, he would rob banks and go take cover at Securitas, the Security company! Perfect cover! But on March 11, 2016, on my birthday, he chose the wrong day to rob banks, because he never made it to his cover at Securitas office. My birthday was the wrong day to go out robbing banks!
"Tackleberry Bandit" Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona November 25, 2015; December 14, 2015; December 24, 2015, UNKNOWN SERIAL BANK ROBBER
DESCRIPTION
Height: 5'5" to 5'7" Sex: Male Build: Medium Race: White Age: 30 to 40 years old "Tackleberry Bandit" Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona November 25, 2015; December 14, 2015; December 24, 2015, UNKNOWN SERIAL BANK ROBBER DESCRIPTION Weapon Used: Black semi-automatic handgun (possibly a Glock)
CAUTION
On November 25, 2015, at approximately 9:53 a.m., an unknown suspect entered the Comerica Bank located at 2200 South Gilbert Road in Chandler, Arizona. He was armed with a gun, which he pointed at employees while ordering them to the rear of the bank by the teller counter. The employees were then ordered to get on their knees. The suspect gave two bank bags to a teller and demanded currency. The suspect shouted to the employees not to activate any alarms and threatened to shoot the employees if they didn’t comply.
He was given money and fled the bank in an unknown direction. The unknown suspect wore a black ski mask, black sunglasses, a long-sleeved black shirt, black leather gloves, a tan, tactical-style belt, green "tactical" cargo pants (similar to 5.11 tactical cargo pants), and brown hiking-style shoes. He carried two blue, zippered bank bags. The suspect may have worn a ballistic vest under his shirt. On December 14, 2015, at approximately 4:10 p.m., an unknown suspect entered the BMO Harris Bank located at 2955 East Chandler Heights in Chandler, Arizona. The suspect held a black semi-automatic handgun, along with two blue, zippered bank bags. He proceeded directly to the teller counter, then handed the bank bags to the tellers and ordered them to fill the bags with money. The suspect ordered another employee from their office and directed all the employees to lie on the ground. Height: 5'5" to 5'7" Sex: Male Build: Medium Race: White Age: 30 to 40 years old "Tackleberry Bandit"
Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona November 25, 2015; December 14, 2015; December 24, 2015 UNKNOWN SERIAL BANK ROBBER DESCRIPTION Weapon Used: Black semi-automatic handgun (possibly a Glock) December 24, 2015, December 24, 2015, November 25, 2015 November 25, 2015 The suspect was described as a White male, approximately 30 years old, 5’7” tall, and 175 pounds. He wore a black hooded sweatshirt, a black ski mask, black sunglasses, tan cargo pocket pants (similar to 5.11 tactical cargo pants), and tan hiking-style boots. He carried two blue, zippered bank bags. On December 24, 2015, at approximately 11:21 a.m., an unknown suspect entered the Amtrust Bank located at 4979 South Alma School Road in Chandler, Arizona, holding a semi-automatic handgun and pointing it at employees and customers. The suspect confronted employees and demanded money, then ordered them to lie on the floor. After obtaining the currency, the suspect placed the money inside of two blue bank bags and fled the bank.
The suspect was described as a White male, 5’6” tall with a medium build. He wore a black ski mask, a black sweatshirt, black gloves, tan 5.11 tactical pants, tan hiking-style boots. He carried two blue, zippered bank bags. SHOULD BE CONSIDERED ARMED AND DANGEROUS If you have information regarding these robberies, please contact the FBI's Phoenix Field Office at 623-466-1999. If you have any information concerning this case, please contact your local FBI Office or the nearest American Embassy or Consulate. You can also submit a tip at: tips.fbi.gov Field Office: Phoenix
Here is a picture of my ex-boss, the bank robber, in a Santa Claus suit.
"The unconscious compulsion to revenge repressed injuries is more powerful than reason. That is the lesson that all tyrants teach us. One should not expect judiciousness from a mad person motivated by compulsive panic. One should, however, protect oneself from such a person." Alice Miller -- Breaking Down the Wall of Silence page 82
Women everywhere have been paying the price for the mother's sins since the beginning of time... I have been the target, many times, of society's repressed anger, and if I didn't see these psychological mechanisms clear I probably would not be here right now...
Very good question, Christa Van Vuuren. At my job of nine and a half years. I too was treated like a criminal and my locker was broken into in search of anything they could pin me down with. They destroyed all the evidence I had collected of their emotional harassment. But when one of them exactly a year later got caught committing a crime and killed himself in a police standoff, an ex-sheriff and a middle-aged White man -- now they all became silent and is a big cover-up by the FBI, the US Marshals, and the media, but if it was me, the little woman to committed a crime, my face and name would have been splashed all over the news stations everywhere.
To read more about my experiences with the mob of sociopaths or narcissists at my last job read my blog Experienced Knowledge
July 31, 2019
Hi E,
I hope you are doing well.
I have been busy with work, but still not making enough moneyto recover financially from being the target of a mob of malignant narcissists or dangerously repressed people. I tried to find out if you were a supporter of Donald Trumpbecause that would have been a big clue for me if you have become a seeing person. And when I found out you were a supporter of Donald Trumpand every time Trump would show his authentic self like making fun of a disabled person, grabbing women by the pussy, and when he said that he could shoot someone and not lose any votes --I was hoping to hear you say: after seeing how ignorant Donald Trump is I cannot vote in a good conscious for Donald Trump and I have no choice but to vote for Hilary because, in spite of her imperfections, she will be better for the Country and the world in the long run. But those words never came from you and that’s how I know you didn’t open your eyes not even a little bit. And that’s what makes me the saddest.
I thought I would share the e-mails I just sent to T C, the management company that used to manage Sxxxxxxxr and Pxx Pxxx used to be the Sxxxxxxxr property manager and is the one that instigated the plot against me. Well, T C has become another Pxx Pxx casualty too, they lost the Sxxxxxxxr account!
Pxx Pxxx was allowed to feel jealous and envious of me and ifshe felt those feelings in private and never taken any actions to hurt me no one would have gotten hurt. And I’m sure my boss would not have lost his mind like he did and would still be alive.She should have read my book and tried to put it into practice. I make it very clear in my book feelings don't hurt anyone, actions do.
Writing Reenactment is now something I must do. I know J would love to help me write it. I like to try to work with Andrew Crofts, but I don’t know if I will ever be able to afford him. If he believes in me and my book - he will have to make the right price for me.
It will be 3 to 4 years until I’m ready financially to startworking on Reenactment and until then a lot can happen.
Let me know if you like to meet up for coffee sometime,
Sylvie
From: Sylvie Shene <s@.com>
Date: Wed, Jul 31, 2019 at 10:06 AM
Subject: Re: Sxxxxxxxxr
To: J M B <@.net>
Hi there!
Looks like T C was another casualty of Pxx Pxxx, whenmalignant narcissists are allowed to go on with their deceptions, in the end, everyone loses! And looks like TC is a loser too, because lost the Sxxxxxxxr account!I was her target to destroy but when was my boss, the guy she recruited to do her dirty work, to self-destruct, and all that joined in on her plot became silent! Too bad, I didn't have the resources to take her to court, because I had enough witnesses to prove her malicious actions against me.
But I'm sure wherever she is at, she is not doing well, because when a malignant narcissist's false image is broken and their true colors are exposed for everyone to see, they all lose their minds, so I'm sure she is not doing well. With her lies, mind games, and the very well-orchestrated psychological warfare, she was sure she could make me lose my mind and then prove Sylvie was crazy -- big mistake -- in the end -- she is the one to lose her mind and everyone that joined in on her plot to destroy me will have a similar fate. We already know the fate of my ex-boss!
She only had six more months until her retirement and if she left me alone and not tried to use her last six months to destroy me, she could have ended her service at Sxxxxxxxr in a good note and most people would never know, she was a malignant narcissist. And T C I have no doubt would still have Sxxxxxxxr account, but instead, by coming after me, she revealed to everyone her true colors! And now everyone knows she is a liar malignant narcissist! It's a small world as you see below:
July 25, 2019
RM: It’s a small world- I worked with Kyle at Securitas as a branch manager –from 2011- 2012 when I transferred out here with Securitas- horrible story.
Sylvie: Indeed it is a small world. You knew Kyle!? It's a shame he was not strong enough to stand up to do the right thing and let himself become a puppet of the property manager in Sxxxxxxxxr -- he paid a high price for it.
The last time I saw him, I will never forget it, this memory will always be vivid in my mind, he was standing in the Sxxxxxxxxr gatehouse with his crony Mark Burle that was relieving me at 2:30, Kyle put this guy in my team to mess with my mind and sabotage me from within, trying to get something on me to grab on to pin me down with, two big guys, Mark Burle over six foot tall and kyle 5'5" to 5'7" as his FBI poster says, they both joining together to protect themselves from a small woman that I'm not even 5 feet tall, looking at me like I was a criminal, but we saw a year later who it was the true criminals.
I use to have a locker in Sxxxxxxxr where I kept personal staff and I had evidence of their mind games, lies, and psychological warfare but Kyle broke into my locker and destroyed everything.
Securitas has lost a couple of communities because of what they did to me. And I think Sxxxxxxxr present board has not gotten rid of Securitas because I think Securitas is blackmailing them with a lawsuit if they break ties with them because I'm sure they could get a lot of evidence that the property manager was the instigator and contributed to Kyle losing his mind and drove him to self-destruct. [Update! Finally, on May, 14 - 22 Sxxxxxxxr has gotten rid of Securitas, the security company. I still do side jobs in this community like pet sitting and house watching that's why I found out they are using a new security company!]
I was the target, she wanted me dead, in jail or a mental hospital, but Kyle, the person she recruited to do her dirty work, was the one to lose his mind and self-destruct.
Did you also know Rachelle MacArthur in HR, she got in on the plot too trying to get me to make a mistake and say the wrong thing, but I just looked at her and said to myself: you are not going to get out of me the reaction you are looking for, so you have something on me to grab on to pin me down with. A seeing person cannot be played with and cannot be trapped.
I might have to walk away and lose money, but what I have cannot be bought with money or stolen and this is what makes some people so jealous and envious of me.
We should try to get the Sxxxxxxxxr account. I know everyone in the Sxxxxxxxxr board that joined the property manager on the plot to destroy me -- all board members have been forced to resign -- and some sold their houses and left in shame. The new board got rid of the management company too. I'm waiting to see when they are going to get rid of Securitas too!
The world is so small that when I left Securitas and came to Safeguard – I end up in a small community called CM in PV, but six months later they departed with safeguard and they hired a new security company called T.
The residents in CM liked me so they asked me if I would switch to the new company. I liked it there because was a small easy community and the bonus at Christmas was very good and plus was 10 minutes away from my house, just that alone I saved a lot of money on gas, so I did switch and you are not going to believe it the owners of T, S C, and C V used to work for Securitas too, they left Securitas to start their own security company! And they too knew Kyle Wilson!
Do you know also S C and C V? They put a guy there working with me, his name was Dan, I don’t remember his last name now, anyway he felt threatened by me, because everyone in the community liked me and he too started playing mind games with me and the whole scenario of Sxxxxxxxxr was starting to happen all over again – I did make a complaint -- to C V, but they took Dan’s side because once again the little women could not possibly be speaking the truth! :-) they tried to accommodate me by telling Dan to just communicate with me via the company smartphone and to leave the moment I arrived to relieve him, but every chance he had he would try to mess with me, so instead of letting it escalate, as I did in Sxxxxxxxxr, about a month later I gave my two weeks’ notice and came back to Safeguard and I end up here at E M! Hard to believe but it has been over 3 years already that I have been at E M, as long I’m not targeted by bad players and people are not playing mind games with me I will hang in here!
Anyway, about a month later this guy Dan whom they believed over me got mad and walked out on the job abandoning the post, they got a dose of his poison and once again they saw I was speaking the truth. The lady in the chair of security in CM at the time told me that always are two sides to a story and I told her: yes, there are always two sides to a story one is the truth and the other is BS and I’m walking away with the truth.
After Dan abandoned the post, T started to get in trouble with the community, and to save the account they called me apologizing and asking me to come back, but they woke up too late. And in the following January, they lost the CM account, they were there not even a year! Now CM has a different security company. We should try to get CM back also.