Since writing this blog, exactly a year later, my ex-boss, who the property manager recruited to do her dirty work, killed himself in a standoff with the local police after robbing a bank on March 11, 2016, that by coincidence was my birthday! So, the property manager does have blood on her hands after all, because I know without a doubt, if she had not started this psychological warfare against me, he would still be alive – he was her collateral damage – when people start wars someone always gets hurt or killed!!! I was her target to destroy, but when was one of her helpers to lose his mind and self-destruct, everyone involved became silent, and now is a big cover-up that involves the FBI, the US Marshals, and the media. It's a shame he was not strong enough to stand up to do the right thing and let himself become a puppet of the property manager -- he paid a high price for it. Puppets never have a good end. If it was me, the little woman to commit a crime my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all probably go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was -- to discredit me and my book -- and make a name for themselves by standing on my head. And all probably say that you need God in your life, my ex-boss was a Mormon, a man of God, but he was the one to lose his mind, but now is a big cover-up. I could see their dirty games and traps so clearly. Read more in the link below:
Yes, that's
what the sociopaths at my last job of nine and half years were trying to do,
but they messed with the wrong person. They were too emotionally blind to see
that I could see what they were trying to do.
I guess they didn't believe what
i wrote in my book.
I see very clearly the traps people put in front of me and
I no longer can be fooled by their mind games.
They thought there was no way a
gate attendant, a nobody in their eyes, could be smarter than them.
I always
knew I was surrounded by evil masquerading as good and nice people and I was
very aware that they could turn against me.
Don't make the mistake of labeling people as good or bad.
There's is no such thing as good and bad
people. The property manager used to come to the gate all the time and bad mouth
the residents she didn’t like because they would stand up to her, she loved to
label them as bad people and I used to think to myself: you are not better than
them. There are unconscious or repressed people acting, as if personality, pretending to be good people that can turn against you at any moment and do
their evil acts behind closed doors without witnesses, and there are unconscious
people that can't act or pretend and they do their evil acts in the open and
usually, get caught and end up in jail. It's the level of repression that makes some people very dangerous! And some people are not as dangerously repressed. And of course, there are a few of us that
have taken responsibility for our own childhood repression and come from a
place of honesty and authenticity.
Humanity is corrupted to the core everywhere! You can't escape corruption! I will hold on to my little corner here for as long as I can! And enjoy my life NOW that my mind is free. Once a mind is truly free it can never be captured again. Humanity at larger has passed the point of no return and this madness will only stop when humanity is wiped off from the face of the earth.
I see everyone running to an abyss and I just smile and wave at them! It's nothing I can do! If I try to stop them and warn them, they get angry and they rather kill me than face the painful truth that they are running to an abyss. So I just wave at everyone and smile. I'm happy for me that I'm a seeing and a feeling person and not follow the emotionally blind crowd to an abyss. I just feel sad for all the innocent beings they are taking with them.
Resolving childhood repression is the vaccine against the charlatans of the world who exploit those who are still emotionally
blinded by the unresolved, repressed emotions of the children they once were.
Once
you’re free, your whole outlook on life is going to change. This quote, from a
patient of Alice Miller’s, expresses what happens perfectly: “The world has not
changed. There is so much evil and meanness all around me, and I see it even more
clearly than before. However, for the first time, I find life really worth
living. Perhaps this is because, for the first time, I have the feeling that I
am really living my own life. And that is an exciting adventure. On the other
hand, I can understand my suicidal ideas better now, especially those I had in
my youth — when it seemed pointless to carry on — because in a way I had always
been living a life that wasn’t mine, that I didn’t want, and that I was ready
to throw away.”80 I’ve removed all the barriers of false morality and am totally
free to experience all my feelings, take them seriously and decide whom, if
anyone, to share them with. I’ve faced my past and can deal with my present
circumstances in the context of growing awareness instead of childhood fears. These
words by Alice Miller express how I exactly feel: “If I allow myself to feel what
pains or gladdens me, what annoys or enrages me, and why this is the case, if I
know what I need and
what I do not want at all costs, I will know myself well enough to love my life
and find it interesting, regardless of age or social status. … I will know that
I have lived my own, true life.”81
It really is a powerful feeling, and you’re
likely to find yourself possessing a power that will be threatening to a lot of
people. Society is on the side of the status quo, so be prepared. As Alice
Miller writes in Free from Lies, going against the parents “is a source of
major alarm for others … They will sometimes mobilize all the forces at their command
to discredit the former victim and thus keep their own repression intact.”82 But
thanks to Alice Miller, I’m content to be who I am regardless of what other people
think. This passage, from Breaking Down the Wall of Silence, sums it up so
well: “To live with one’s own truth is to be at home with oneself. That is the
opposite of isolation. We only need confirmation when we are alienated from
ourselves and in flight from the truth. All the friends and devoted admirers in
the world cannot make up for the loss.”83 When I die I will not be sad because
I have truly lived and will die in freedom, no longer scared and no longer a captive
of the emotional prison into which I was born.” Page 172 and 173
Yes, the quote above describes the property manager to a T
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Today I waved at an asshole! I’m cat sitting at the community where I used to work and while driving in, I saw one of the assholes that behind closed doors were in on the plot to destroy me. I believe he used to work for the government, I think he was in the CIA or the FBI, I guess he was well trained in psychological welfare and I guess he too was confident that they could get me to self-destruct with their mind games. I looked at him and I waved! He looked and when he saw it was me, he put his hand up and drove away. I could tell he was very uncomfortable because he knows what they did to me was evil!
Good for you! This is their life: Constantly uncomfortable...
I'm sure they all feel like a failure that their little plot to destroy me didn't work. And they all look like assholes! They wanted me to look bad, but they end up looking bad themselves. All of my life people's number one mistake has always been underestimating me.
I read your responses and amazingly I could have written the same for the tremendous abuse I went through. The only difference is I survived the intentions of firing me. In 1998 a brainwashed chief of the unit I was working under his management accepted to fire me, I wasn't even working for him directly but he bypassed my supervisor's al based on lies by the asshole or assholes he felt were important in his power management). I came back from my summer leave and their commotion I didn't realize what had happened then I discovered through a reliable colleague. Their plans shamefully failed thanks to the HR Chief at the time she did not let it happen. She realized the viciousness in the injustice done to me. I am sorry there was no one like this to rescue you but at least you left uncompromised. Much respect for you Sylvie, it must have been horrible but they are in a worse position than what you went through.
I’m sorry, Monica, you too went through this kind of emotional harassment in the workplace. Yes, they are in a worse place now. I know all their fears and disowned repressed feelings that they tried to transfer into me with their mind games, and for a very short time I got to feel them and believe me they are very dark, but I gave them their fears and dark feelings back to them and because their plot to destroy me to manage their fears of facing their own repression didn't work, NOW those fears and all their dark feelings intensified big time, they wanted me to live their darkness and then they could appear to be the good and sane ones.
I've experienced "Gaslighting as a child", I think parents think of it as a control technique without harm. Wrong.
Yes, John, sadly parents transfer their own unresolved repression “darkness” into their children, and then when their children act out their own repression “darkness”, they punish their children. This is the biggest injustice I have witnessed in our world. Just as I wrote in my book on page 84: “Children are like sponges. They absorb everything their parents repress. And because children are such perfect mirrors of their parents’ repression, they’re also powerful triggers that put parents into panic mode to keep repressing. No one can trigger in us what’s not already in ourselves, but many parents don’t want to see that because it would force them to feel the painful truths of their own childhoods that they try to avoid at all costs. Instead, parents force their children to feel what they themselves can’t feel. They use their children as scapegoats or “poisonous containers,” and endlessly punish them for their bad behavior. Most parents don’t take responsibility for the fact that, on some level, they’re the cause of their children’s bad behavior, due to their own repression. This is one of the biggest injustices I’ve ever witnessed in this world. And when this happens, parents lose the opportunity to nurture their children and heal their own hearts. This is very sad and tragic. Parents don’t realize that, in most cases, their desire to have children comes from their compulsion to reenact their own childhood dramas — not as victims again but as the oppressors, the ones in control. After all, that’s what they were taught when they were children themselves.”
To read more about my experiences with the mob of sociopaths or narcissists at my last job read my blog Experienced Knowledge
