People are Driven by the Repressed Emotions

People are driven by the repressed emotions of the child they once were to sooner or later, in one form or another, to unconsciously and compulsively reenact their painful childhood dramas, and this is why they are not able to live the teaching of any religion and end up being a bunch of hypocrites... if children are born into love and experience love as little children, they will grow up into compassionate loving adults. Love cannot be taught and this is why all religions are fraud. Anyone preaching and teaching love are nothing but con artists and charlatans cashing in on people's emotional blindness.

Those of us that had the courage to face and feel the painful truth that we were born into families incapable of loving us, and learned to love ourselves instead by walking away from everyone that believes and telling us lies --poison us with lies -- to confuse us -- then we can become authentic loving adults incapable of hurting ourselves and any other living being.

"Genuine feelings cannot be produced, nor can they be eradicated. We can only repress them, delude ourselves, and deceive our bodies. The body sticks to the facts and never lies. ...If the repression stays unresolved, the parents’ childhood tragedy is unconsciously continued on in their children” - Alice Miller

“Several mechanisms can be recognized in the defense against early feelings of abandonment. In addition to simple denial, we usually find the exhausting struggle to fulfill the old, repressed, and by now often perverted needs with the help of symbols (cults, sexual perversions, groups of all kinds, alcohol, or drugs). Intellectualization is very commonly encountered as well, since it is a defense mechanism of great power.” Alice Miller (The Drama of the Gifted Child: The search for the True Self) Page 11

Wild Times

 Dear Sylvie,

Well, I am still hanging in there... distracted by daily obligations, i
load onto my shoulders.

I am wondering how you are doing in this world, were the consequences of
the unseen truth hits our lives in so massive ways.

Any system, medical or social, or political is only as good, helpful
and human, as the people running this system. and we know, how emotional
rotten most of us are.

Corona didn't bother my life much, as I had to go to work as usual, and
stress there is the same as ever.

And as sad as it sounds, it is the same with my personal life. I struggle
with the same issues all the time.

How did corona impact your life, income, job, etc? are you ok so far?

and then the explosive political situation in the USA?

Hopefully, you are doing as well as possible. I am glad to be sure, that
you are really able to take care of yourself. although it is sad, to
have to live under so worrying conditions...

I know, that I am one of your readers, who "understood" AM
intellectually, unable to really incorporate the truth (so far)

today on Sunday I am in a mood of having some quiet time, still sitting
in my bed, although it is afternoon ;)

I came across the documentary about the guy  and the film "into the wild"

I don't know, if you know this story about Chris Mac Candless, who did a
big trip throughout America after high school, heading for Alaska,
finally reached the wilderness and in the end, cruelly starving there. I
saw this film at the cinema years ago.

I have this urge to be alone in nature very much, too, and I wished so
much to spend time for my own in a lonesome hut in Sweden or any quiet
natural place, at least for some month. but I never made this "dream"
coming true. I didn't know anything about this guy before and the film
traumatized me in a way when I came across his desperate life-ending. I
felt so lost about this...

so, as I wrote above, on youtube the documentary popped up, and in the
comments there was this link to the sister of this guy, who - at least
tries to look at the truth. that her brother had his reasons to run away
from home and bring himself in  life-threatening situations... their
father head beat them up very hard and the children live in constant
fear and there was no protection by their mother, everything under the
coat of a Christian family.

well, finally, I guess the sister is still somehow believing in god, and
is maybe glorifying her brother to a certain amount? (i am not the one
to judge her, just wondering) but anyway I found it amazing, that she
dared to raise up the fact, that there was very much cruelty and lies
about the family, the children were told...

wondering if you want to take a glimpse, in fact, this fits your life...

http://www.carinemccandless.com/video/

I am wondering. how many nature seekers try to run away from a
destructive emotional condition in childhood...

well, Sylvie, this is my mail for today. not so uplifting. but at least
connecting...

I send you best wishes from a very rainy day in Bavaria.

We hadn't had a real summer yet. some sunny days with an ice-cold wind, but
anyway too less rain. drought longs for some years now, compared to the
long-term amount of rainfall/ snow over the last decades. well, of course,
no comparison with the conditions you have in Arizona. but for our
temperate zone, it is unnormal.  so rain is good for nature. but we
humans aren't, causing too much mess all around. there might be a next
ice age to clear this place...

take care as well as you can.

greetings from

J

Hi J,

Thank you for writing. 

I agree with everything you wrote! You are so right any system is as good as the people running them. Everyone has been a small child and we all have been repressed as a child to a degree and this is why we can't trust the system or anyone! We are alone in this world like it or not!

Thank you so much for the pictures I really enjoyed seeing them, especially the kittie! 

Sorry, I haven't written in a long time, but I just don't feel like writing much these days. 

Yes, the world around me seems to be going crazier and crazier, but thank goodness in my little corner I'm doing well. 

Corona didn't bother my life so far, knock on wood! I too worked as usual! My finances are finally in the green almost all recovered from the blowback of the sociopaths at my job of nine and a half years. 

Hopefully, in a few years, I will be ready financially to produce my next book Reenactment.

I hope you are safe and taking good care of yourself.

Greetings from the desert in Arizona,

Sylvie

Afghanistan

America went to Afghanistan selling the illusion of freedom but after 20 years when maintaining the illusion of freedom got too costly --- America decided to cut the losses – and abandoned Afghanistan.

America went to Afghanistan to remove the ruthless regime of the Taliban and now the Taliban has grown into a bigger monster and will be a more ruthless regime.

So what Americans accomplished in 20 years was to replace the Taliban regime with a more ruthless Taliban regime and now the whole world will be less safe and worse off.

I’m very sad for all the innocent beings living there that will have to pay the high price for American’s illusion of freedom.

When we mistake an illusion for the real thing when it bursts can destroy us. 

If had mistaken the illusion of love given to me at my job of nine and half years for real love I would not have survived when their illusion of love ended overnight after I published my book A Dance to Freedom sharing my life experiences and psychological discoveries. 

The whole country of Afghanistan is going through a similar experience I went through at my job of nine and a half years! 

The people in Afghanistan that didn’t buy into the illusion of freedom might survive, but those that bought into the illusion of freedom sold by the Americans might not survive now.

Just like I wrote in my book on page 123 “I believe that most illusions are dangerous and will destroy us eventually. We can have fun with some illusions for a while if we recognize them for what they are, but we get deeply hurt when we mistake an illusion for the real thing.”