Saturday, February 23, 2019

Jussie Smollett Story

I have been wanting to write about the story of Jussie Smollet but if write about every repressed story I see in the stage of the world I would be writing all the time and I'm tired of writing.

I'm dyslexic and writing is one of the hardest things for me to do in life, but I can't rid of the itch that I need to share how sad it makes me when a person gives the rights to their own story away like this, now he will never be able to own his own story.  Now his story belongs to others to exploit.

As a small child, he must have been manipulated with lies and now he is telling his true story of what happened to him by unconsciously and compulsively reenacting his childhood drama in the stage of the world by trying to fool and manipulate the public with lies.

I could tell his story was fabricated from the beginning.

One of the worst things can happen to a person -- it's to become famous -- and rich -- before resolving childhood repression. He is going to be stuck in the emotional prison of his childhood probably until he dies. 

It's sad to witness all the time people falling for the illusions that formal education, talents, money, and fame is the path to freedom. Formal education, talents, money, and fame alone just reinforces the walls of people's emotional prisons.

Since I published my book A Dance to Freedom: Your Guide to Liberation from Lies and Illusion, people have been trying with lies and mind games to discredit me and my book to steal and gain ownership of my story, they can try all they want, but I own my story fully and no one can steal it!

And this is why the media never gave any attention to the story of my ex-boss!? Because what my boss did is what they wanted me to do, but it backfired because once a person has truly resolved their own childhood repression don't fall for lies and illusions anymore! 

I was their target to destroy, but when was one of them to lose their mind and self destruct, a middle-aged white man and an ex-sheriff! He treated me like a criminal and they accused me of making threats, but a year later after the emotional harassment they put me through, we saw who was the criminal and going around robbing banks and making threats to kill people if they didn't comply with his commands! 

If it was me, the little woman to commit a crime my name and face would have been splashed all over the news stations! And then all probably go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was making a name for themselves by standing on my head. I could see their games and traps so clearly. I was their target to destroy, but when was one of them to self destruct, all became silent and now is a big cover-up that involves the FBI, the US Marshals, the media and the assholes at the community where I worked for nine and a half years

No one cares that these criminals with their projections and lies -- I lost my job and more than half of my income -- AND they could have destroyed my life completely. There is no humanity! Most people are all fake and pretenders -- acting as if personality pretending to be good people -- but are wolves in sheep's clothing. I'm done with humanity! 

It's so sad to witness all the talking heads exploiting the crimes of famous people with their fake indignation and false moralization that reinforces peoples repression and the fears of resolving it to just benefit themselves.  As long one's repression goes unresolved crimes like this will be repeated endlessly sooner or later in one form or another.
I could not agree more with Alice Miller words below: 

"I have no doubt that behind every crime a personal tragedy lies hidden. If we were to investigate such events and their backgrounds more closely, we might be able to do more to prevent crimes than
 we do now with our indignation and moralizing. Perhaps someone will say: But not everyone who was a battered child becomes a murderer; otherwise, many more people would be murderers. That is true. However, humankind is in dire enough straits these days that this should not remain an academic question. Moreover, we never know how a child will and must react to the injustice he or she has suffered-there are innumerable "techniques" for dealing with it. We don't yet know, above all, what the world might be like if children were to grow up without being subjected to humiliation, if parents would respect them and take them seriously as persons. In any case, I don't know of a single person who enjoyed this respect* as a child and then as an adult had the need to put other human beings to death. * By respect for a child, I don't mean a "permissive" upbringing, which is often a form of indoctrination itself and thus shows a disregard for the child's own world. 

We are still barely conscious of how harmful it is to treat children in a degrading manner. Treating them with respect and recognizing the consequences of their being humiliated are by no means intellectual matters; otherwise, their importance would long since have been generally recognized. To empathize with what a child is feeling when he or she is defenseless, hurt, or humiliated is like suddenly seeing in a mirror the suffering of one's own childhood, something many people must ward off out of fear while others can accept it with mourning. People who have mourned in this way understand more about the dynamics of the psyche than they could ever have learned from books.

The persecution of people of Jewish background, the necessity of proving "racial purity" as far back as one's grandparents, the tailoring of prohibitions to the degree of an individual's demonstrable "racial purity"--all this is grotesque only at first glance. For its significance becomes plain once we realize that in terms of Hitler's unconscious fantasies it is an intensified expression of two very powerful tendencies. On the one hand, his father was the hated Jew whom he could despise and persecute, frighten and threaten with regulations, because his father would also have been affected by the racial laws if he had still been alive. At the same time--and this is the other tendency--the racial laws were meant to mark Adolf's final break with his father and his background. In addition to revenge, the tormenting uncertainty about the Hitler family was an important motive for the racial laws: the whole nation had to trace its "purity" back to the third generation because Adolf Hitler would have liked to know with certainty who his grandfather was. Above all, the Jew became the bearer of all the evil and despicable traits the child had ever observed in his father. In Hitler's view, the Jews were characterized by a specific mixture of Lucifer-like grandeur and superiority (world Jewry and its readiness to destroy the entire world) on the one hand and ugliness and ludicrous weakness and infirmity on the other. This view reflects the omnipotence even the weakest father exercises over his child, seen in Hitler's case in the wild rages of the insecure customs official who succeeded in destroying his son's world.

It is common in analysis for the first breakthrough in criticizing the father to be signaled by the surfacing of some insignificant and ludicrous trait of his that the patient's memory has repressed. For example, the father--big out of all proportion in the child's eyes--may have looked very funny in his short nightshirt. The child had never been close to his father, had been in constant fear of him, but with this memory of the skimpy nightshirt, the child's imagination provides a weapon, now that ambivalence has broken through in the analysis, which enables him to take revenge on a small scale against the godlike, monumental paternal figure. In a similar fashion, Hitler disseminates his hatred and disgust for the "stinking" Jew in the pages of the Nazi periodical Der Stürmer in order to incite people to burn books by Freud, Einstein, and innumerable other Jewish intellectuals of great stature. The breakthrough of this idea, which made it possible for him to transfer his pent-up hatred of his father to the Jews as a people, is very instructive." For Your Own Good, page 196 and 197

“Statistical studies are hardly the thing to make disinterested jurists into empathic and perceptive human beings. And yet every crime, by virtue of being an enactment of childhood drama, cries out for understanding. The newspapers carry these stories every day, but unfortunately, usually, report only the last act. Can knowledge of the underlying causes of a crime being about a change in the way justice is administered? Not as long as the primary concerns are to assign guilt and impose punishment. But someday it may be possible to gain an understanding for the fact that emerges so clearly in the case Jurgen Bartsch: the accused never bears all the guilt by himself but is a victim of a tragic chain of circumstances. Even so, a prison sentence is unavoidable if society is to be protected. But there is a difference between prison being used to punish a dangerous criminal according to the principles of “poisonous pedagogy” and human tragedy being perceived, therapy during confinement. ” Alice Miller “For Your Own Good” page 199 and 200 

Having special talents is wonderful and it’s okay to cash in your talents for a living, but when people hide behind their talents, fame, and money to hide their own personal truth and keep themselves and others distracted from the truth and facts then you are misusing your talents and contributing for the lies to spread and silently or covertly you are part of all the violence and atrocities we are witnessing in our world. So if people think they are better and superior to others, because they have special talents, they are being delusional.

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Tuesday, February 12, 2019

Lies My Doctor Told me

Someone left this book at my desk at work for someone to pick up. It has a lot of truths in it... and gives credibility to what I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom that having a DR in front of one's name or Ph.D. at the end of a person's name it doesn't mean they are in a position to help or guide anyone. 

This is one of the reasons some retired doctors, a professor and so-called professionals at my job of nine and a half years became uncomfortable with me after I published my book, because my book exposes theirs and society's lies and they thought if they could manipulate me to self destruct then they would discredit my book and go on with their  lies and illusions as usual. 

And then all probably all go on TV talking about how disturbed the little woman was making a name for themselves by standing on my head. I could see their games and traps so clearly. I was their target to destroy, but when was one of them to self destruct, all became silent and now is a big cover-up that involves the FBI, the US Marshals and the assholes at the community where I worked for nine and a half years

How dare of me! An ex-dancer and a gate attendant manager to criticize the medical community and the helping professions.

Like I have been saying for a very long time: "The Helpers are helping themselves". They were confident that they could get me to self destruct with their very well orchestrated psychological warfare, but backfired on them big time! And they planted the seeds for my next book/baby. I guess they didn't believe me what I wrote in my book that I am free from lies and illusions and NOW no one can play with me and fool me!

Below are some good quotes I found inside the book.

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Thursday, February 7, 2019

I have accomplished the greatest accomplishment ever

I love this quote by Ralph Emerson: "To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." I have accomplished the greatest accomplishment ever! Not even a mob of sociopaths at my job of nine and a half years were able to change me!

Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.

Sociopaths Love a Challenge

I'm a challenge! That's why since I published my book A Dance to Freedom I'm constantly targeted by sociopaths

They can't break me, they either look in the mirror and face their own repression or they can keep on running looking for new targets to destroy to boost their egos and keep their own repression intact. Never going to ignore the red flags again. 

Hurting and destroying others lives is the sociopaths and psychopaths painkilling drug. It's an addiction that keeps their own childhood repression intact. Just like I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom page 118: "... as long our pain remains repressed we will unconsciously and compulsively do to others what was once done to us."

"This is because abusers are attracted to someone they think will be a "challenge" to break.

 ... Victims of psychological abuse are most often the kind of people you wouldn't think would be vulnerable to such a thing. According to Shannon Thomas, a therapist, and author of the book "Healing from Hidden Abuse," success and strength are actually what attract abusive narcissists and psychopaths to their targets.

"Psychological abusers are attracted to what is going on within the person's life that is shiny, glamorous, or exciting, or successful, or dynamic, or vibrant," she told Business Insider. "That's what is attracting, kind of like a moth to a light, this kind of psychological perpetrators because they want to initially get something positive from that person."

Once the perpetrator is attached to that relationship, whether it's in a work environment or a romantic relationship, Thomas says they will then start to try to tear down the qualities and success that drew them there to begin with." Read more in the link below. Great article.

Also like  Marie France Hirigoyen wrote in her book Stalking the Soul 
Contrary to what their aggressors have others believe, victims are not, at the outset, particularly weak or mentally unhealthy individuals. Quite the opposite: harassment is often set in motion when a victim refuses to give in to a boss’s authoritarian procedures. She is targeted because of her capacity to resist authority, even under pressure. …" Read more HERE
Read my blog Experienced Knowledge about my experience with emotional harassment in the workplace.