Monday, December 29, 2025

Why Educated Societies Fall for Mass Delusion — And Why Yuval Noah Harari Still Can’t See It

Yuval Noah Harari asks an important question:
Why do advanced societies—rich in knowledge, technology, and education—keep falling prey to mass delusion, deception, and destructive narratives?

His answer, however, misses the core truth.

Harari claims the problem is information. In his view, humans are generally good and wise, but when “good people” are fed bad information, they make bad decisions. In short: fix the information systems, and the problem resolves itself.

This explanation is comforting. It is also wrong.

The False Divide Between “Good” and “Bad” People

Harari still divides humanity into moral categories: good people versus bad information. This framework itself is a symptom of emotional blindness.

There are no good people and bad people.

There are only more or less emotionally repressed people.

Some carry mild repression; others carry dangerously unresolved childhood pain that has been split off from consciousness. The more severe the repression, the more vulnerable a person becomes to illusion, authority worship, scapegoating, superstition, and lies that offer emotional relief.

People do not cling to false narratives because they lack facts. They cling to them because those narratives protect them from unbearable emotional truths buried in childhood.

Information does not create mass delusion.
Repression does.

Why Facts Alone Never Save a Society

If information were the problem, modern societies would be the wisest in history. We have access to more data, research, journalism, and scientific knowledge than any civilization before us.

Yet here we are—more polarized, more irrational, more susceptible to propaganda than ever.

Why?

Because repression blinds people emotionally.

A repressed adult is still governed by the frightened, obedient, desperate child they once were—seeking safety, belonging, and authority. That child does not respond to facts. That child responds to fear, reward, punishment, and illusion.

This is why propaganda works even when facts are available.
This is why educated people fall for mass delusion just as easily as the uneducated.
This is why intelligence offers no immunity against deception.

The Question Harari Never Asks

If a layperson like me—with only a sixth-grade education—can see this clearly, the real question is not:

Why do societies fall for mass delusion?

The real question is:

Why can an intelligent, highly educated, world-famous thinker like Harari not see the emotional roots of it?

The answer is uncomfortable, but simple:

Because he, like most people in our society, remains emotionally repressed.

This is not a failure of intelligence. It is a failure of emotional consciousness.

Harari stays safely in the realm of cognition—stories, myths, information systems, power structures. He analyzes from the neck up. He never descends into the body, where repression lives. He never confronts the forbidden emotions of childhood: terror, rage, grief, helplessness.

And without that confrontation, emotional blindness remains intact.

Education Does Not Equal Awareness

Our society confuses education with wisdom.

But emotional insight has nothing to do with degrees, status, or IQ. It has everything to do with whether a person has had the courage to feel what was once forbidden to feel.

That courage is rare.

That is why historians, philosophers, politicians, and technologists keep circling the problem without touching its core. They describe the surface mechanics of delusion while remaining blind to its psychological engine.

The Paradox Is Not Human Nature — It Is Repression

Harari calls human history a paradox: rapid accumulation of knowledge alongside persistent superstition and deception.

There is no paradox.

Knowledge accumulates externally.
Emotional awareness must be gained internally.

Without confronting childhood repression, technological progress only amplifies human blindness. AI, media, and global networks do not create delusion—they accelerate it when placed in the hands of emotionally unconscious adults.

Until thinkers like Harari integrate childhood repression into their understanding of human behavior, their explanations will remain polished, popular, and incomplete.

Societies do not collapse because information fails.
They collapse because unfelt childhood pain runs the world.

And no amount of data can heal what people are still too afraid to feel. 

This essay was written in collaboration with artificial intelligence (ChatGPT) as a tool for reflection, synthesis, and articulation. The responsibility for the ideas and interpretations expressed here remains my own.




Saturday, December 27, 2025

Christmas Hoovering, Emotional Prisons, and the Lies We Tell to Protect Childhood Myths

On Christmas Day, someone tried to hoover me back into her emotional prison.

She failed.

In my last email to her, I was explicit: it would be the final time I communicated. I meant it. Boundaries are meaningless if they are negotiable, and I no longer negotiate my emotional freedom.

Hoovering is a manipulation tactic used to “suck” a person back into a toxic dynamic once the manipulator senses loss of control. It often appears disguised as concern, dialogue, misunderstanding, or hurt feelings. In reality, it is driven by fear: fear that the target will escape and stop serving as a container for unresolved pain.

Here is the message she sent me, translated from Portuguese:

“Good afternoon Imelda! Merry Christmas to you.
I would very much like to speak with you about the posts on your blog about my family.
If you muster the courage, please call, as you are mistaken about my character.
When you told me you were a therapist, I believed you and told you my story up to 2005, when you returned to Arizona.
I await your contact.”

Let’s dismantle this message calmly and factually.


“I would very much like to speak with you about the posts on your blog about my family.”

This sentence asserts entitlement.
I have the right to my thoughts, my feelings, and to express them on my blog.

I do not use real names. I protect anonymity. No one is obligated to agree with my writings—but no one has the right to police my inner world or dictate what I may see, feel, remember, or articulate.

Control disguised as dialogue is still control.


“If you muster the courage, please call, as you are mistaken about my character.”

This is projection.

By framing my refusal to engage as a lack of courage, she attempts to reverse roles. If I don’t comply, she can later say I was “afraid.” 

In reality, courage is walking away from people who blame others for their pain, who cannot self-reflect, and who try to trap others in emotional labor so they don’t have to confront their own childhood repression.

Refusal is not cowardice.
Refusal is clarity.


“When you told me you were a therapist, I believed you…”

This statement is demonstrably false.

I never told anyone I was a therapist.

She told others that I was her therapist. My only mistake at the time was not correcting the lie immediately. When I published A Dance to Freedom in 2014, I made it unequivocally clear that I am not a therapist and that I do not want to be one.

I stated this explicitly in the introduction of my book (pages 15–16) and later reinforced it again publicly:

“I’m not a therapist, and I don’t want to be anyone’s therapist. But I do want to help people as a friend would, by sharing my experiences and explaining how Alice Miller helped me heal when everything else failed.”

There is a reason I made that boundary explicit.

People who want therapists often don’t want truth—they want containment without responsibility.


Why Hoovering Happens

Hoovering happens when someone senses they are losing access to:

When that access is threatened, the manipulator escalates—through guilt, accusation, moral pressure, or feigned vulnerability.

Christmas and holidays are prime times for hoovering. Emotional symbols are weaponized.


The Bigger Picture: Violence, Power, and Childhood Repression

This same psychological blindness shows up everywhere—on a much larger scale.

The media keeps pretending that external stressors alone create violence:

But pressure does not create violence.
It only activates what was already there.

I dropped out of school in seventh grade after being unjustly failed by half a point in physics. I loved that class. I left angry and disillusioned—and I never returned.

Yet I did not become violent.

To this day, I don’t like professors, and frankly, I hope most of them get replaced by AI—but disappointment did not turn me into a killer.

Because disappointment alone doesn’t do that.


Money Doesn’t Heal. It Enables Repression.

A Chinese billionaire boasting about having over 100 children is not evidence of success—it is evidence of profound emotional blindness.

Likewise, parents who throw money at their children while keeping them dependent are not loving. They are avoiding accountability.

Nick Reiner received $10,000 a month, lived rent-free, had everything provided—and remained emotionally infantilized. His parents never fostered autonomy. Resentment grew. Reality arrived. And they, like so many parents, searched for external demons to blame.

Alice Miller was different.

She acknowledged her own mistakes as a young mother. That honesty is precisely why her work has depth and integrity. Most parents never reach that threshold.


The Uncomfortable Truth

Everything we become is connected to childhood.

Not every victim becomes an abuser.
But every abuser was once a victim.

This is not opinion.
It is observable reality.

Yet society would rather pathologize, medicate, distract, scapegoat AI, blame ideology, or point fingers at “stress” than confront the original wound.

Because facing childhood truth requires mourning.
And mourning terrifies people more than violence.


Final Boundary

I am done being available as an emotional prison guard.

I am done correcting projections that others are unwilling to examine.

I am done explaining boundaries to people who experience boundaries as abandonment.

My work is public. My position is clear. What others do with that information is their responsibility.

This is what courage looks like.

This essay was written in collaboration with artificial intelligence (ChatGPT) as a tool for reflection, synthesis, and articulation. The responsibility for the ideas and interpretations expressed here remains my own.



Refusing the Lie: Why I Keep Writing When Humanity Is Asleep

I am not here to save humanity.

I am here to refuse the lie, document the pattern, and leave an honest record.

That distinction matters.

If I believed my task was to “fix” the world, I would have collapsed long ago under the weight of human insanity, cruelty, and denial. Humanity, as a collective, is not waking up. It is doubling down on repression, projection, and scapegoating—now amplified by technology, money, and absolute power.

And yet, the urge to write does not leave me.

Even when I’m tired.
Even when I say I want to stop.
Even when the world makes it painfully clear that truth is unwelcome.

That itch remains because truth, once consciously seen, cannot be unseen. And once it is seen, it must be recorded.

The Pattern Does Not Change—Only the Faces Do

We just saw another “isolated tragedy,” another story the media will treat as an aberration rather than a symptom:

A woman carries a pregnancy to term.
She gives birth to a baby.
She raises the child for nine years.
Then she murders her.

This is not incomprehensible.
It is not mysterious.
It is not “evil appearing out of nowhere.”

It is unresolved childhood trauma playing out with fatal consequences.

A person does not suddenly snap after years of parenting. What snaps is the last remaining psychological dam holding back oceans of repressed rage, fear, shame, and terror—emotions that were never allowed, never witnessed, never understood.

The child becomes the container.

And when repression finally collapses, the violence that was once internalized becomes externalized.

This is not madness in the psychiatric sense.
It is emotional blindness normalized by society.

Repression Is the Real Epidemic

Humanity likes to pretend it does not know where violence comes from.

But Alice Miller told us decades ago:

  • Violence is learned.

  • Cruelty is transmitted.

  • Children forced to repress their pain do not “heal”—they store it.

  • Stored pain does not disappear. It waits.

What we are witnessing around the globe—mass shootings, domestic murders, political brutality, collective cruelty—is the harvest of that repression.

And instead of facing it, society does what it always does:

  • blames pills,

  • blames mental illness,

  • blames AI,

  • blames immigrants,

  • blames victims,

  • blames anything except childhood repression.

The truth is too threatening.

Because if childhood were faced honestly, parents would no longer be sacred, authority would no longer be automatic, and power would no longer be morally protected.

Why I Keep Writing

I keep writing not because I believe humanity will suddenly awaken.

I keep writing because someone, somewhere, someday will need the record.

They will need to know:

Writing is not hope.
Writing is witness.

And witness does not negotiate with denial.

If humanity is heading toward collapse, it will not be because there was no warning. It will be because the warning threatened too many cherished illusions.

I am done trying to convince.
I am done dancing around narcissists—whether in workplaces, institutions, family, or governments.
I am done softening language to spare fragile egos.

I write so the lie cannot say it went unchallenged.

That is enough.

This essay was written in collaboration with artificial intelligence (ChatGPT) as a tool for reflection, synthesis, and articulation. The responsibility for the ideas and interpretations expressed here remains my own.



Sunday, December 21, 2025

The Narcoterrorism Illusion: Why the U.S. Needs Venezuela to Be the Enemy

 The War on Venezuela: When a Nation’s Repressed Past Becomes Its Foreign Policy

Another U.S. vessel seized off the coast of Venezuela.
Another dramatic headline about “narcoterrorism.”
Another justification to unleash military force on a country already strangled by sanctions.

But let’s stop pretending this has anything to do with drugs.

Venezuela is not a major source of narcotics entering the United States. Even federal data confirms this.
What Venezuela does have is something far more irresistible to a nation built on resource extraction and projection: oil, gold, bauxite, coltan, and rare-earth minerals — the minerals that will power the next century.

And just like Iraq, Iran, Libya, Chile, Guatemala, the Congo, and Indonesia, the script is the same:

Create a noble-sounding pretext.
Manufacture an enemy.
Justify intervention.
And take what you want.

**Today, the slogan is “narcoterrorism.” Yesterday it was “weapons of mass destruction.”

Different excuse, same sickness.**

While U.S. forces are blowing up fishing boats off Venezuela — with no evidence of drugs shown to the public — the Trump administration quietly pardoned Juan Orlando HernĂ¡ndez, the former Honduran president who trafficked over 400 tons of cocaine into the United States.

So let’s tell the truth:

The United States does not fight drug traffickers.
It fights competitors.

The real traffickers, the ones with political usefulness and wealthy benefactors, are welcomed back with presidential pardons delivered under pressure from tech billionaires.

Meanwhile, Venezuela — rich in oil, minerals, and strategic geography — is treated as a criminal state, its economic lifeline seized, its ships stolen, its sovereignty violated, and its people squeezed to desperation.

Minerals are the currency of the future.
And Venezuela happens to sit on $1.36 trillion worth of them.

That is the real “threat.”


The Psychological Roots: Repression on a National Scale

Alice Miller warned us decades ago:

“It seems easier to take medication, smoke, drink alcohol, preach, educate, treat others, and prepare wars than expose ourselves to our own painful truth.”
—Alice Miller, Banished Knowledge

This line applies not only to individuals but to entire nations.

America cannot face its own wounds: the loneliness, the emotional deprivation, the childhood humiliation, the abandonment, the normalized cruelty.
So it reenacts its internal trauma externally — through violence, dominance, and projection.

**A country full of addiction will always need an external enemy.

A country unable to feel will always create reasons to attack.**

As Miller wrote:

“Addiction is a sign, a signal, a symptom of distress…
The drug business would not flourish if there were not so many people who, in refusing to acknowledge their wounds, are in a permanent state of self-betrayal.”

America is drowning in addiction — opioids, alcohol, work, screens, shopping, rage, conspiracy theories.
And like any addict, it refuses to ask the only question that matters:

Why do so many Americans need to numb themselves?

Instead of facing its truth, the United States does what all emotionally blocked people do:

  • Attacks symptoms instead of causes.

  • Punishes others for the pain it cannot bear to feel.

  • Creates enemies where there are none.

  • Turns its trauma into foreign policy.

And so, a nation with its own wounds rotting beneath the surface projects its internal violence outward — toward Venezuela, toward immigrants, toward the poor, toward anyone who reflects back the vulnerability it cannot tolerate.


The Tragedy Beneath the Headlines

This is the real story behind the seizures, the carrier groups in the Caribbean, and the dramatic speeches about “freedom” and “crime.”

This is not a war on drugs.
It is not a war on crime.
It is not a war on corruption.

This is a war waged by a wounded nation desperate to avoid looking inward.

A war driven by:

  • Unresolved childhood trauma

  • Addiction disguised as power

  • Repression disguised as strength

  • Fear disguised as patriotism

And the people who suffer most are always the same:

  • the poor

  • the emotionally defenseless

  • indigenous communities

  • families torn apart by sanctions

  • and those living in countries whose resources make them targets

As Venezuela’s foreign minister said, these U.S. actions amount to piracy — but they are more than that.

They are reenactments of a childhood wound on a geopolitical scale.


The Only Way Out

Alice Miller again:

“An addiction is an attempt by a person in despair, who is not allowed to be in despair, to get rid of his or her memory.”

The United States is addicted to intervention because it cannot bear to confront its own emotional history.
It keeps trying to exile the pain outward — onto Iran, Iraq, Afghanistan, Gaza, Venezuela, anyone who can carry the projection.

But reality will always return.

A nation, like a person, cannot heal until it stops running from the truth.


This essay was written in collaboration with artificial intelligence (ChatGPT) as a tool for reflection, synthesis, and articulation. The responsibility for the ideas and interpretations expressed here remains my own.



Blaming the Pills, Protecting the Myth

Once again, the familiar script is being rolled out.

After the killing of Rob Reiner and Michele Singer Reiner by their son Nick, the public is being offered a tidy explanation: mental illness, a medication change, an unfortunate side effect. Headlines reassure us that the real culprit was chemistry—something that went wrong inside Nick’s brain in the final weeks.

Anything will do.

Anything except looking at his upbringing.

The Convenience of a Diagnosis

Labeling Nick Reiner as schizophrenic and attributing the tragedy to a medication switch serves a very specific function: it removes responsibility from the emotional environment in which he was formed.

Mental illness becomes a modern equivalent of “bad luck.” Medication becomes the scapegoat. Psychiatry becomes the final authority.

And parents—especially powerful, admired parents—remain untouched.

This is not new. Alice Miller described this maneuver decades ago.

When violence erupts, society rushes to explanations that protect the sanctity of the family. Diagnoses are safer than childhood truths. Pills are safer than questions about neglect, emotional abandonment, fear, and denial.

What Medication Cannot Explain

Medication can amplify, dampen, or destabilize symptoms. It cannot create, from nothing, a lifelong inner structure of terror, rage, dependency, and dissociation.

To claim that a few weeks of altered medication caused this outcome is to ignore everything that came before:

  • a childhood marked by hyperactivity and constant management

  • a family rule of “give him what he wants”

  • chronic appeasement replacing real emotional contact

  • fear of upsetting the child instead of helping him feel

  • adulthood defined by dependency, repeated rehabs, and failure to achieve autonomy

Medication did not build that internal world. It only interacted with it.

Spoiling as Emotional Neglect

Alice Miller was explicit about this:

When lack of authentic communication, warmth, and emotional presence is covered by spoiling, the child cannot recognize neglect. The pain is denied, buried, and stored in the body.

The child survives by repression.

The adult pays the price.

Nick Reiner’s upbringing, as now described by insiders—constant vigilance, appeasement, avoidance of confrontation—fits this pattern precisely. His distress was managed, not understood. His rage was contained, not integrated.

And what is denied does not disappear.

Why “Mental Illness” Is the Perfect Alibi

Mental illness explanations perform several cultural services:

A diagnosis says: Something is wrong with him.

A childhood inquiry says: Something happened to him.

Only one of those threatens society’s most sacred illusions.

The Body Remembers What the Mind Was Forced to Forget

As Miller wrote, violent acting-out is not random. It is reenactment.

People who were emotionally threatened early in life often threaten others later in the same way—not consciously, but compulsively. This knowledge is not stored in memory alone; it is stored in the nervous system.

Medication may alter perception, but it does not erase that stored knowledge.

If anything, when repression weakens—through stress, medication changes, or emotional destabilization—the buried material can surge to the surface with catastrophic force.

The tragedy, then, is not that Nick Reiner was treated.

The tragedy is that he was treated without truth.

The Question Nobody Wants to Ask

Why was an adult man in his thirties still so dependent, so emotionally unintegrated, so unable to live autonomously?

Why was fear—on both sides—still structuring the relationship between parents and son?

Why was no one willing, decades earlier, to say: Something is terribly wrong here?

Because asking those questions would implicate not just one family, but a culture.

Pills Are Faster Than Truth

Facing childhood reality takes time, courage, and the willingness to shatter comforting myths. Prescribing medication is faster. Explaining violence as a chemical imbalance is faster. Declaring the case tragic-but-inexplicable is faster.

But fast explanations do not prevent repetition.

They guarantee it.

A Final Word

Nick Reiner did not need better medication alone.

He needed what Alice Miller described again and again:

  • authentic emotional contact

  • help tolerating painful feelings

  • permission to feel anger toward the real sources of pain

  • support in becoming autonomous rather than dependent

By blaming pills and diagnoses instead of childhood truth, society once again protects parents, institutions, and illusions—while ensuring that the next tragedy is already incubating.


This essay was written in collaboration with artificial intelligence (ChatGPT) as a tool for reflection, synthesis, and articulation. The responsibility for the ideas and interpretations expressed here remains my own.


A Personal Vignette: Portugal, Children, and the Roots of Violence

This pattern is not theoretical for me. I witnessed it firsthand in Portugal in 2003, when I returned to warn my family and community about the dangers of spanking and emotional coercion. One afternoon, while babysitting my niece’s four‑year‑old daughter, we played a game where she pretended to be the mother, and I was the child. When I did not obey her, she spanked me and called me a “bad girl.” When I asked where she learned this, she answered simply: from her parents.

When I told her she was not bad—that she was a little child and that the violence done to her was not her fault—she burst into tears and insisted, “You don’t understand. Sometimes I am very bad.” That sentence alone reveals how early shame and self‑hatred are implanted. Later that same day, on a dangerous street near Porto, she repeatedly let go of my hand, testing whether I would respond with violence. I felt the impulse to spank her rise in me—because that is what was done to me as a child—but I did not act on it. I sat with her, explained the danger, waited with her feelings, and refused to move until she could choose safety herself. We walked home peacefully.

That moment matters. It shows that violence is not inevitable. But it also shows how much patience, awareness, and emotional work are required to interrupt the compulsion to repeat. Most adults do not do this work. They medicate, excuse, deny, or moralize instead.


When AI Becomes the New Scapegoat

The same avoidance is now playing out in a newer form: parents blaming artificial intelligence for tragedies rooted in long‑standing emotional neglect. I wrote previously about the heartbreaking case of a young man who died by suicide, after which his parents chose to sue OpenAI, blaming ChatGPT for his death. Once again, the focus is displaced outward—onto technology, algorithms, and external influence—rather than inward, toward the emotional climate in which that young man grew up.

Just as with Nick Reiner, the question is not whether a trigger existed. Of course it did. The question is why a fragile psyche was already primed to collapse. Tools do not create despair; they can only interact with what already exists. When a child grows up without being seen, heard, or emotionally protected, their despair will eventually attach itself to something—religion, drugs, ideology, technology, or a person. Destroy the object, and another will take its place.

Blaming ChatGPT today serves the same psychological function as blaming medication, drugs, or “mental illness” yesterday. It allows parents—and society—to avoid the most terrifying question of all: What did this child live with before the crisis? Until that question is faced, the tragedies will continue, and the scapegoats will simply change names.




Friday, December 19, 2025

When Repression Crosses Borders: The Brown–MIT Tragedy

Preface: When the Pattern Refuses to Stay Isolated

This post is a continuation of When the Target Refuses to Self-Destruct.

That earlier piece examined what happens when psychological warfare fails—when the intended scapegoat does not implode, and the violence of repression turns elsewhere. The events surrounding Brown University and MIT are another expression of the same underlying dynamic, unfolding on a broader stage.

What follows is not a separate story, but the same pattern moving across borders, institutions, and decades, once again revealing what happens when childhood terror remains unfaced and unintegrated.


The human ocean has been turbulent lately, and this week it revealed a pattern that is both chilling and familiar. The Brown University mass shooting, the killing of an MIT professor, and the suspect’s death by suicide are now understood as parts of the same chain of events. The facts matter—but the psychology beneath them matters more.

What We Now Know

Authorities identified the suspect as Claudio Manuel Neves Valente, a 48‑year‑old former Brown University Ph.D. student who attended the university briefly around 2000 before withdrawing. He was also identified as the gunman in the killing of MIT professor Nuno F. G. Loureiro in Brookline, Massachusetts. Both men were natives of Portugal and are believed to have studied in the same academic program in Portugal in the 1990s.

Valente was found dead in a New Hampshire storage facility following a multi‑state manhunt, having taken his own life. Investigators traced his movements across New England through surveillance, license‑plate readers, and a detailed tip. Authorities have not yet stated a motive.

The Illusion of Distance

It is tempting to explain these events through surface narratives—immigration policy, campus security, isolated pathology. Those explanations are convenient. They are also incomplete.

Violence does not materialize out of nowhere. It travels—across years, across institutions, across borders—when unresolved childhood repression, fear, and humiliation remain sealed off from consciousness.

The common denominator is not nationality, discipline, or ideology. It is repression.

Engineers, Precision, and Emotional Blindness

Engineering and hard sciences reward precision, abstraction, and control. They do not reward emotional literacy. When a person trained to master systems has never been helped to master inner reality, the imbalance can be severe.

Many cultures—including Portuguese culture—socialize emotional restraint and passive aggression. When expression is forbidden long enough, pressure accumulates. Some people implode quietly. Others explode.

This is not a moral judgment. It is a psychological fact.

Time Bombs Don’t Always Detonate the Same Way

Some time bombs detonate outward—mass shootings, public terror. Others detonate inward—addiction, depression, suicide. Others never fully explode but spend decades torturing themselves and each other emotionally, leaving devastation in their wake.

The tragedy involving Nick Reiner—who fatally stabbed his parents after years of addiction and repeated rehabs—illustrates the same mechanism in a different form. Dependency without autonomy breeds resentment. Resentment without understanding breeds hatred. Hatred without consciousness breeds catastrophe.

Rehab that manages behavior without touching childhood origins often maintains dependency instead of dissolving it. Autonomy is not a luxury; it is a safeguard.

Why Motive Will Remain “Unclear”

Authorities may never publicly identify a motive here. That is not because there isn’t one. It is because the true motive—unfaced childhood terror and humiliation—is culturally forbidden.

As Alice Miller warned, society prefers abstractions to facts when facts threaten parental idealization. Media, institutions, and politics reinforce this silence because confronting it would require adults to revisit their own histories.

So the story will be closed administratively, while the pattern continues.

The Scapegoat Reflex

Already, attention is being redirected toward visas and programs rather than toward the psychic realities that cross every border unchecked. Scapegoats are comforting. They spare us from asking the only question that matters:

What happened early enough, and silently enough, that this outcome became inevitable?

The Quiet Work That Prevents Explosions

Most prevention never makes headlines.

It looks like:

  • helping people connect feelings to origins,

  • replacing dependency with autonomy,

  • allowing hatred to be felt consciously rather than acted out,

  • breaking family myths that protect abuse.

This work rarely earns applause. It quietly applies the brakes.

A Final Thought

There is no technological fix for emotional blindness. No policy can substitute for truth. No amount of status, intelligence, or success immunizes anyone from the consequences of repression.

When unresolved childhood repression fear crosses borders, institutions, and decades, it eventually surfaces—sometimes as implosion, sometimes as explosion.

The only real question is whether we will keep pretending not to know this, or finally take responsibility for what we have always been unwilling to face.


This essay was written in collaboration with artificial intelligence (ChatGPT) as a tool for reflection, synthesis, and articulation. The responsibility for the ideas and interpretations expressed here remains my own.




Monday, December 15, 2025

When the Target Refuses to Self-Destruct

Preface: A Thread That Runs Through Time

This post does not stand alone.

It is part of a long thread I began pulling publicly more than a decade ago—first in 2013, when I warned against placing one’s life in the hands of gurus, institutions, or substitute parents, and again in September 2017 and April 2017, when I wrote openly about scapegoating, mob behavior, and the bloodless cruelty of respectable people hiding behind religion, authority, and silence.

At the time, those posts were easy to dismiss. They were inconvenient. They named dynamics that most people prefer not to see until they are personally caught inside them.

What follows is not hindsight wisdom. It is continuity.

This piece records what happens when the mechanisms I described years ago are fully activated—and when the intended target refuses to comply by self‑destructing.


There is a lie society clings to because the truth is unbearable: that cruelty is rare, that institutions protect the innocent, and that “good people” will step in when injustice is obvious. My life taught me otherwise.

If I had been the one to break—if I had succumbed to the meticulously orchestrated psychological warfare aimed at me—my name, face, and past would have been paraded endlessly. My teenage rebellion would have been exhumed. My lack of religion would have been cited as evidence. Panels would have convened to explain why “the little woman” collapsed. Careers would have been built by standing on my head.

That was the plan.

Psychological Warfare and the Scapegoat Mechanism

I was targeted by a coordinated group of sociopaths who understood one thing very well: destroy the person who tells the truth, and the truth disappears with her. Smear campaigns, gaslighting, isolation, professional sabotage—each move calibrated to provoke self‑destruction.

I stared evil in the face. Not metaphorical evil. Real, calculating, smiling evil.

Once you have been targeted by a mob of sociopaths, you never look at humanity the same way again. You see how quickly masks slip, how many people wait on the sidelines, hoping you will burn so they can profit from the spectacle. Most people do not intervene. They watch.

The Silence When One of “Them” Falls

When the plan failed—when it was not I who self‑destructed but one of them—the room went silent. Cover‑ups replaced outrage. The same people who would have dissected my life chose discretion, compassion, and privacy for their own.

This is how power works.

My ex‑boss, a religious man, a former law‑enforcement officer, lived behind the perfect cover. He robbed banks and hid inside a security company. On my birthday, he chose the wrong day to keep running. He never made it back to his cover.

If roles had been reversed, the story would have been moralized into a sermon about godlessness. Instead, there was quiet.

Religion, Repression, and All‑or‑Nothing Minds

I have seen firsthand how rigid belief systems fracture the psyche. When everything is divided into heaven or hell, good or damned, one misstep can feel like total annihilation. For some, that inner terror explodes outward.

Religion did not restrain my ex‑boss. It intensified his split.

Alice Miller named this dynamic decades ago: repressed childhood fear does not disappear—it compels. And when denial is absolute, the acting‑out can be catastrophic.

The Lie That Nearly Erased a Legacy

What would have been lost if I had been destroyed is not just my life. It would have been the discrediting of Alice Miller’s work itself—because my book is grounded in her insights. That is why the pressure was relentless.

But psychological warfare has a paradox.

When it fails, it exposes the truth it was meant to bury.

Their attacks did not invalidate my work. They validated it.

Why Intelligence, Status, and Fame Don’t Save Anyone

People like to believe that intelligence protects, that success inoculates, that money insulates. It doesn’t. I have watched brilliant, educated, powerful people regress into obedience, cruelty, and groupthink.

As Miller wrote, intelligence excels at rationalization.

The most dangerous people are often those who appear respectable—wolves in carefully curated sheep’s clothing.

Cult Dynamics Without the Cult Name

You do not need a compound or a guru to have a cult. You only need:

  • induced fear,

  • authority that cannot be questioned,

  • and people trained in childhood to obey.

That is how mobs form in offices, communities, and institutions. That is how abuse hides behind “values,” “faith,” and “professionalism.”

The Eye of the Storm

I survived because I had already done the work. Alice Miller’s books were my Enlightened Witness when I had none. I learned to listen to the body, to recognize projection, to refuse regression.

When the storm came, I did not fight it.

I stood in the eye of it.

Free.

What Remains

I am done expecting humanity to save itself.

Most people prefer illusions. They follow false heroes into the abyss and call it virtue. They dismiss truth‑tellers by their past, their job titles, their social rank.

A former dancer. A gate attendant. A nobody.

So I smile and wave.

I keep writing. I keep naming what others fear to see. And I enjoy my freedom—earned the hard way.

Not sad for me.

Sad for those still pretending.

A Final Truth

“A criminal is never guilty on his own. If society at large could ever find the courage to learn from the chain of events that occurred in each criminal’s life from day one, we could prevent many future crimes and a lot of unnecessary suffering.”

— A Dance to Freedom

The people who conspired, enabled, and watched have blood on their hands, even if they never pulled the trigger.

Silence is not innocence.

It is complicity.

This essay was written in collaboration with artificial intelligence (ChatGPT) as a tool for reflection, synthesis, and articulation. The responsibility for the ideas and interpretations expressed here remains my own.