Big Cover-up by the Sociopaths at my ex-job, FBI, and the US Marshals

EVIL WILL VERY RARELY EXPOSE ITSELF TO PUBLIC LIGHT. IT MUST HIDE. AND IT ALMOST ALWAYS HIDES UNDER THE PRETEXT OF SOMETHING VIRTUOUS.

Yesterday, while at work, I got a comment on my Facebook post asking me to PM him about Kyle Wilson.  And as you see below in the private messages exchanged, my ex-boss used to be a Sheriff, and there is a big cover-up that involves the sociopaths at the community where I used to work, the FBI, the US Marshals, AND the Media. It seems you can't trust anyone in a position of power. There is so much corruption everywhere. There is corruption at every level of power. 

Everyone is focused on the sociopaths in the white house, but how we prevent sociopaths from getting into the highest office of the land is to expose them and their corruption at the local level. We fight corruption from the bottom up and not from the top, but as we witnessed at my place of work -- where I worked for nine and a half years -- no one had the courage to expose the sociopaths and their corruption. And no one cares that my livelihood was almost destroyed by these very bad players.

In Portugal, there is a big cover-up to keep the crimes of Doctor Julio Machado Vaz in the dark, and in America, there is a big cover-up to keep the crimes of an Ex-Sheriff. And the company he worked for.

You and Mr. X aren't connected on Facebook

9-6-2017 11:36AM

Mr. X.: I would like to know more about Kyle Wilson for personal reasons. I don't know how to explain why. How much do you know about him, anyhow
I found a post online about the bank robbery, as I try to do my homework 

You accepted X's request.

MR. X.: Not sure if I want to know, maybe it's best to leave it alone, in the end, he broke her heart

Sylvie Imelda Shene: Kyle Wilson was a criminal who joined a mob of sociopaths in a plot to destroy me. He broke her heart, and because of him, I lost my job of nine and a half years and more than half of my income. He projected himself into me by treating me like I was a criminal, but a year later, we saw who was the true criminal. But it's a big cover-up, and everyone is silent. After the emotional harassment I went through at my job, I will never look at another human being the same way, and I pretty much lost all hope for humanity. Every time society allows sociopaths to go Scott free and win, we all lose. No wonder we live in this messed-up world.

Mr. X.: Did you know he was a former law enforcement officer? There is so much covered up. But his wife did share what she knew. From what I gathered, he was up to something bigger, and it’s been covered up. Especially since the FBI and marshals got involved. I know about borderline personality disorders, as my ex messed me up for years. Still cleaning up the mess she left on the kids. But the kids finally figured it out. Sad world

Sylvie Imelda Shene: No, I didn’t know he was in law enforcement, I just know it’s a big cover-up! Thank you for writing. The information you share with me might be helpful in the future. My story is going to be heard sooner or later. I’m patient. I’m sorry your ex was also a sociopath, and you are still cleaning up her mess. Me too, I’m still cleaning up after the mess of being the target of a mob of sociopaths at my job.

Mr. X.: Please leave my name out of it. He was pierce county sheriff

Sylvie Imelda Shene: Don't worry, I will keep you anonymous... but this information is very valuable to me.

Mr. X. Hope it helps.

Sylvie Imelda Shene: Thank you!

Read my letters to the media in the links below:
Open Letter to the Media
The Silence from the Media is Deafening

"For most people, when we do an act which hurts somebody else, we feel guilt, we have regret, remorse, and shame. The sociopath does not experience these feelings. He will only experience regret if his actions have affected his own life, and therefore damaged himself." Read More Here

To read more about my experiences with the mob of sociopaths or narcissists at my last job, read my blog, Experienced Knowledge  

NARC SPEAK: A TRANSLATION

You're ugly, you're quite beautiful

You're stupid- you're more intelligent than me

You're crazy, don't want you to tell the truth about me

You're a liar- you're telling the truth

You're cheating, I'm cheating

You're dishonest, I'm slandering you and blaming you for something illegal I am doing.

The other day, someone found my blog with the keyword "tackleberry bandit az", so out of curiosity, I googled the keyword and I found the FBI's wanted poster of my ex-boss, a middle-aged white man, and an ex-sheriff! They treated me like a criminal, and they accused me of making threats, but look who was the criminal and going around making threats to kill people if they didn't comply with his commands!

If it were me, the little woman to commit a crime, my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all probably go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was -- to discredit me and my book --and make a name for themselves by standing on my head. And all probably say that you need God in your life, my ex-boss was a Mormon, a man of God, but he was the one to lose his mind, but now it's a big cover-up. I could see their games and traps so clearly. I was their target to destroy, but when it was one of them who self-destructed, all became silent, and no one cares that these criminals with their projections and lies -- I lost my job and more than half of my income  -- AND they could have destroyed my life completely. There is no humanity! Most people are all fake and pretenders -- acting as if personalities pretending to be good people -- but are wolves in sheep's clothing. I'm done with humanity! Humanity is on the path to self-destruction, and with the aid of technology, it is going to happen much faster! And there is nothing I can do besides smiling and waving at those who pass by me, following false heroes and leaders, taking them to an abyss. I will keep sharing my experiences and psychological discoveries with anyone that listens, but who wants to listen to someone that once made a living as a topless dancer and now as a gate attendant to upscale gated communities that in most people's eyes are nobodies and could not possibly have anything of importance to tell anyone! So I just smile and wave! AND enjoy my newfound freedom. Sad for them, but happy for me!

My ex-boss had the perfect cover; he would rob banks and take cover at Securitas, the security company! Perfect cover! But on March 11, 2016, on my birthday, he chose the wrong day to rob banks, because he never made it to his cover at the Securitas office. My birthday was the wrong day to go out robbing banks!

"Tackleberry Bandit" Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona November 25, 2015; December 14, 2015; December 24, 2015, UNKNOWN SERIAL BANK ROBBER

https://bankrobbers.fbi.gov/robbers-container/2015-12-01.2920056045/@@poster.pdf

DESCRIPTION
Height: 5'5" to 5'7" Sex: Male Build: Medium Race: White Age: 30 to 40 years old "Tackleberry Bandit" Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona November 25, 2015; December 14, 2015; December 24, 2015, UNKNOWN SERIAL BANK ROBBER DESCRIPTION Weapon Used: Black semi-automatic handgun (possibly a Glock)

CAUTION
On November 25, 2015, at approximately 9:53 a.m., an unknown suspect entered the Comerica Bank located at 2200 South Gilbert Road in Chandler, Arizona. He was armed with a gun, which he pointed at employees while ordering them to the rear of the bank by the teller counter. The employees were then ordered to get on their knees. The suspect gave two bank bags to a teller and demanded currency. The suspect shouted to the employees not to activate any alarms and threatened to shoot the employees if they didn’t comply.

He was given money and fled the bank in an unknown direction. The unknown suspect wore a black ski mask, black sunglasses, a long-sleeved black shirt, black leather gloves, a tan, tactical-style belt, green "tactical" cargo pants (similar to 5.11 tactical cargo pants), and brown hiking-style shoes. He carried two blue, zippered bank bags. The suspect may have worn a ballistic vest under his shirt. On December 14, 2015, at approximately 4:10 p.m., an unknown suspect entered the BMO Harris Bank located at 2955 East Chandler Heights in Chandler, Arizona. The suspect held a black semi-automatic handgun, along with two blue, zippered bank bags. He proceeded directly to the teller counter, then handed the bank bags to the tellers and ordered them to fill the bags with money. The suspect ordered another employee from their office and directed all the employees to lie on the ground. Height: 5'5" to 5'7" Sex: Male Build: Medium Race: White Age: 30 to 40 years old "Tackleberry Bandit"

Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona; Chandler, Arizona November 25, 2015; December 14, 2015; December 24, 2015 UNKNOWN SERIAL BANK ROBBER DESCRIPTION Weapon Used: Black semi-automatic handgun (possibly a Glock) December 24, 2015, December 24, 2015, November 25, 2015 November 25, 2015 The suspect was described as a White male, approximately 30 years old, 5’7” tall, and 175 pounds. He wore a black hooded sweatshirt, a black ski mask, black sunglasses, tan cargo pocket pants (similar to 5.11 tactical cargo pants), and tan hiking-style boots. He carried two blue, zippered bank bags. On December 24, 2015, at approximately 11:21 a.m., an unknown suspect entered the Amtrust Bank located at 4979 South Alma School Road in Chandler, Arizona, holding a semi-automatic handgun and pointing it at employees and customers. The suspect confronted employees and demanded money, then ordered them to lie on the floor. After obtaining the currency, the suspect placed the money inside of two blue bank bags and fled the bank.

The suspect was described as a White male, 5’6” tall with a medium build. He wore a black ski mask, a black sweatshirt, black gloves, tan 5.11 tactical pants, tan hiking-style boots. He carried two blue, zippered bank bags. SHOULD BE CONSIDERED ARMED AND DANGEROUS If you have information regarding these robberies, please contact the FBI's Phoenix Field Office at 623-466-1999. If you have any information concerning this case, please contact your local FBI Office or the nearest American Embassy or Consulate. You can also submit a tip at: tips.fbi.gov Field Office: Phoenix

Here is a picture of my ex-boss, the bank robber, in a Santa Claus suit.

https://www.legacy.com/us/obituaries/azcentral/name/kyle-wilson-obituary?id=17043491

https://www.abc15.com/news/region-southeast-valley/mesa/officials-investigating-shots-fired-on-country-club-drive-in-mesa

Below is a picture of his crony Mark Burle, whom he put in my team to mess with my mind and destroy me from within.

Below are the business cards of my boss and his crony, which I still have.

March 13, 2023, I got some hard evidence of my ex-boss, Kyle Wilson, being the 2015/16 Chandler bank robber. Read more in the link below:

https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2023/03/hard-evidence-of-my-ex-boss-being.html

"The unconscious compulsion to avenge repressed injuries is more powerful than reason. That is the lesson that all tyrants teach us. One should not expect judiciousness from a mad person motivated by compulsive panic. One should, however, protect oneself from such a person." Alice Miller -- Breaking Down the Wall of Silence, page 82

Women everywhere have been paying the price for the mother's sins since the beginning of time... I have been the target, many times, of society's repressed anger, and if I didn't see these psychological mechanisms clear, I probably would not be here right now...

https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2013/02/are-women-less-aggressive-than-men.html

Very good question, Christa Van Vuuren. At my job for nine and a half years. I too was treated like a criminal, and my locker was broken into in search of anything they could pin me down with. They destroyed all the evidence I had collected of their emotional harassment. But when one of them, exactly a year later, got caught committing a crime and killed himself in a police standoff, an ex-sheriff and a middle-aged White man -- now they all became silent, and it is a big cover-up by the FBI, the US Marshals, and the media. If it were me, the little woman who committed a crime, my face and name would have been splashed all over the news stations everywhere. 

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10155467053002016&id=7035457015

To read more about my experiences with the mob of sociopaths or narcissists at my last job read my blog Experienced Knowledge  

July 31, 2019

Hi E,

I hope you are doing well.

I have been busy with work, but still not making enough money to recover financially from being the target of a mob of malignant narcissists or dangerously repressed people.
I tried to find out if you were a supporter of Donald Trump because that would have been a big clue for me if you had become a seeing person.
And when I found out you were a supporter of Donald Trump and every time Trump would show his authentic self like making fun of a disabled person, grabbing women by the pussy, and when he said that he could shoot someone and not lose any votes --  I was hoping to hear you say: after seeing how ignorant Donald Trump is I cannot vote in a good conscious for Donald Trump and I have no choice but to vote for Hilary because, in spite of her imperfections, she will be better for the Country and the world in the long run. But those words never came from you, and that’s how I know you didn’t open your eyes, not even a little bit. And that’s what makes me the saddest.

I wanted to share the emails I sent to T C, the management company that used to manage Sxxxxxxxr, and Pxx Pxxx, who used to be the Sxxxxxxxr property manager and is the one who instigated the plot against me. Well, T C has become another Pxx Pxx casualty too, they lost the Sxxxxxxxr account!

Pxx Pxxx was allowed to feel jealous and envious of me, and if she felt those feelings in private and never took any actions to hurt me, no one would have gotten hurt. And I’m sure my boss would not have lost his mind like he did and would still be alive.  She should have read my book and tried to put it into practice. In my book, I make it very clear that feelings don't hurt anyone; actions do.

Writing Reenactment is now something I must do. I know J would love to help me write it. I would like to work with Andrew Crofts, but I don’t know if I can ever afford him. If he believes in me and my book, he will make the right price for me.

It will be 3 to 4 years until I’m ready financially to start working on Reenactment, and until then, a lot can happen.

Let me know if you'd like to meet up for coffee sometime.

Sylvie

From: Sylvie Shene <s@.com>

Date: Wed, Jul 31, 2019 at 10:06 AM

Subject: Re: Sxxxxxxxxr

To: J M B <@.net>

Hi there!

Looks like T C was another casualty of Pxx Pxxx, when malignant narcissists are allowed to go on with their deceptions, in the end, everyone loses! And it looks like TC is a loser too because they lost the Sxxxxxxxr account!  I was her target to destroy, but when my boss, the guy she recruited to do her dirty work, self-destructed, all those who joined in on her plot became silent! Too bad, I didn't have the resources to take her to court, because I had enough witnesses to prove her malicious actions against me.

But I'm sure wherever she is, she is not doing well, because when a malignant narcissist's false image is broken and their true colors are exposed for everyone to see, they all lose their minds, so I'm sure she is not doing well. With her lies, mind games, and the very well-orchestrated psychological warfare, she was sure she could make me lose my mind and then prove Sylvie was crazy -- big mistake -- in the end -- she is the one to lose her mind and everyone that joined in on her plot to destroy me will have a similar fate. We already know the fate of my ex-boss!

She only had six more months until her retirement, and if she left me alone and did not try to use her last six months to destroy me, she could have ended her service at Sxxxxxxxr on a good note, and most people would never know that she was a malignant narcissist. And T C I have no doubt would still have Sxxxxxxxr account, but instead, by coming after me, she revealed to everyone her true colors! And now everyone knows she is a liar, a malignant narcissist! It's a small world, as you see below:

July 25, 2019

RM: It’s a small world- I worked with Kyle at Securitas as a branch manager – from 2011- 2012, when I transferred out here with Securitas- horrible story.

Sylvie: Indeed, it is a small world. You knew Kyle!? It's a shame he was not strong enough to stand up to do the right thing and let himself become a puppet of the property manager in Sxxxxxxxxr -- he paid a high price for it. 

The last time I saw him, I will never forget it, this memory will always be vivid in my mind, he was standing in the Sxxxxxxxxr gatehouse with his crony Mark Burle that was relieving me at 2:30, Kyle put this guy in my team to mess with my mind and sabotage me from within, trying to get something on me to grab on to pin me down with, two big guys, Mark Burle over six foot tall and kyle 5'5" to 5'7" as his FBI poster says, they both joining together to protect themselves from a small woman that I'm not even 5 feet tall,  looking at me like I was a criminal. But, we saw a year later who the true criminals were.

I used to have a locker in Sxxxxxxxr where I kept personal stuff, and I had evidence of their mind games, lies, and psychological warfare, but Kyle broke into my locker and destroyed everything. 

Securitas has lost a couple of communities because of what they did to me. And I think Sxxxxxxxr, the present board has not gotten rid of Securitas because I think Securitas is blackmailing them with a lawsuit if they break ties with them because I'm sure they could get a lot of evidence that the property manager was the instigator and contributed to Kyle losing his mind and drove him to self-destruct. [Update! Finally, on May 14 - 22, Sxxxxxxxr has gotten rid of Securitas, the security company. I still do side jobs in this community, like pet sitting and house watching, and that's why I found out they are using a new security company!]

I was the target; she wanted me dead, in jail, or in a mental hospital, but Kyle,  the person she recruited to do her dirty work, was the one to lose his mind and self-destruct.

Did you also know Rachelle MacArthur in HR, she got in on the plot too trying to get me to make a mistake and say the wrong thing, but I just looked at her and said to myself: you are not going to get out of me the reaction you are looking for, so you have something on me to grab on to pin me down with. A seeing person cannot be played with and cannot be trapped. 

I might have to walk away and lose money, but what I have cannot be bought with money or stolen, and this is what makes some people so jealous and envious of me.

We should try to get the Sxxxxxxxxr account. I know everyone on the Sxxxxxxxxr board that joined the property manager on the plot to destroy me- all board members have been forced to resign, and some sold their houses and left in shame. The new board got rid of the management company, too. I'm waiting to see when they are going to get rid of Securitas, too!

The world is so small that when I left Securitas and came to Safeguard, I ended up in a small community called CM in PV, but six months later, they departed with Safeguard, and they hired a new security company called T.

The residents in CM liked me, so they asked me if I would switch to the new company. I liked it there because it was a small, easy community, and the bonus at Christmas was very good, plus it was 10 minutes away from my house, just that alone, I saved a lot of money on gas, so I did switch. You are not going to believe it. The owners of T S C and C V used to work for Securitas, too, and they left Securitas to start their own security company! And they, too, knew Kyle Wilson!

Do you know also S C and C V? They put a guy there working with me, his name was Dan, I don’t remember his last name now, anyway he felt threatened by me, because everyone in the community liked me and he too started playing mind games with me and the whole scenario of Sxxxxxxxxr was starting to happen all over again – I did make a complaint -- to C V, but they took Dan’s side because once again the little women could not possibly be speaking the truth! :-) They tried to accommodate me by telling Dan to just communicate with me via the company smartphone and to leave the moment I arrived to relieve him. Still, every chance he had, he would try to mess with me, so instead of letting it escalate, as I did in Sxxxxxxxxr, about a month later, I gave my two weeks’ notice and came back to Safeguard. I end up here at E M! Hard to believe, but it has been over 3 years already that I have been at E M, and as long as I’m not targeted by bad players and people are not playing mind games with me, I will hang in here!

Anyway, about a month later, this guy Dan, whom they believed over me, got mad and walked out on the job abandoning the post, they got a dose of his poison, and once again they saw I was speaking the truth. The lady in the chair of security in CM at the time told me that there are always two sides to a story, and I told her: yes, there are always two sides to a story, one is the truth and the other is BS, and I’m walking away with the truth.

After Dan abandoned the post, T started to get in trouble with the community, and to save the account, they called me apologizing and asking me to come back, but they woke up too late. And in the following January, they lost the CM account; they had been there for not even a year!  Now, CM has a different security company.  We should also try to get CM back.

Also, read about Dr. Johnnie Barto, a sexual predator pediatrician, gets up to 158 years in prison

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Scapegoating - A Conversation on Truth, Trauma, and Societal Illusions

Donald:

Sending you my best wishes for your reemergence in nursing. May you sail through your upcoming exams—whoever has you as their nurse will be fortunate to have someone with such a kind and sympathetic heart. Your compassion will be truly appreciated and respected, as you richly deserve.

Sylvie:

Thank you, Donald! Nursing is demanding work, and I burn out quickly. I regret letting my license expire—having a backup would have been wise.

Have you noticed how the Orlando shooter worked in security? The security industry attracts explosive personalities, like my ex-boss, who was a bank robber. I’ve realized many wealthy people are white-collar criminals who hire others like them to do their dirty work. They don’t want honest, authentic people around. The world is in serious trouble.

Donald:

You’re welcome, Sylvie. Nursing is undoubtedly draining, especially for someone as empathetic as you. While you wish you’d kept your license, life led you elsewhere—your book A Dance to Freedom details this journey, and there’s likely material for another book!

Your observations about security work resonate—it does attract volatile individuals, like the Orlando shooter and your ex-boss. And yes, many powerful people operate through deception, surrounding themselves with enablers. As Scott Peck wrote in People of the Lie, dishonest individuals despise those who reflect their own falsehoods.

Sylvie:

Thank you for your thoughtful words, Donald. Few truly understand my book—you’re one of them. Since publishing A Dance to Freedom, I’ve gathered more material for another book, which I hope to write soon.

I read People of the Lie—our world is drowning in deception, and most blindly accept it. Alice Miller’s words come to mind: "Children told the truth, not raised to tolerate lies, develop freely—like plants unharmed by pests." Lies fuel the violence destroying society.

Donald:

Your book has been a profound support—I revisit it often, letting its insights sink in. Your emphasis on not forcing emotions is crucial; it’s a trap many fall into, repeating the pressure our caregivers imposed.

I agree: our society is steeped in lies because facing childhood trauma is too threatening. People scapegoat truth-tellers rather than confront their pain. Alice Miller’s Free from Lies explains this well: "Only by knowing the truth can we free ourselves from childhood fears."

Sylvie:

I’m glad my book helps you. Even after being attacked by sociopaths at my job, if it reaches one person, the struggle was worth it. But I’ve learned caution—many would rather kill than face the truth.

Alice Miller faced similar persecution. Even her son, clinging to psychoanalysis, tries to discredit her work. Narcissists in "helping professions" (therapy, medicine, clergy) often cause the most harm—they preach healing but attack those who expose their emptiness.

Donald:

Your experiences mirror Miller’s warnings—people will retaliate when confronted with truth. As you wrote in your book: "Those who ignore their childhood pain crave scapegoats."

Martin Miller’s conflicted stance on his mother’s work shows how unresolved rage persists. Yet, Alice Miller’s insights remain valid—truth doesn’t depend on the messenger.

Sylvie Imelda Shene:

Exactly. Many "healers" are wolves in sheep’s clothing. I may share anonymized emails to expose their toxicity. Narcissists in power—especially those posing as trauma experts—are the most dangerous.

Martin’s lingering anger proves his dependency. As Alice wrote: "Hatred persists when we remain emotionally chained to our abusers." True freedom comes from breaking that bond.

Randell:

And nursing pays better!

Sylvie:

True, but it’s hard work! Security can be fun—meeting diverse people—if not for the narcissists.

Boniface:

All will be fine.

Sylvie:

Yes, as long as we don’t react to sociopaths’ mind games. Rising above their lies robs them of power. 

Unpolished original conversation below

Donald: Sending you my Best Wishes for your reemergence in your nursing career, and may you sail through those upcoming exams. Whoever has you as their nurse will be most fortunate to have someone with such a kind and sympathetic heart, which I am sure will be truly appreciated and respected, as you richly deserve.

Sylvie: Thank you, Donald! Being a nurse is very hard work, and I burn out very quickly, but I wish I had never let my License expire because I need to have a backup just in case. Has anyone noticed that the shooter in Orlando worked in the security business?! The security business is a magnet for individuals with explosive personalities. Just like my ex-boss, who was a bank robber!!! I have come to the conclusion that a lot of rich people are white color criminals and they like to hire other criminals to do their dirty work and to protect them, and they don't want honest and authentic people like me around. The world is in real serious trouble

Donald: You're welcome, Sylvie! I am sure that being a nurse is very demanding work, and being such a sensitive person to people's suffering, it is understandable that one might burn out quickly. You may wish you had never let your License expire, as you need to have backup just in case; however, fortunately, life took you down other roads that your book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions describes in great detail, and all that has unfolded since that you have written about is material for yet another book, perhaps. Apparently, "The security business is a magnet for people with time bombs in their brains!", as your examples of the shooter in Orlando and your ex-boss, who was a bank robber, graphically illustrate. Naturally with your life experience you "have come to the conclusion that a lot of rich people are white color criminals and they like to hire other criminals to do their dirty work and to protect them, and they don't like honest and authentic people like me around." As the old saying goes "birds of a feather flock together" and the last thing that dishonest people, "People of the Lie", as Scott Peck calls them, wants around is people like you that are honest and authentic, who held up a mirror to their lies, just with their presence, even if they do not say anything. They will avoid this like the plague and be compelled to annihilate and destroy someone like this (whom they use as a scapegoat) in their presence to keep their own repression and denial of their childhood traumas intact, as you know and understand so well, and have found out the hard way through your own direct personal experience, and survived thanks to the extensive work you have done to face up to and resolve your childhood traumas. It must be a big relief to be leaving that part of your life behind and moving into a new phase. Congratulations!

Sylvie: Thank you for your very thoughtful comment, Donald. You are one of the very few people who have read my book and truly understand it. Yes, since I published A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions, I have gathered a lot of material for another book! And I hope Ed and I will start working on it very soon. I read Scott Peck’s book “People of the Lie.” Sadly, our world is full of people living and spreading lies everywhere, and the most disheartening part is that many people in our society believe these lies.

The words below by Alice Miller come to mind --- and this is why the world is so fxxxked up, because most people believe the lies, first told by their parents in childhood, and then in adulthood by those in power positions standing in symbolizing their parents. Lies fuel the violence we witness everywhere and are destroying society. "Children who are told the truth and are not brought up to tolerate lies and cruelty can develop as freely as a plant whose roots have not been attacked by pests (in our case, lies)." Telling Children the Truth

Donald: You're most welcome, Sylvie, for my comment that I was touched to hear that you found it very thoughtful. I was also touched, and it means a lot to me that you think I am "one of the very few people that read my book that really understands and gets it!" I am still slowly reading and re-reading your book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions as different parts of it sink in more each time and I have found it most helpful and supportive to confront some of what has been going on in my life and how it links up with my childhood and stay present to the feelings that surface. It's so true what you wrote in your book, "As you allow the events in your life to unfold, all that's really required of you is that you observe the feelings that arise naturally to the surface. You don't have to force it -- they will come up on their own! Just be sure to brace yourself because you'll likely have to look back and face some painful truths and memories -- many of which may shock you" page 160. I have very much appreciated your emphasis on not forcing from my first reading of it and recognized that it was of great importance not to do so, a trap I am sure that I and many others have fallen into, which of course is a reenactment of how our parents and caregivers could not allow us to just be as we were and putting pressure on us to perform. I have no doubt from what you have been sharing that you have gathered a lot of material for another book, which I will look forward to reading. I whole-heartedly agree with you when you write, "Sadly our world is full of people living and spreading lies everywhere and the saddest part is that most people in our society believe these lies!", which is a disturbingly telling barometer of the degree of repression and denial of childhood trauma in our culture (as I am sure you well know), where the truth is so unwelcome and shunned like the plague, as it's so threatening, and the consequent lashing out, targeting and scapegoating of people who are honest and authentic and speak about the "forbidden knowledge" as Alice Miller called it, who unwittingly trigger the rage, hatred, and violence of formally abused, neglected and mistreated children who did not have the freedom to be themselves and had to falsely accommodate and conform in order to survive to such an extent that they are totally aggressor identified and are compelled to do so. Thank you for enclosing the Preface of the book Free from Lies by Alice Miller that is not available on her website, which I will make sure to share sections of on various Facebook pages with the link to your website, Sylvie Imelda Shene, FACING CHILDHOOD TRAUMAS.

"I sincerely believe that we not only have the right to know what is good and what is evil; we have the duty to acquire that knowledge if we hope to assume responsibility for our own lives and those of our children. Only by knowing the truth can we be set free. Only in this way can we free ourselves from the fears and anxieties we knew as children, blamed and punished for sins we did not know we had committed, the fateful fear of the sin of disobedience, that crippling anxiety that has wrecked so many people’s lives and keeps them in thrall to their own childhood.

Given the right help, we as adults can free ourselves from that terrible spell. We can procure vital information and realize that we are no longer forced to search for some profound logic in everything our educators and religious instruction teachers passed to us as the gospel truth – and which was nothing other than the product of their own anxieties. You will be amazed at the relief you will feel when you step out of that stifling role. Then, at last, you will claim your right to face reality head-on, to reject illogical justifications, and to remain true to your own history." -- Alice Miller

Above excerpt from The Truth Will Set You Free 
Prologue: Thou Shalt Not Know
by Alice Miller 

Sylvie: Dear Donald, I was so glad to read that my book is helpful to you and a support in your life. It makes it all worth it, even after being attacked by a mob of sociopaths at my job of nine and a half years. if it helps one person, all my hard work and sacrifices are worth it. The most disheartening aspect for me is that, in order to keep myself safe, I have to be cautious about who I share my knowledge with. I’m sure I’m having the same experiences Alice Miller had when she made these psychological discoveries and tried to share them with the world, and she, like me, was persecuted and ostracized. A lot of people would rather kill you than face their own painful truths, and to keep their illusions intact, which protects them from seeing and feeling. NOW, I’m sure she went through the same persecution I went through in my last job of nine and a half years of trying to share and educate the public about the dangers of childhood repression. I don’t think most people will ever know the intensity of having a mob of sociopaths stalking your soul all at once and plotting behind closed doors to murder your soul. Even Alice Miller's adult son, in order to keep his illusion of psychoanalysis intact, which protects him from having to feel the repressed emotions of the child he once was, is trying to discredit the pioneering work his mother did later in life. Now, I have no doubt her experiences with her adult son that burst her illusion with psychoanalysis and were the catalyst to her psychological discoveries and her books. 

The fact that so many people believe in lies is a barometer of the degree of repression and denial of childhood suffering. These words you wrote could not be truer: “which is a disturbingly telling barometer of the degree of repression and denial of childhood trauma in our culture (as I am sure you well know), where the truth is so unwelcome and shunned like the plague, as it's so threatening, and the consequent lashing out, targeting and scapegoating of people who are honest and authentic and speak about the "forbidden knowledge"

No, without the truth, we cannot heal and be set free. Thank you for sharing the excerpt from The Truth Will Set You Free.
Most people don’t want to be around awake people, period! Everyone loves me until they find out how much I understand the human mind --- the moment they find out that I can see behind the pretty masks people wear, then I become their target to destroy. Most rich people live in much fear, hiding behind their money and religion, and that’s why they hire other criminals to do their dirty work and to protect them. 

These words Alice Miller wrote to me come truer every day: “Thank you for your thoughtful letter I agree with you that there is a difference between the powerless, legitimate rage of a desperate child that reacts to the cruelty of their parents and the rage of the adult who is attacking others out of denial of their history by imitating the behavior of own parents from the position of "power" (even grandiosity). The first rage (of the child) should be felt and expressed in therapy; it can then be RESOLVED. The second one (of the adult), directed toward scapegoats, can NEVER be resolved (see dictators). If therapists see it as an end point of their therapies and don’t enable the patients to confront the early parents and the feelings of that time, they do much HARM to them. Staying trapped in the hatred toward scapegoats can't be the successful end of a therapy. I hope that you can continue your work if you have this difference in mind and can also explain it in your forum.”

Donald:  Dear Sylvie, Again, your book has been very helpful and a great support in my life, and I am sure also for other people as well. Of course, you need to be careful about who you share your knowledge with (and are naturally saddened about it), and no doubt Alice Miller had similar experiences of being persecuted and ostracized. Alice Miller warned her readers a number of times in her books and Readers' Mail of how hostile, vicious, and downright hateful people can become confronted with the truth of her discoveries about child abuse, neglect, and mistreatment. It hits a main cable that few people are willing or have the capacity to recognize and face up to, and so of course instead directing their hatred at the people who hurt them early in their lives (in the container of their self-therapy or with an enlightened witness, which are all too rare as you know), who are really responsible for it, they need scapegoats to project it onto as you so well know and wrote in your book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions, "People who idealize their childhoods, or otherwise ignore their pain, have limitless cravings for scapegoats on whom they can avenge themselves for the fears and anxieties of childhood," page 83. I completely agree with what you wrote above, "A lot of people would rather kill you than face their own painful truths and to keep their illusions intact that protects them from seeing and feeling." I know from my own life experience just how true that is. From what you have described what you have gone through from your last job of nine and a half years "for trying to share and educate the public about the dangers of childhood repression," I'm sure it's true what you wrote, " I don’t think most people will ever know the intensity of having a mob of sociopaths stalking your soul all at once and plotting behind closed doors to murder your soul." It sounds really horrible from everything you've described, and I'm sorry you've had to go through it. From what I have read regarding Martin Miller in a few abridged interviews, what stood out to me was how his mother's work saved his sanity and his life from the trauma he experienced at his father's and her hands, which I found to be a validation of her work. The truth of Alice Miller's discoveries and her body of work stand on their own, regardless of how anyone may try to discredit them. Again, I completely agree with you when you write, "Most people don’t want awake people around them, period!" It's simply just too threatening to their repression and denial of their childhood trauma. It makes them too uncomfortable, whether they are conscious of it or not, and should not be underestimated as to how far they could go to maintain their illusions. Like you wrote, "Everyone loves me until they find out how much I understand the human mind --- the moment they find out that I can see behind the pretty masks people wear, then I become their target to destroy." They want to smash the mirror rather than look at the truth being reflected back to them in it, again, as you so well know, the extent of, and found out the hard way, going through a living hell of being persecuted and ostracized.

"Readers frequently tell me of the hostility they encounter when they declare their allegiance to the cause of protecting children. Their attitude challenges a system that for most people represents a familiar, reassuring frame of reference. New information can be a source of uncertainty. In the face of uncertainty, the temptation is to resort to threatening behavior, similar to the intimidation parents use to bring their children up to be "good" and always do as they are told. This confronts enlightened witnesses with the same kind of painful rejection that children experience at the hands of their parents.

In some cases, the reaction is so extreme that it amounts to moral condemnation, if not downright ostracism. It bears similarities to the hatred that led to the systematic persecution of the early Christians. Though the effects of this hatred are by no means comparable (the early Christians were brutally tortured and slain), there are significant parallels between the fury aroused in both cases by people openly supporting the protection of children that was preached and practiced by Jesus himself ("Suffer the little children to come unto me," Mark 10:14)." -- Alice Miller

Above excerpt from BARRIERS IN THE MIND
Chapter 7 from The Truth Will Set You Free
by Alice Miller 

Sylvie: Dear Donald,  thank you AGAIN for your very thoughtful comment. I started responding to your last comment but got distracted by other things, and only just now came back to finish it. Yes, I have read many times Alice Miller's warnings in her books and in the readers’ mail about how hostile, vicious, and downright hateful people can become when confronted with the truth of her discoveries about child abuse, neglect, and mistreatment. These words she wrote in the letter titled " Homosexuals are not an Exception could not be truer: “…But be careful and don't give such information to anybody who does not ask you for it. They would kill you rather than accept the truth that they suffered abuse in childhood. You know how much time it takes to confront oneself with one's own childhood. So don't try to be a healer by telling people what they definitely don't want to know. You can only heal yourself, and this is much, very much.”
http://www.alice-miller.com/.../homosexuals-are-not-an.../

She also warned me directly in her reply to my first letter to her, Standing on My Feet. While working on my book with Ed, I mentioned a few times to him that some people at my workplace might turn against me. I was aware of the risks, so I could lose my job, but I never thought they would go to such extremes. Still, I’m glad I wrote my book, because I really got to see firsthand how most people are wolves in sheep’s clothing, acting as if personality, pretending to are good people, and I removed their pretty masks and veils. The worst of them have been those casting themselves as being experts on childhood trauma and healers, and I thought they were on Alice Miller's side, but they have been the fakest. I might publish some of the exchanged emails with these people anonymously, of course, so others can see and feel the toxicity of these individuals who present themselves as more knowledgeable experts and superior to others. Just like it says in the post you shared on Facing Childhood Traumas: 

Unfortunately, narcissists in positions of high visibility or power, particularly in the so-called helping professions (medicine, education, and the ministry), often do great harm to others.

"One important aspect of NPD that should be noted is that it does not prevent people from occupying, as well as aspiring to, positions of power, wealth, and prestige. Many people with NPD, as Kernberg's classification makes clear, are sufficiently talented to secure the credentials of success. In addition, narcissists' preoccupation with a well-packaged exterior means that they often develop an attractive and persuasive social manner. Many high-functioning narcissists are well-liked by casual acquaintances and business associates who never get close enough to notice the emptiness or anger underneath the polished surface.

Unfortunately, narcissists in positions of high visibility or power—particularly in the so-called helping professions (medicine, education, and the ministry)—often do great harm to others. In recent years, a number of books and articles have been published within the religious, medical, and business communities regarding the problems caused by professionals with NPD. One psychiatrist noted in a lecture on substance abuse among physicians that NPD is one of the three most common psychiatric diagnoses among physicians in court-mandated substance abuse programs. A psychologist who serves as a consultant in the evaluation of seminary students and ordained clergy has remarked that the proportion of narcissists in the clergy has risen dramatically since the 1960s. Researchers in the field of business organization and management styles have compiled data on the human and economic costs associated with executives who have undiagnosed NPD. Rebecca J. Frey, Ph.D., Encyclopedia of Mental Disorders"
Read more: http://www.minddisorders.com/Kau-Nu/Narcissistic-personality-disorder.html#ixzz3WAoi7wbB

Narcissists, sociopaths, and psychopaths in the health professions are the most confusing, deceiving, and cause great harm, because they talk a good game in public. Still, when they are alone with a person they fear that might expose the emptiness and insecurities, that’s when they become very vicious, and if they can, they will destroy you to protect their false self. I wonder if the truthful words written above are written by an authentic person or if they are written by a narcissist, sociopath, or psychopath. I will never know unless I have an interaction with him. 

I, too, have read Martin Miller’s words, in which he says his mother’s books saved him. I totally believe him that Alice Miller’s psychological discoveries saved him from losing his mind completely. However, I also see how he is still stuck in the hate of the child he once was towards his mother, and never truly liberated himself, and never found his own autonomy. I have had people writing to me in total confusion caused by Martin Miller’s writings -- he is creating a lot of confusion out there. On the one hand, he is talking a good talk. On the other hand, he is still stuck in the emotions of the child he once was, and this is causing a lot of confusion for people who are still looking for a way out of their own emotional prisons. As long as we remain in the state of dependence, we will remain stuck in anger -- just like Alice Miller wrote in the article ‘What is Hatred?““…a person we are at the mercy of and either cannot free ourselves of, or at least believe that we cannot. As long as we are in such a state of dependency, or think we are, then hatred is the inevitable outcome. It is hardly conceivable that a person being tortured will not feel hatred for the torturer. If we deny ourselves this feeling, we will suffer from physical symptoms.” http://www.alice-miller.com/en/what-is-hatred/ 

His mother is dead, but it seems he never found his own way, autonomy, and is still dependent on his mother. As long as we remain in the state of dependency, our anger will not resolve, but increase. Alice Miller wrote in one of her books that she learned a great deal from the intense discussions with her adult son, and I have no doubt that she gained valuable insights and was the catalyst for her liberation, as well as an inspiration for her books and numerous articles. You are completely right, the “truth of Alice Miller's discoveries and her body of work stands on its own regardless of how anyone may try to discredit it.”

Also, the words I wrote to Alice Miller, discussing BR and her response, came to mind: You know, when I read her book and articles, as well as the answers to your readers’ mail, which I enjoy, I could sense that she was still repressed and harboring illusions. What she was writing was not coming from her true feelings but from her head.

I call people like that parrots—they have great smarts, memories, and are very talented at writing and articulating, but they really don’t understand what they are saying. They are unable to acknowledge or express their repressed feelings, and they unconsciously project those feelings onto scapegoats.

AM: Thank you for your thoughtful letter. I agree with you that there is a difference between the powerless, legitimate rage of a desperate child that reacts to the cruelty of their parents and the rage of the adult who is attacking others out of denial of their history by imitating the behavior of their own parents from the position of “power” (even grandiosity). The first rage (of the child) should be felt and expressed in therapy; it can then be RESOLVED. The second one (of the adult), directed toward scapegoats, can NEVER be resolved (see dictators). If therapists see it as an endpoint of their therapies and don’t enable the patients to confront the early parents and the feelings of that time, they do much HARM to them. Staying trapped in the hatred toward scapegoats can’t be the successful end of a therapy. I hope that you can continue your work if you have this difference in mind, and can also explain it in your forum.

Donald: Dear Sylvie, Once again, you are most welcome for my comment, and I am touched that you found it thoughtful. Coming from you, that is a real compliment. Thank you for elaborating on your response to my last comment. Of course, knowing Alice Miller's body of work so well and having dedicated your life to spreading her message, you have "read many times Alice Miller’s warnings in her books and in the readers’ mail about how hostile, vicious and downright hateful people can become when confronted with the truth of her discoveries about child abuse, neglect, and mistreatment." You really found the perfect passage that really states the extent to which she warns people to be careful, and I wholeheartedly agree with you that her words could not be truer, "…But be careful and don't give such information to anybody who does not ask you for it. They would kill you rather than accept the truth that they suffered abuse in childhood. You know how much time it takes to confront oneself with one's own childhood. So don't try to be a healer by telling people what they definitely don't want to know. You can only heal yourself, and this is much, very much.” http://www.alice-miller.com/en/homosexuals-are-not-an-exception/

Most understandably, you had no idea of the extremes that people at your work could turn against you, even though you were well aware of the risks until it actually happened. Then the full extent came through with devastating clarity. It is a most valuable and most painful lesson to really get " to see firsthand how most people are wolves in sheep’s clothing, acting as if personality pretending to be good people, and I removed their pretty masks and veils." Hard-earned wisdom not to be regretted, and why would you give that you have had the emotional openness to see it for what it is and learn from it as a result of all the work you have done on yourself with Alice Miller as your enlightened witness. You wrote that "The worst of them have been those casting themselves as being experts on childhood trauma and healers, and I thought they were on Alice Miller's side, but have been the fakest." A response from Alice Miller that you included in your book on page 191 once again says it all, "I can only urge you to trust your feelings and to NOT offer your empathy and interest to everybody just because they say they read and understood everything I have written. In most cases, it is a lie. To understand my books means to overcome the fear of one's parents, to honestly feel the justified rage TOWARD THEM, and to no longer use others to get free from the accumulated rage."

You wrote that you have had people writing to you "in total confusion caused by Martin Miller's writings." As I have not read what they have written to you, I don't know what their confusion is about. For myself regardless of what I have read in a couple of abridged interviews with Martin Miller about how he suffered at the hands of his mother in her re-enactments with him and her husband, this does change for me the truth and validity of her body of work (and all it has meant and done for me), which once again stands on its own, regardless of what was going on in her personal life that was not resolved from her childhood, at that time, and consequently re-enacted as described. I do not know how you have responded to these people; however, you have been very clear and straightforward in everything you have said. Thank you for what you added, which I well remember from reading in your book.
http://www.alice-miller.com/en/homosexuals-are-not-an-exception/

Randell:  And MUCH better pay, too!

Sylvie:  Yes, it’s better pay! But it's a lot of hard work!!! Working in gated communities, it’s kind of fun if the security business didn’t attract so many malignant narcissists!!! You get to meet some really cool people! But I’m so tired of working with malignant narcissists…

M: is very similar to where I worked. A lot of interesting people from all over the world, but it is full of sociopaths!

B:  ALL WILL BE FINE!

Sylvie: Yes, B. In the end, we'll all be FINE! As long as we don't react negatively to the sociopaths' lies and mind games!
Remember! Rise above the sociopaths' bullshit, because reacting to their lies and bullshit is what they want and it's what gives them power.

If you'd like to read more about my experience with a mob of sociopaths, also read my blog post, Experienced Knowledge.