Driven by Jealousy

Malignant narcissists are so jealous of you. They may tell you that you are inadequate and below them, but trust me, they are consumed with jealousy. Do you know why? Because as hard as they try to mimic your qualities, they cannot become like you. Their jealousy is of your empathy and your soul.The longer you stay, the more dangerous it becomes, because this jealousy consumes them.

https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2015/02/driven-by-jealousy-to-hurt-others.html?m=1

We Pay a High Price for Denial

"By reading the Drama I wrote 30 years ago many people found their own feelings until then dissociated, which opened them access to their tragic histories. The countless letters I received later informed me about the huge territory of suffering in childhood that almost all of us have endured and almost all of us keep DENYING over their whole lives by paying for this denial with their health. Or by letting others, mostly their own children, to pay. 

Hence over the 30 years, I came to understand that to heal the wounds stemming from child abuse we must give up this denial by overcoming the fear of being punished again and take the risk of feeling not only the grief but also and above all the RAGE about the way we were treated in childhood. This insight allowed me to develop a therapy concept that works.

I don’t use the word “spirituality” because it doesn’t have any specific meaning to me, it is often used to name very different issues that can be defined more precisely without using this word. I don’t need to believe as Einstein did that the WORLD is perfect but I do make the discovery again and again that our bodies function in a marvelous way as soon as we stop to lie and to betray ourselves, as soon as we are ready to accept our truth." Alice Miller 

https://sylvieshene.blogspot.com/2017/11/spirituality-blinder-that-hides-truth.html

Evil is Born Anew with Every New Generation

Dear Sylvie,

I thought of writing to you often, too... But  I was/am sooo occupied with my own deep emotional struggles and outside obligations, that I didn`t find the space to write...

I am deeply confronted with my upbringing, as I take care of my mother in a greater amount a couple days a week.. I reduced working hours at my job because I couldn`t stand so many hours of being in charge, whether at my job or with my mother.

I had a spontaneous yes-set after reading your first posting that you won`t continue to post videos... I think I wrote this earlier, that I see that chances but also the risks of sharing on the internet, because there is so much manipulation, which can be done by the big tech companies, and it is not controllable, what happens with the content one's posts... I don`t know, how to write this properly...

I am sorry to hear, that you have this situation with S... the tendency to make new (old) disrespectful laws in many issues can be seen all over the world. and I don`t see a way, to change this directly... as we know, only the change of each of us can make a change in politics and how we deal with each other. But there are very rare people who understand this.

I think you did what you can, to bring your wisdom to the world. And you really deserve to be ok in "the little corner of the world" and have a life, as comfy as possible. Of course, it is painful to see, what happens everywhere, but everybody is responsible for oneself, right?

This is my short answer. Which I wanted to write for the moment. I have to pack my things and go to my mother’s house.

I will write again.

Take care and have a nice Sunday. H

Hi H,

Thank you for writing. I love reading your insightful emails. 

I’m sorry you are so occupied with emotional struggles and outside obligations.  I can imagine how taking care of your mother a few times a week can be a strong confrontation with your upbringing. 

 
I only talk via video call with my 88-year-old older sister, the woman that pretty much raised me and was  -- my substitute mother  -- and is a constant confrontation with my own upbringing too – It’s very tough to constantly witness her believing in lies and defending and enabling all the lies and illusions around her and not react negatively -- if I had not faced and resolved my own childhood repression -- I would not be able to not react negatively. -- but if I was in Portugal would be a lot harder. 

 
My oldest sister is still pretty mobile and independent and takes care of herself and everyone around her -- she has been stuck all of her life in the role of caretaker -- but I worry when she can’t any longer take care of herself and everyone else, then, that’s when everything will fall apart --- it’s a mess --- a tragedy waiting to happen… and is nothing I can do to stop it! I can't make others open their eyes to see and feel -- all I can do is let everyone go -- otherwise -- I will drown with them. 

I have this vision: humanity is a big bowl of a crazy soup where everyone is lost and confused fighting overtly or covertly to get to the top and I’m on the outside looking in -- all I see it's pure insanity! 

It took me over 40 years to swim or navigate out of this very big crazy bowl of soup -- called humanity – I'm so lucky I made it out in one piece!  And now I have to be careful not to let anyone still stuck in this very big crazy bowl of soup and pull me back in. Most people are afraid of letting go of those around them and swimming to freedom, most people just want to grab you and pull you in to use you to stand on your head!

I know in the tech world is a lot of manipulation and the tech-savvy know how to manipulate to get their articles with missed information and lies coated with little bits of disconnected truths to deceive and confuse the emotionally blind public. For example years ago when someone googled People Unlimited my blog would show up at the top of google search but now it doesn’t at all so I know someone tech-savvy from the cult of People Unlimited was able to manipulate google to suppress my blog exposing them for the fraud that they are. And now people can't find any of my blogs with keywords unless they specifically google for example Alice Miller Sylvie Shene blog, People Unlimited Sylvie Shene blog, Etc. 

Anyone that really wants the naked truth has to leave the mainstream and go underground and dig deep for the naked truth that everyone pretty much in the mainstream is working very hard to burry very deep and hide the real truth so they can manipulate the emotionally blind society with their very well articulated pretty seductive lies and disconnected half truths to gain power over the masses and get rich. 

 
I had the hope, that one member of my family, who by coincidence was born on the same day as you, would find the courage to let go of those around her and swim to freedom but like, most people, she too fell into the illusion that money and power over others is her ticket to salvation -- yes, we need money to live -- but the truth is -- we don’t need a lot of money when we are truly emotionally free! 

Money alone is one of the biggest illusions ever! When I was growing up in Portugal I witnessed money to be the most important thing to her mother and then marrying a man, her father, and to him too --- money was the most important thing --- her father had a degree in engineer and used to be a math teacher and all he cared about was to save all his money and watch it grow in the bank that she inherited after he passed away  – her father used to call his students “lixo” in English means trash – and now she too is following exactly her parents' footsteps -- and money is the most important thing to her too – she works as Insolvency Administrator – I have no doubt she also calls these people going through insolvency stupid and trash because they don’t know how to run their business and therefore deserve their misfortune – so we could say like vultures -- they survive off the trash and the misfortunes of others… it’s so sad to witness all the time people following exactly the footsteps of their parents. It’s so true what Alice Miller said: “Evil is born anew with every new generation”

 
That's all for today! Hugs from Arizona,

Sylvie

Rich and poor are different ends of the same stick. There are fxcked up people with money and fxcked up people with no money. Money can be an addiction just like any other addiction.