Most people are too emotionally blind to recognize true talent and authenticity.
Also, the sociopaths, malignant narcissists, assholes, or whatever you like to call these evil people in power positions feel too threatened by real talent and authenticity and will gather all the forces at their command to try to destroy you and get rid of anyone they feel threatened by...
After I walk away from toxic environments run by corrupted people it's really interesting to see them from a distance self-destructing just like the sociopaths that targeted me at my job of nine and half years in 2015 did after I published my book sharing my life experiences and psychological discoveries. When these malignant people are not able to manipulate their targets to self-destruct, they end up sooner or later in one form or another to self-destruct themselves.
Recently, I found out a woman that joined in on the plot in 2015 to destroy me died of cancer and her two sons also died one in a tragic car accident and the other from Covid... just like I wrote to one of my friends in the community.
Hi C, I hope you are having a nice summer. I don't know if you knew H M from unit xx. An English woman, she played a big part in the psychological warfare against me. Small world a friend of hers bought a house recently in EX and told me she died 2 years ago and also her son died too. She was not that old and was very healthy when she was plotting against me with the property manager so I was shocked to hear she died! Pretty much most people that plotted against me have moved away or died! It's nice to get evidence that these sociopaths don't go Scott-free after all!
Yes, I knew she died. Yes, her son dies not long after she did. Her husband still lives in the house. I never cared for her or felt comfortable around her.
I think what happened in S will live with me for the rest of my life. When you are the target of a mob of bad players orchestrating a psychological warfare to destroy you -- it changes you! And you will never look at another human being in the same way. I lost hope for humanity. My last image of her always will be vivid in my mind. when she came to the gate and I tried to show her the messy package procedure they created didn't work -- when residents signed the forms -- it didn't identify what package was being signed for! And that I was feeling they were setting me up for failure and she tapped her hand on the forms saying: it works just fine and left the gate and I said to myself: No it doesn't. And then I created a package procedure that made sense using the last four numbers of the package tracking number so at least it identified the package being signed for.
I was curious how Mrs. M died and looked for her Obituary I didn't find hers but found her son's SM's obituary and also learned her other son also died of Covid. So tragic. I think after I published my book "Reenactment: A Dance with Lucifer" I will be able to put what happened at S behind me. I'm pretty sure if instead of plotting for my demise, she had used my book to help her take responsibility for her own
childhood repression could have saved herself and these tragedies could have been avoided.
It's kind of sad that I just went through another psychological warfare at my last job of almost 8 years. At S was the property manager that started the psychological warfare and at the last job was the manager of the Security company that employed me. I have no doubt Mr. RM, my last manager, just sealed his own demise by starting a psychological warfare against me and recruiting my coworkers and others to do his dirty work.
I am no longer blinded by the repressed emotions of the child I once was and I can see very clearly who is the director pulling the puppets' strings. I'm sure my recent manager/sociopath visit my blog to get insight into how best to play with my mind and he must have learned that at S in 2015 was the property manager that started the psychological warfare against me so he tried to plant the seed in my mind with a lie by saying the present property manager told him some of my coworkers were quitting because of me -- because I'm hard to work with -- what a big lie -- he wanted me
to think I was being targeted by the present property manager again. He thought
he could fool me! He was very careful not to leave fingerprints of his crime against
me. Professional criminals never leave
fingerprints. But I can see clearly and I know who the director is and how he was manipulating others to act exactly the part he wants others to
act in his twisted dramas.
I get along
with coworkers just fine. I only have issues with people trying to gaslighting me
and playing mind games with me and trying to change my reality.
"Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation in which the abuser attempts to sow self-doubt and confusion in their victim’s mind. Typically, gaslighters are seeking to gain power and control over the other person, by distorting reality and forcing them to question their own judgment and intuition."
I knew he was lying for sure because the present property manager was very sweet and we got along great! Some of my coworkers, just like me, quit because of his bad management or lack thereof! I should add also that my boss recruited RK, my coworker, to tell me that the E.X. HOA president had told her I was a little paranoid. I knew she was doing what my boss told her to do -- to try to get a reaction out of me but I just ignored her.
They are many levels or degrees of narcissists/sociopaths and the ones that start the psychological warfare are usually at a high level of sociopathy. In 2015 it was the property manager that was the most dangerous one, and now in 2022, it's the manager of the security company that employed me that is the most dangerous sociopath.
My manager in 2015 would never have targeted me by himself, he was recruited by the property manager to do her dirty work and he was just collateral damage.
Guilt installed in his childhood by the Mormon church it's what really made him lose his mind, become a bank robber, and came to his demise in a gas station in Mesa, Arizona.
He had the perfect cover, he would rob banks and go take cover at Securitas, the Security company! Perfect cover!
But on March 11, 2016, on my birthday, he chose the wrong day to rob banks, because he never made it to his cover at Securitas' office. He lost his
mind because he allowed himself to be the Property manager's puppet to hurt me
and the guilt consumed him -- he felt that had committed a sin -- and he thought was going to go to hell after he died so he wanted
to live his best life while on Earth and for that he thought he needed lots
of money and the fastest way to get it was to rob banks but his plan didn’t go as
planned… robbing banks
on my birthday was bad luck!
"There's a reason narcissistic and psychopathic individuals withhold support, validation, healthy praise, and credit from those they feel threatened by but "gush" over people they perceive won't threaten their ego and will make obedient members of their harem. Make sure you validate and reparent yourself so you stay away from these types of harmful types of people and are repelled by their lack of authenticity. You never have to seek the approval of toxic people, especially those doing less than you." Shahida Arabi, MA. @selfcarewarrior
Thank goodness NOW I have two healthy legs to stand alone on my own two feet.
And this is why I survived not one but 2 psychological warfares one in 2015 and another in 2022.
"The ideal outcome for the abuser is to succeed in making the other “evil,” which transforms the evil into something more normal because it is now shared. He wants to inject the other with what is bad in him. TO CORRUPT IS THE ULTIMATE GOAL"
They hate real authentic people and they want to corrupt us so we become corrupted and soulless like them.
"There are people who sit on the sidelines and watch someone else being whipped. They could step in and demand that it stops. They have the power to do so. What do they do? Nothing. The narcissist depends on these weak-willed people. Abusing people isn't so much fun if it's only a party of two.Not taking a stand to stop someone from being hurt and bullied doesn't absolve you of guilt. On the contrary, you become an active participant, whether you consider yourself one or not. Enablers are guided by self-interest. They choose not to help the victim. This is why enablers are not innocent. They have made a choice to support abuse."
This is totally what the property manager in 2015 and my manager in 2022 and their enablers did: "So, the narcissist works to get others to turn on the target. The collective betrayal, which comes from the camp of these enablers, is even more devastating than the primary source of abuse. (Yes, the collective betrayal was more devastating than the original from the property manager in 2015 and now the present manager's enablers, because I always knew she and he would stab me in back at their first opportunity!)
Targets, especially if this happens at work, or in a social setting, watch as, one by one, the people they thought were their friends, slink away as the battle intensifies. (Totally, only very few stayed friends with me and stood by me) Not taking a stand to stop someone from being hurt doesn't absolve you of guilt. On the contrary, you become an active participant, whether you consider yourself one or not.
Some enablers even take it a step beyond and switch from idling in neutral to all-out support of the morally disordered person. They may even turn into "flying monkeys" who carry out small attacks, in order to stay on the bully's good side. (Totally! was one after the other, when I thought I had one battle own, another would start the harassment) ...The abuser relies upon them not to back up the target. Before any attacks begin, a morally disordered person will carefully plan the battle. This can take months, or even longer before direct hits are launched. (Yes, the property manager in 2015 and my manager in 2022 very carefully planned the battle and were very sneaky. Professional criminals make sure they don't leave fingerprints. They know exactly what they are doing! )
Only if it's clear that there's an excellent chance of decimating a target, does the warfare begin. If there's a solid support system, the abuser won't make a move. (Totally, the property manager in 2015 and my manager in 2022 never had made their move before because they knew the whole community liked me, but the moment they found out that some became uncomfortable with my book, they made their move and knew they could get enough enablers to help them.)
This means the enablers are the variable, which can either make or break a plan, and the narcissist knows this. That's why so much effort is put into creating chaos and confusion. This makes it easier for the enablers to rationalize their position. They may even begin to believe the target is getting the treatment she deserves, and that she did something to warrant the narcissist's extreme reaction."
Just a friendly reminder that abusers don't abuse/target everyone they come in contact with, so placing doubt on the people being targeted by the abuser based on your experience with that person is irresponsible and unkind.
A violinist played for 45 minutes in the New York subway. A handful of people stopped, a couple clapped, and the violinist raised about $30 in tips.
No one knew this, but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the best musicians in the world. In that subway, Joshua played one of the most intricate pieces ever written with a violin worth 3.5 million dollars.
Two days before he played in the subway, Joshua Bell sold out a Boston theatre, and the seats averaged about $100.
The experiment proved that the extraordinary in an ordinary environment does not shine and is so often overlooked and undervalued.
There are brilliantly talented people everywhere who aren’t receiving the recognition and reward they deserve. But once they arm themselves with value and confidence and remove themselves from an environment that isn’t serving them, they thrive and grow.
Your gut is telling you something. Listen to it if it’s telling you where you are isn’t enough!
Go where you are appreciated and valued.
Know Your Worth.
