Making the BB video was a little difficult for me because I would keep mispronouncing my words and I would have to start over. It was very tiring to shoot the video. I’m extremely dyslexic and it doesn’t only affect my writing. It also affects my speech. Sometimes I think about getting a teleprompter to help me with the making of videos. But to tell you the truth I think humanity has passed the point of no return and I have given up on humanity. I don't think it matters what anyone does -- it will not make much difference in our world.
These words by Leo Tolstoy could not be truer: “Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.” This is the problem with our society. No one wants to look in the mirror and face themselves.
I would like to reach people that are in the same place I once was -- searching for the truth -- that can set us free - waiting to hear the naked truth from someone else -- and validate their perceptions that they are not crazy! No one should have to wait as long as I did to hear the naked truth from someone else.
Alice Miller was such a witness for me and now I have written a book sharing my journey of how I liberated myself with Alice Miller books as my enlightened witness and if people want to find the truth that can set us free, they need to dig hard for it as I did -- because the liars of this world will work very hard day and night to block the truth and keep in the dark the real state of affairs.
I'm glad Big Brother didn't call me because I didn't really want to be locked up in a house full of repressed people telling their true stories with their unconscious and compulsive reenactments. To tell you the truth NOW I'm at the point in my life that I just want to be left alone to enjoy my freedom. It has been a long journey!
Yes, most therapists keep themselves and others stuck in an emotional prison -- the therapist playing the role of the parent and their patients endlessly stuck in the role of the child.
Most therapists have mastered the art of manipulation to perfection -- to regress people to the state of the defenseless child -- and keep them in an emotional prison to use and exploit for transference effect to temporally alleviate their own repression.
if he was real and really wanted to help me he would not have deleted his comments with my replies! And if he had read my book first -- he would never -- have written these words: "If I could take all the pain away I would, but if it makes you stronger"
He would know I'm no longer in pain and I don't agree with society's slogan: what doesn't kill you make you stronger, because those of us that have worked through our childhood repression knows what doesn't kill us make us weaker -- and until we have resolved our childhood repression -- we will be endlessly chuckled into the chains of compulsion repetition.
just like I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions page 107 and 108:
"The typical methods people use to search for answers — which are really ways to run away from the truth — are futile because our real, repressed story continues to attempt to make itself heard no matter what we do. Alice Miller believed that our true plight, the root cause of all our repeated problems, will keep trying to gain our attention in more extreme ways until we finally take notice. Alice Miller describes addiction, for example, as a way for someone in despair to get rid of his or her memory. But this method of self-medication is unsustainable. “This ‘solution’ is no longer needed if the goal is exactly the opposite, if you want to remember, if you want to feel your plight and to understand its reasons, if you slowly become aware of why you were so afraid of acknowledging the reasons,” she writes. “This can happen once you decide to stop running away, to stop betraying yourself, to allow the truth to enter your consciousness. You decide to do so because you finally understand that everything else is useless and because you no longer want to watch your life go by before having even begun to live. You decide to stop betraying yourself because you understand that only you can give yourself the love and care you never received and that you can’t do that as long as you deny the truth.”59 They say that whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, but I think they have it all wrong. Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you weaker, more repressed and more vulnerable to illness and disease.”
Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.