Saturday, March 30, 2019

Comments on my YouTube BB Video

This guy AL made comments on my YouTube BB video offering to help me make more videos and help me promote my YouTube channel, but of course, like most people out there, he was not real and when I told him that reading my book was a prerequisite, he deleted all his comments with my replies, but today going through my old notes I found a few of my replies to him and one of his comments that I will share below.

I need to confess that when I said in the BB video audition tape I had become a big fan of the show I was trying to get on the good side of the producers because I thought was a great way for people to see I'm real and share with the world the truth that can set one free.

I used to think if people got the right information at the right time it could make all the difference, but now I don’t think it matters much, because most people rather be distracted than face and consciously feel their own painful truths.

Just like happened at my job of nine and half years that as long they thought or had the illusion I was inferior to them, they acted like very nice people, using me as a pawn to fool me and others into think, they are nice people with their illusion of love, but after they read my book they knew I knew and their illusion of love and kindness ended overnight and they started the very well psychological warfare to try to regress me into the state of the wounded child and hoping I would self-destruct, they wanted me dead, in jail or mental hospital. To them, my destruction was better than looking in the mirror to face their painful truths and feel the pain to become real. 

After I published my book I was treated like I had committed a crime! But exactly a year later we saw who was the true criminal, but now is a big cover-up by the FBI, US Marshals, and the Media.  

It took me almost a lifetime to liberate myself from all the lies and illusions of our society and now that I am 60 years old! I just want to be left alone to enjoy my freedom and not deal with phony people anymore.

I wanted to believe in people and thinking they were many people, like me, out there that really want the real naked truth, no matter how painful. But thanks to publishing my memoir I came to see the real face of humanity and for that, I’m glad I went through all the trouble to publish my book! Because now I really know the truth about most people that they rather kill you and be killed than face their own painful truth.

People love to talk about the importance of mental health and removing the stigma, but it’s all a lie. If it was true I would not had become the target of a mob of sociopaths after I published my memoir A Dance to Freedom, especially by those proclaiming to be in the mental health industry, that have tried so hard to regress me to the state of the wounded child and bring me back into an emotional prison. Most people are born, live and die in an emotional prison. 

I really feel for anyone that their childhood has left them so wounded that an enlightened witness in the book form is not enough and they literarily need to lean on someone or institution for help.

Because the chances of finding a true enlightened witness in the health care field are very slim. Most “helpers” are helping themselves looking for followers to endless stay dependent or in the state of the child and are not one bit interested in encouraging your autonomy or your growth -- into a mature conscious adult -- and if you cannot create a safe space for yourself and the strength and courage to stand alone to face your childhood repression to consciously face and feel the repressed feelings of the child you once were -- and allow old wounds to heal -- if you are dependent on others to help you-you might wait all of your life and never find a true enlightened witness to give you the support you need and you might never be able to break free and endless stay trapped in the emotional prison of your childhood.

What was I thinking that Big Brother producers would be interested in real liberated people, like me, for the show, they want repressed people unconsciously and compulsively reenacting their childhood dramas for them to exploit. People like me triggers their repressed fears and the fears of being exposed. It was interesting to see Julie Chen and Les Moonves this last season become the reality show themselves!

Al, thank you for your comment. It's constantly in my mind that I need to do at least one more video because I like to keep my promises -- so I will do at least one more video one of these days.

Making the BB video was a little difficult for me because I would keep mispronouncing my words and I would have to start over. It was very tiring to shoot the video.  I’m extremely dyslexic and it doesn’t only affect my writing. It also affects my speech. Sometimes I think about getting a teleprompter to help me with the making of videos. But to tell you the truth I think humanity has passed the point of no return and I have given up on humanity. I don't think it matters what anyone does -- it will not make much difference in our world.

These words by Leo Tolstoy could not be truer: “Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.” This is the problem with our society. No one wants to look in the mirror and face themselves.

I would like to reach people that are in the same place I once was -- searching for the truth -- that can set us free - waiting to hear the naked truth from someone else -- and validate their perceptions that they are not crazy! No one should have to wait as long as I did to hear the naked truth from someone else.

Alice Miller was such a witness for me and now I have written a book sharing my journey of how I liberated myself with Alice Miller books as my enlightened witness and if people want to find the truth that can set us free, they need to dig hard for it as I did -- because the liars of this world will work very hard day and night to block the truth and keep in the dark the real state of affairs.

I'm glad Big Brother didn't call me because I didn't really want to be locked up in a house full of repressed people telling their true stories with their unconscious and compulsive reenactments. To tell you the truth NOW I'm at the point in my life that I just want to be left alone to enjoy my freedom. It has been a long journey! 

Yes, most therapists keep themselves and others stuck in an emotional prison -- the therapist playing the role of the parent and their patients endlessly stuck in the role of the child.

Most therapists have mastered the art of manipulation to perfection -- to regress people to the state of the defenseless child -- and keep them in an emotional prison to use and exploit for transference effect to temporally alleviate their own repression.

if he was real and really wanted to help me he would not have deleted his comments with my replies! And if he had read my book first -- he would never -- have written these words: "If I could take all the pain away I would, but if it makes you stronger"

He would know I'm no longer in pain and I don't agree with society's slogan: what doesn't kill you make you stronger, because those of us that have worked through our childhood repression knows what doesn't kill us make us weaker -- and until we have resolved our childhood repression --  we will be endlessly chuckled into the chains of compulsion repetition. 

just like I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusions page 107 and 108:

"The typical methods people use to search for answers — which are really ways to run away from the truth — are futile because our real, repressed story continues to attempt to make itself heard no matter what we do. Alice Miller believed that our true plight, the root cause of all our repeated problems, will keep trying to gain our attention in more extreme ways until we finally take notice. Alice Miller describes addiction, for example, as a way for someone in despair to get rid of his or her memory. But this method of self-medication is unsustainable. “This ‘solution’ is no longer needed if the goal is exactly the opposite, if you want to remember, if you want to feel your plight and to understand its reasons, if you slowly become aware of why you were so afraid of acknowledging the reasons,” she writes. “This can happen once you decide to stop running away, to stop betraying yourself, to allow the truth to enter your consciousness. You decide to do so because you finally understand that everything else is useless and because you no longer want to watch your life go by before having even begun to live. You decide to stop betraying yourself because you understand that only you can give yourself the love and care you never received and that you can’t do that as long as you deny the truth.”59 They say that whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, but I think they have it all wrong. Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you weaker, more repressed and more vulnerable to illness and disease.”
AL: If I could take all the pain away I would, but if it makes you stronger then it's still a positive outcome and then as a friend I'd offer a promise to share it with you so you don't have to face everything all alone. There is no law that says you have to struggle alone and definitely nothing that forces you to carry the weight on your shoulders, the real crime here is third parties (parasites and vultures) extorting money from people in need of this help and support in guise of caring and compassion when they clearly have none and no heart. So I'd create a bubble in my heart just for you to be safe and well... knowing I expect nothing in return and I do it here for you when/if you need it without any reservations. 💕 Sylvie: Thank you for writing. I don’t like to tell people to read my book, but it's prerequisite…

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Thursday, March 28, 2019

College Admissions Scam

The college admissions scandal just proves what I have been saying for a very long time! And this is one of the reasons I'm hated by some "educated" and financially well off people at the gated community where I worked for nine and a half years --  because what I have – you can’t buy it, bribe, steal it or cheat your way to it!

If you can buy it or cheat to get it, it means it’s an illusion and sooner or later all illusions will burst.

It's sad to witness all the time people falling for the illusions that formal education, talents, money, and fame is the path to freedom. These things alone just reinforce people’s fears and the walls of their emotional prisons.

Having special talents is wonderful and it’s okay to cash in your talents for a living, but when people hide behind their talents, fame, and money to hide their own personal truth and keep themselves and others distracted from the truth and facts -- then you are misusing your talents -- and contributing for the lies to spread and silently or covertly you are part of all the violence and atrocities we are witnessing in our world. If people think they are superior to others, because they have special talents, they are being delusional.

At a University most a person gets is a bunch of abstract knowledge, but they don’t get any self-knowledge -- the most important knowledge of all --  because without self-knowledge -- we just deceive ourselves and others and with a degree from a University, it’s just like getting a ticket to go into the world to corrupt and be corrupted by spreading a psychological virus to the masses under the disguise of helping -- and this is why we live in a world with emotionally blind people with degrees in power positions making decisions that put all of us in danger. And this is why the world is such a mess. 

It’s sad to witness everyday people using their sharp intellect to run from looking at the facts and see fundamental psychological mechanisms. It takes courage to see fundamental psychological mechanisms, intelligence alone is not enough -- it rather helps create seductive lies and illusions 

Thanks to writing and publishing my book A Dance to Freedom I learned most people’s objective in life is not freedom for themselves and others. Most people’s objective is to one day own their own slaves.  And this is for what most people cheat, bribe, lie and work so hard for. They don’t understand that being a gatekeeper to prevent others from finding freedom – it keeps them also in an emotional prison. And is always the chance someone might come along and take them from the position of being a gatekeeper, gain power over them and put them in a cell. Once you have truly liberated yourself from lies and illusions -- you can never be taken back to a cell.  And this is why many people hate me. 

The ignorance of the parents in this scandal brings to mind these words by Alice Miller: "I think that violent teenagers are demonstrating what happened to them emotionally when they were small. I have no doubt about that. It might not always be a harsh discipline but in most cases, there is emotional neglect, lack of authentic communication, of warm, friendly contact. If this lack is also covered by what is called "spoiling" (buying a lot of expensive objects to replace love), the child is often unable to detect the neglect and stays bound to denial. Anyway, every child must deny the pain in order to survive. Only in adulthood is it possible to realize the truth. But the more the childhood history is repressed, the more its cruelty denied, the less these young people are able to feel, to confront the actual reasons of their distress, the stronger they feel urged to act destructively. They have not always conscious memories of what happened in their childhood, especially in infancy, but this knowledge is stored up in their body's cells and, amazingly enough, they threaten others exactly the same way as they were threatened in the beginning of their life. Unfortunately, the common, ever-present avoidance of the issue "childhood" doesn't make things easier. I discuss this problem in my book Paths of Life, 1999, and The Truth Will Set You Free, 2002.

Also, these words by Alice Miller are so true:
“…society we live in continue to turn a blind eye to the facts of child abuse in all its forms. Among thousands of professors at hundreds of universities, there is not one single university chair for teaching about child abuse and cruelty to children. Why? Because that cruelty successfully masquerades as parenting and education” Alice Miller, taken from the book “The Truth Will Set you free” page, 101

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Saturday, March 23, 2019

The Charlatan John of God and Oprah the Master Puppeteer

Since reading the letter of one of the John of God's accusers I can't rid of the itch to write another blog about it.

I have written in past blogs that charlatans promote each other and Oprah is one of the biggest charlatan out there using her big platform to promote charlatans.

Only emotionally blind people fall for this crap. It's so sad. It's amazing how society gives Oprah a free pass and doesn't call her on being a charlatan promoting other charlatans.

In the dictionary next to the word "manipulation" should be the picture of Oprah because without a doubt she has mastered the art of "manipulation" to "perfection".

The words below the accuser of John of God wrote before killing herself are very true. It's sad she never developed two healthy legs to stand alone -- on her own two feet.

"John of God, Prem Baba, Gê Marques, Ananda Joy, Edir Macedo, Marcos Feliciano, DeRose Father, DeRose son, all priests, pastors, bishops, spiritists, Hindus, Umbellists, Mormons, Baptists, Methodists, Jews, Muslims , Sufis, Taoists, my family, Marcelo Gayger, Jorge Berenguer, I do not know about their childhood and how they were raised in this world, but I know in my heart that EVERY BOY WAS BORN PURE and was abused, corrupted, bruised, castrated, forced to do things that he did not want to do, until they became, in their own way, manipulating tyrants (to a greater or lesser extent) who, by not controlling their own impulses, try to control who they consider being more fragile and thus commit rape, pedophilia, various addictions ... I know, I feel, I have seen." 

Me too like her, I know, I feel and I see. She wrote her letter in Portuguese and I translated the words above with the help of google translate
If you know Portuguese you can read her whole letter HERE
Anyone wants more proof that Oprah is a charlatan promoting charlatans?! 
"US TV host Oprah Winfrey traveled to Brazil in 2013 to meet him, and witnessed him performing so-called "psychic surgery" at his clinic."  Read the full article HERE
One of the residents in the community where I worked for nine and a half years, in 2013, she had foot surgery and after work around 3pm, I stopped at her house to help her. She was watching the Oprah show promoting John of God and she too traveled to Brazil to see him. Seeing this resident fall for this crap. I just wanted to throw up...  
Charlatans are so Annoying, they keep themselves and everyone else in an endless vicious circle. 

Oprah Winfrey: This is the moment my ‘job ended’ and my ‘calling began’ Her calling was to become a cult leader and a cult leader promoter! The cult business is very profitable!  
We Live in a World of Puppets and Puppeteers and Oprah is a master puppeteer, she has the whole world exactly where she wants it to be and cashing in on society's emotional blindness. 
This is Oprah!

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Friday, March 1, 2019

Echoism Is the Little-Known Condition that Affects Victims of Narcissistic Abuse

Echoism Is the Little-Known Condition that Affects Victims of Narcissistic Abuse

Comments on facebook from the sharing of the article in the link above.

Sylvie Imelda Shene Interesting! Saving the link to read later.

K L K M:  Sylvie Imelda Shene it’s a different lens for understanding the victims and survivors. New insights always excite me. Healing is a lifelong journey!

Sylvie Imelda Shene Yes, I agree healing is a lifelong journey. And once you find freedom -- you always have to deal with people crossing your path trying to stand in symbolizing your childhood abusers -- reminding you of the painful past -- or triggering flashbacks. 

They're too many abusers in our society masquerading as "helpers" and good people waiting for you to make a mistake to grab on and regress you to the state of the wounded child and put their hands on you to bring you back into an emotional prison -- they want to steal and gain ownership over your story -- and have power over you. 

They can wait on the sidelines all they want because I will never give them the opportunity to put their hands on me -- see them very clearly everywhere -- like this psychologist in the Netherlands that even went through the trouble to change her name to mess with my mind so I wouldn't know who she was. 

I get it! And understand! Why so many malignant narcissists and sociopaths target me. Who I’m I?! An ex-topless dancer and a gate attendant that never went to college could possibly know more about the human mind than them that went to college and have spent all of their lives working so hard and studying -- memorizing knowledge --- which they use like robots or parrots to fool others and manipulate them to act exactly the part they want you to act in their twisted drama.

K L K M: Sylvie Imelda Shene so grateful for your resilience! You continue to heal and help others heal and flourish. Boundary awareness is so important! Our toxic antennae is very similar! I can spot and sense toxic behaviors a mile away! Steering clear isn’t always easy as we know. But knowing we can set strong, firm boundaries is crucial. And we can never let down our guard if we want to keep ourselves safe. There’s safety in numbers thank goodness!

Sylvie Imelda Shene Thank you for your kind words, K L K M. Glad you too can spot toxic behavior a mile away. No, it's not always easy to steering clear of toxic behavior, especially in the workplace. We have to be constantly vigilant and protect ourselves.

S G: I've seen it. I've lived it. Not pretty. Remember who you are deep down. The person who claims to love you the most should lift your spirits not douse them. Save your words for someone with genuine compassion as there is NOTHING you can say to this personality type without an argument. YOU ARE ALWAYS GOOD ENOUGH

K L K M: S G, so well said!! And wonderful advice from someone who’s lived this! I’m sorry for what you endured and I’m grateful for your resilience. I just love the part “remember who you are!” Beautiful! Because if we can hold onto this, we won’t lose who we truly are inside. It can happen with enough gaslighting! Thank you for sharing and for being you. Beautiful on the inside and out!

Sylvie Imelda Shene Finally, I had time to read the whole article. No doubt I identify with it! 
"Recovery from this abuse is totally possible. You need kind people to listen to you and validate you.” 

Good luck finding authentic kind enlightened witnesses to listen and validate you. After being the target of a mob of sociopaths, malignant narcissists or whatever you like to call them. I was left alone, especially by mental health professionals that should have been the first ones to reach out to me and make sure I was okay and listen to me. From my experience, most people are acting as if personality, saying all the right things pretending to be good people, but are wolves in sheep's clothing. 

Like I wrote to someone that wrote me defending the psychologist from the Netherlands that tried to mess with my mind: "If your idolized Lilianne/Olane is such a compassionate person that cares so much about others --- how come she didn’t reach out to me with a kind word of support when I was being targeted by a mob of sociopaths at my job of nine and half years after I published my book in 2014? I know she is following my blog incognito and witnessed everything that was taking place. 

She didn’t care, because she is a malignant narcissist or a sociopath like them. She was witnessing an attempt of a psychological lynching and said nothing and most likely hoping they would succeed in destroying me for her sadist enjoyment and put her own fears of exposure to rest. 

She sat with her critique for four years and then she publishes it after changing her name! She never predicted that I would figure out that Olane Roos and Liliane Rombout is one and the same! If this is not a calculated move of a malignant narcissist to try to discredit someone’s work -- then I don’t know what a calculated malignant narcissist is?!"

Alice Miller has been the only authentic witness in my life and if I had not had become my own enlightened witness with the help of her books, website, and ‎correspondence -- I would not have survived -- I would have been thrown over the edge like we constantly witness in the stage of the world many victims of malignant narcissists abuse being thrown over the edge. 

From my experience, a lot of mental health professionals say nice things and come up with great theories, but because have not resolved their own childhood repression and liberate themselves from the emotional prison of childhood cannot provide real assistance to their patients or clients and end up causing more harm.

Just like I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom page 173 "But thanks to Alice Miller, I’m content to be who I am regardless of what other people think. This passage, from Breaking Down the Wall of Silence, sums it up so well: “To live with one’s own truth is to be at home with oneself. That is the opposite of isolation. We only need confirmation when we are alienated from ourselves and in flight from the truth. All the friends and devoted admirers in the world cannot make up for the loss.”

And this is why I survived being the target of a mob of sociopaths or malignant narcissists because -- I live with my truth -- I'm at home with myself -- and no longer waiting for validation and confirmation from others --- otherwise I would not have survived a mob of sociopaths at my job of nine and a half years all conspiring for my demise.

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.