Wednesday, January 30, 2019

'Secrets will eat you up' – inside the shocking Michael Jackson documentary

Comments on Facebook from sharing the article 'Secrets will eat you up' – inside the shocking Michael Jackson documentary

Sylvie: Michael Jackson was a very disturbed man acting out his childhood drama until the very end of his life. One more proof that talent, fame, and money alone will not liberate anyone from the emotional prison of childhood

ES: Sylvie: pedophilia is to do with brain lesions.

Sylvie: Brain damage/lesions are caused by childhood abuse. He is acting out unconsciously and compulsively the abuse he suffered in childhood.

This quote by Alice Miller comes to mind: "It is a great mistake to imagine that one can resolve traumas in a symbolic fashion. If that were possible, poets, painters, and other artists would be able to resolve their pain through creativity. This is not the case, however. Creativity helps us channel the pain of trauma into symbolic acts; it doesn't help us resolve it. If symbolic revenge for maltreatment received in childhood were effective, then dictators would eventually stop humiliating and torturing their fellow human beings. As long as they choose to deceive themselves about who really deserves their hatred, however, and as long as they go on feeding that hatred in symbolic form instead of experiencing and resolving it within the context of their own childhood, their hunger for revenge will remain insatiable (see Miller 1990a).” 

MG: He was conscious about his stolen childhood. He said it several times himself. Most humanity is. What makes the difference is if we are conscious and consequently how we deal and compensate with the void it creates inside us. No one recovers totally from trauma but we can develop coping mechanisms aware not to hurt others who have nothing to do with it. He explained in one of the several interviews why he created Neverland and it has nothing to do with sex. I do not believe that every traumatised person in entertainment job should be suspected of abuse or prostitution as some may be accused of in show business. I recently listened to an interview by a mature Culkin when he testified for sexual abuse in defence to Michael. There were video clips of him playing at the ranch and he looked so happy. Children being sexually abused cannot pretend to be joyous. America is a terribly dangerous world if you have too much money. They will kill you and kill your memory. Here is the interview if you are interested in further analysis.

Sylvie: Macaulay's interview doesn't prove Michael Jackson didn't have a sexual perversion and didn't molest children. Every child molester proclaims to love children. Macaulay maybe has not dealt with his trauma and is still repressing it and might still feel guilt and shame about it and keeping it as a secret. I know I blamed myself and I kept it as a secret for over two decades the sexual abuse I suffered at the hands of the prestigious Portuguese doctor, Julio Machado Vaz.

All child molesters proclaim to love children. Being intellectually aware of his stolen childhood doesn't mean he was able to stop his compulsion to molest children. The only way to break free from the chains of repetition compulsion is to mourn the loss of childhood and consciously feel the repressed emotions within the context of our childhood. As long people go on repressing their emotions they will be driven by them sooner or later in one form or another to repeat the traumas they once suffered. Hilter too admitted of being beaten by his father.

"Out of the Prison of Confusion
“Even Adolf Hitler never denied that he had been beaten. What he denied was that these beatings were painful. And by totally falsifying his feelings, he would become a mass murderer. That would never have occurred had he been capable of feeling, and weeping about, his situation and had he not repressed his justifiable hatred of those responsible for his distress but consciously experienced and comprehended it. Instead, he perverted this hatred into ideology. The same hold for Stalin, Ceausescu, and all the other beaten and humiliated children who later turn into tyrants and criminals.

The return of the truth only begins to announce itself in the moment that we turn the tables and the word “spanked” condemns itself as heartless testimony to the disrespect and humiliation inflicted on the child. Only once we have become capable of empathizing with the feelings of the abused child we once were, and rejection the mockery and cynicism of our adult selves, do we begin to open the gates to the truth. Only then can we also stop being a danger to others.” From the book “Breaking Down the Wall of Silence” Alice Miller page 15, 16

MG: Sylvie Imelda Shene. In response to your comment that "Every child molester proclaims to love children " , May I also say that ' not every man that claims to love children is a suspected molester?' First of all there is no record of MJ being sexually abused to have the repetition compulsion to sexually abuse. MJ grew up in big family with several siblings which makes a difference than an only star child. All of them were in the same boat because of their popularity. On his love for children, why is the media not giving much importance to the contributions in millions of dollars he made to the deprived and unfortunate children? I recall the We are the World Project and his video with children in Brazil. Another unforgetable event several years ago and long before the sexual invented scandal was his concert in Rome. I recall the huge cubital newspaper headlines demonizing his image as the negro who was bleaching his skin to be white, It was so bad, it shocked to date. What had it to do with his art? Despite all, the stadium was all sold out and the concert was a real success.. Many learned later he had vitiligine My children who were around 9-10 were shocked too, they were ashamed 'like MJ, to be of colour (I had to work on them for sometime to neutralize the trauma). It was the music industry here protecting their competition interests, I was disgusted. how they didn't give a f**** about the impact on children. I already had read Alice Miller some 5-6 years earlier. I recall how they were ashamed to be associated with him particularly because they are of colour too. It was the first time I woke up to what the establishment media is (the Guardian is one of them too). I have witnessed the constant character assassination MJ was subjected to for his entire career until his death. Macaulin seems to have captured the essense of his personality well. I conclude by saying that when we suffer certain phases in our lives, one of the frequent reactions is also embrasing a cause to what we missed out on. Like traumatised parents, some repeat the trauma, some become over protective. What makes the difference is gaining insight and being conscious. All the historical personalities you have cited were mass murderers too, and I am not saying the sexual abuse is any less violent. I do not think any of them cared about improving the lives of the poor, any promises was a tactic to control them.

Sylvie: Of course, every person that proclaims to love children is not a child molester, but I have not seen a molester that didn’t proclaim to love children.

I’m not saying MJ was a child molester, I don’t know! I would have to study his case much closer, but some signs are there and we need to listen to the voices that are coming out and believe them. 

There is no doubt MJ had a lot of issues and he died prematurely because of it. 

I like MJ and always felt sorry for him, because everyone around him was just exploiting him, and the parents were the ones that exploited him the most when he was a defenseless little child, for his talents and no one ever offered him real help. -- It was a tragic life -- We live in a society that just admires a person’s talents and don’t care about the person’s suffering. They just want to be entertained and distracted from their own painful truths. 

It has been proved that spanking a child in the private area is sexual abuse and can cause sexual deviance on his adult life

It’s a well-known fact MJ was spanked as a child. As the cult of Jehovah's Witnesses, he was raised in, it teaches to spank children to make them obedient. 

A few years ago I saw his mother on a TV show, while I was cat sitting at the community where I worked for nine and a half years, MJ’s mother ignorance was so sickening, saying that nowadays, children don’t get enough spanking and that is why the world is in such a mess and that the end of the world is near, because children don’t get enough spanking and discipline! It brought to mind the quote below by Alice Miller because it could not be truer!
“Emotional blindness can be well studied by examining the careers of sect members, Jehovah’s Witness, for example, are in favor of corporal punishment and constantly warn that the end of the world is near. They are not aware that they bear within themselves the abused children they once were, and that they already experienced the end of the world when they loving parents beat them. What could be worse than that? But the Jehovah’s Witnesses learned very early not recall their pain and to tell their children that hitting doesn’t hurt. The reality of the end of the world is constantly on their minds, but they do not know why.”Alice Miller, taken from the book “The Truth Will Set you free” page, 141

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Wednesday, January 23, 2019

Who comes first the egg or the chicken?

Yes, if I had acted like this when I was the target of a mob of sociopaths at my job of nine and a half years - I would have been put in handcuffs and taken to jail. 

The other day someone found my blog with the keyword "tackleberry bandit az", so out of curiosity I googled the keyword and I found the FBI's wanted poster of my ex-boss, a middle-aged white man and an ex-sheriff! They treated me like a criminal and they accused me of making threats, but look who was the criminal and going around making threats to kill people if they didn't comply with his commands! 

If it was me, the little woman to commit a crime my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all probably go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was making a name for themselves by standing on my head. I could see their dirty games and traps so clearly. But now everyone is silent and no one cares that these criminals with their projections and lies -- I lost my job and more than half of my income -- AND they could have destroyed my life completely. 

There is no humanity! Most people are all fake and pretenders -- acting as if personality pretending to be good people -- but are wolves in sheep's clothing. I'm done with humanity! 

FB: I wonder which of his significant other taught him that?

Sylvie Imelda Shene Who comes first the egg or the chicken? In most cases, either man or women learned these abusive behaviors from their own mothers, but as adults men or women are responsible for their own repression and I don’t want to be targeted more by these very repressed people, just because I’m a woman! I don’t want to pay the price for the wrongs their own mothers did to them when they were defenseless little children. It's not my fault! 

Just like Alice Miller wrote: "Are women Less Aggressive than Men?
In my view, women are by no means less aggressive than men. Of course, they are victimized and disadvantaged by men avenging themselves for the beating they received from their mothers. But women avenge themselves for such victimization and physical cruelty by taking it out on their little children, thus breeding new generations of avengers who consciously love and honor their parents.

I see no real difference between the cruelty of women and that of men, because both sexes have learned such sadism at the hands of their parents and caregivers at the time when their brains were still in the process of formation. As children, they were subjected to cruelty and even perversion, but they not allowed to defend themselves. So later take out their repressed anger on other defenseless people, frequently in the same way their parents treated them when they were small. Women frequently vent this acquired sadism on their children. While men also give free rein to it by victimizing employees at work or lower military ranks, or else participating in orgies of violence like genocide or terrorist attacks. The causes invariable lie in the repressed and totally denied suffering of their childhood (though most of them will insist that they had wonderful parents). People who were not humiliated, tormented, or beaten in their early years are incapable of sadism.

Women can live out all kinds of covert perversion on their children and torment them impunity as long as they call this behavior “good parenting.” Society idealizes mothers because people have never consciously realized that their own mothers treated them cruelly when they were small. Accordingly, women normally enjoy total immunity.

I see no sex-specific differences in the suicide bombers. I understand terrorism as an attempt to compensate for the humiliations these people were subjected to, but have never consciously perceived as such, by means of a “magnificent deed” (such as sacrificing their own lives for the sake of a group).

Though it is not difficult to understand this dynamic, there are not many people who would allow themselves to give up their denial and look the truth in the face. The fear felt by the tormented children they once were can prevent this all their lives."
From the book “Free from Lies: Discovering your true needs” By Alice Miller Page 140

Women everywhere have been paying the price for the mother's sins since the beginning of time... I have been the target, many times, of society's repressed anger and if I didn't see these psychological mechanisms clear I probably would not be here right now...

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

The Power of Willful Ignorance Cannot be Overstated

No, you can't overstate the power of willful ignorance. And how those in power, especially in the media block the information that would inform the masses of these manipulation techniques.

People that try to throw sand in my eyes love to use the word innovation. And I have come to hate this pretty word people love to use because I know this systematic abuse is what is trying to hide. 

We live in a world of puppets and puppeteers and this is why the puppeteers hate me because I shine the light on them.

Wednesday, January 9, 2019

We don't need more advances in technology

We don't need more advances in technology! But we are in dire need to heal the human mind and reading my book together with Alice Miller"s books is a good start, otherwise, with the aid of technology, we are going to destroy ourselves much faster! Technology alone without healing the human mind will only change the world for the worst, not for the better!

I See Robots or Machines in Human Form Walking Around Everywhere

Most people are afraid to live and afraid to die. When we lose the fear of living we also lose the fear of dying!  “Sometimes we stay busy not to feel. We buy things, consume or get drunk without necessity. When life frightens us we try to dominate it and control it. It is risky to get carried away by emotions, and as a society admire imperturbable individual icons. We see in the movies heroes impassive acting unencumbered. Do and achieve. They strive to have successfully controlled, like machines, not act as what we are: human beings. They belong to the generation of action whose maximum is doing more and feel less.”   

This is why tragic stories like the one in the link below are allowed to happen in our society. Living in a world run by robots/machines or very repressed people incapable of genuine feelings is very dangerous.  

Woman in vegetative state gives birth at Hacienda Healthcare in Phoenix

Like I wrote in an e-mail to my friends:

You can't trust caregivers. You have to be on top of them. 

When I went to the hospital checking on Dr. B. the nurses didn't give a shit. 

People in the helping professions are the most repressed people I know passing their psychological virus under the disguise of help and make vulnerable people already suffering from their own repression feel also what the caregivers or health  care "professionals" can't feel, it's double dose for the patients, they also feel the repression of the caregivers. 

Did you hear about the woman in the vegetative state being raped and given birth? How could this happen in health care facility?! Unless the professionals working there are dangerously completely repressed? 

In an enlightened society, this woman would be assisted in dying and not forced live in a vegetative state like this. 

This is not living! But in a repressed society like ours, people want others to suffer and have the same fate as them.

We live in a very sad world.

Wishing you strength and courage,


PS: You know while talking with one of the nurses of dr. B. I was telling her that are sociopaths among us everywhere and we have to be on constant alert. And she told me: maybe I'm a sociopath too! and I told her: well if you are! you don't have power over me so you can't hurt me. I will do my best to never put my life in the hands of health care professionals. 

Hi C,

I got your facebook message with the link to the story about the woman in a coma in a health care facility in Phoenix. In 1985 before I started dancing I worked in a health care facility really close to this one, if not this one! 

So glad I don't work in the health care business anymore! It's the worst here in America. I saw horrible things! Working in gated communities has its hazards, but I like it so much better! I don't see the extreme of human sickness that I see in the health care business, it is still kind of hidden. 

At the end of life, repression comes to the surface like a volcano. The repression people spent all their lives doing everything to keep at bay and distract themselves from it. 

If people's repression has not been resolved, old age and near death is the ultimate trigger, like a volcano, to bring to the surface all the excruciation repressed feelings and no any amount of money can save them, no more chances of running or escaping! When I used to work in health care and I taking care of rich people full of rage and miserable --- I used to say to myself: money can't save you now! Or help you run! 


Tuesday, January 8, 2019

New York Post : Spiritual 'healer' featured on Oprah accused of sexual abuse.

Anyone wants more proof that Oprah is a charlatan promoting charlatans?! 
"US TV host Oprah Winfrey traveled to Brazil in 2013 to meet him, and witnessed him performing so-called "psychic surgery" at his clinic."  Read the full article HERE

One of the residents in the community where I worked for nine and a half years, in 2013, she had foot surgery and after work around 3pm, I stopped at her house to help her. She was watching the Oprah show promoting John of God and she too traveled to Brazil to see him. Seeing this resident fall for this crap. I just wanted to throw up...  

Charlatans are so Annoying, they keep themselves and everyone else in an endless vicious circle. 

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

The Internet Allows Everybody to Show Themselves -- Their Emotional Insights as Well as their Emotional Blindness

Commenting and reading comments on the Internet always gives me the pulse to how dark people are around the world. As you can see in the comments in the article in the link below:

 Most Portuguese people, they go to church and they pray, but then, they have no problems abusing their children at home and other defenseless beings.

Reading comments in Portuguese articles always gives me a pulse to the darkness Portugal still lives i
n. Of course, the Internet allows everybody to show themselves, their emotional insights as well as their emotional blindness. “The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated.” ― Mahatma Gandhi 

To all that ask me to write in Portuguese. I write more for my English speaking friends that are not afraid to open their eyes to see and feel. I have given up on most Portuguese people that are too scared to open their eyes to see and attack anyone that shines the light on them. 

To anyone thinking about visiting Portugal: stay out of this dark place still living in the dark ages, because a country living in the light would never tolerate the torturing of defenseless beings, animal or human. And would never support or defend a person that made a living torturing an animal.

Just by reading comments here it proves women are not less abusive than men!