Friday, August 9, 2019

I See Lies and Hypocrisy Everywhere

“If we hate hypocrisy, insincerity, and mendacity, then we grant ourselves the right to fight them wherever we can or to withdraw from people who only trust in lies. But if we pretend that we are impervious to these things, then we are betraying ourselves.” Alice Miller
Free from Lies: Discovering Your True Needs page 55

Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Only Children are Abandoned

Let's make it clear if you are an adult and you feel abandoned when another person leaves you -- you are stuck in childhood without realizing it -- because only children are abandoned -- adults are left not abandoned -- If we are able to understand and consciously feel this feeling of feeling abandoned within the context of your own childhood -- you will grow yourself up into a conscious adult -- and you will never again suffer when people leave you or ignore you.

Thursday, July 25, 2019

Only love and truth will open the floodgates of the repressed emotions of the child we once were

Dear J,

Thank you for your understanding words. I could not stop crying while reading your e-mail.

I have lost cats before, but I don’t think I felt this sad before. We did have a special bond – we were in love with each other -- I have not cried like this in years -- It makes me think how short life is and how fast it can be over.

It took me a lifetime to liberate myself and create a home for myself. I’m looking forward to retirement and just spent the rest of my life with just me and the beings I love most, but it makes me think how fast all it will be over. Now that I have created a home for me and I’m emotionally free -- I wish I could live forever and now Sutti reminded me how all can be over in a blink of an eye.
Today at 5:30 pm will be a week Sutti is gone. I wish these last 3 years she lived with me I was already retired so I could have spent more time with her. I wanted more time with Sutti.

And how sad it is that most people never get to experience emotional freedom and be at home with themselves.

This world should be a heaven for us but instead is full of dangerously repressed people or sociopaths/psychopaths suffering and making others suffer – unconsciously and compulsively looking for scapegoats – which we have to be constantly on the lookout for, especially in the workplace! 

Without truth and truly loving ourselves and another breathing living being  we will never become a seeing and a feeling person no matter how many self-help books we read and how much intellectual knowledge we get on psychology --  only with the truth and by truly loving ourselves and another being – we will we become a seeing and a feeling person.

Only when truth and love is our first goals in life --  truth and love has always been my first goals --  and everything else has always been secondary for me -- when we stand for truth and truly love ourselves and share it with another living breathing being -- will the floodgates to the repressed emotions will be open to flow in  a healthy way -- to be consciously felt within the context of our own childhood -- without using others as scapegoats to temporarily and superficially alleviate the repressed emotions of the child we once were. Everywhere I go I just see people going around like robots masquerading with the illusion of love and covertly and silently manipulating others with their illusion of love. 

My childhood and teen years were the saddest, most of my adult life was a struggle, but I accomplished emotional freedom and now the consolation I get is that in my retirement years that I hope will be many, I know, they will be the most beautiful years of my life and wish Sutti could be with me for many of them to enjoy with me.

You too, take good care, as much as possible.


Dear Sylvie...

Oh, i am so very sorry to hear that...

I don't know, how to react or to give some comfort in your sorrow...
How you and Sutti met and you became the closest mates, seems like a kind of fairy tale, right? She chose you... and so did you...

Such a sweet story,  no doubt this is a unique experience...

Looking at her picture, i see such a so beautiful, kind and peaceful being!
I  just can be with you in sadness and crying.  What a bad fate, that she had to die too early by a virus...

I am sorry, I have to go to work soon, but will write more soon.
Sylvie, I give you a big hug and share your feelings.
Take good care and let the tears flow, as long as they need to flow.
Take good care, as much as possible

Dear J,

I hope you are hanging in there and not so busy with some extra free time for yourself.

Last Saturday my favorite cat, Sutti passed away suddenly, caught a virus and stop eating and drinking and she was gone overnight.

I'm so devastated I don't have Sutti anymore, she was about 8 years old, but I only had for about 3 years, she appeared on my back patio and I used to put food and water for her out there and I even made a shelter for her to stay warm in the cold days  of winter, she lived outside at least 3 to 4 years, but every time I went in the patio she would run, but one day when I called her, she came to me and came inside and never wanted to be out again alone, would go in the patio with me and sit in my lap, but when I went inside she would follow me in, she was the sweetest cat I ever had and was so grateful for me taking her in  -- she wanted to be next to me all the time loving me with her very soft and gentle little kisses. I always looked forward to going home to be with her. The house feels so empty without her.

I just wanted more time with her -- three years was not enough -- I wish I could hold her and touch her silky soft coat one more time.  My work has been so busy and plus doing a lot of side jobs checking on house and cat sitting for people that are away that I don’t have time to be with my feelings and feel my sadness.

I cry when I’m in the car driving to my jobs and I crying going to sleep at night and when I wake in the morning. If was any of my other cats to pass I would not be this sad.

Sutti was my special Kittie.

I like to find another Kittie like her but I know there are never two beings alike even if they look alike, personality is never the same. It will never be another Sutti like her.

I hope the next time I write my heart is no longer this sad.

Hugs from Arizona,


7-13-19 5:30pm

Tuesday, July 16, 2019

Had Enough Therapy?

A facebook friend shared this article on my newsfeed  Had Enough Therapy?

Thanks for sharing this article, J-F B! Very interesting! To this day I have not met a single mental health care professional that can provide real assistance in helping people liberate themselves from their emotional prisons. And the real reason is that most of them lack the courage to tell themselves and their patients/clients the truth and without the truth, liberation will never be possible. But instead, use their intellectual knowledge in psychology to mess and manipulate people’s minds and behaviors -- making things worse by thickening the walls of people’s emotional prisons and making it near to impossible for people to ever free themselves.

Just like I wrote in my book A Dance to Freedom:

“The chain of harm done by doctors, therapists, and gurus under the guise of help is endless. Alice Miller believed that most people with a “Dr.” in front of their name or a “Ph.D.” at the end of it weren’t in any kind of position to help or guide anyone, especially if they were repressing their own traumas and creating their own illusions.

For many years I blamed myself for what happened with Dr. Julio Machado Vaz. It took me more than two decades to see the truth and speak about the fact that this doctor had exploited my anger at my family to feed his sexual perversions and abuse me sexually, instead of helping me work through and resolve my anger.

…I’ve touched on this a lot in this chapter and elsewhere in this book, particularly in the section about Dr. Julio Machado Vaz — the psychologist who used me for sex — but I really want to reinforce the idea that so-called therapists and gurus only substitute one dangerous illusion for another. As Alice Miller writes,

“What can happen when a doctor doesn’t stop at self-deception in his flight from pain, but deceives his patients, even founding dogmatic institutions in which further ‘helpers’ are recruited to a faith advertised as scientific truth,’ can be catastrophic.

…Most people who search for answers never actually find them, because people suffering with their own repression are the ones who practice traditional therapies.

Since the beginning of human history, priests, teachers, gurus, psychics, doctors, philosophers, and psychologists have all duped people into thinking they could provide real assistance when it was never possible because the healers were also victims of their own childhoods.

Alice Miller saw the promise of psychotherapy to help people understand why they behave like helpless victims as adults and also to help them take responsibility for their actions.

But she was disillusioned when she realized that practitioners couldn’t treat patients effectively as long as they failed to deal with their own repression.”

Because I'm critical of the mental health community, in general, this is one of the reasons I got targeted also by a mob of very corrupted people at the community where I worked for nine and a half years – some residents were doctors and professors --  and to protect themselves and the medical community, they thought with their methodical and very well-orchestrated psychological warfare could get me to self-destruct to protect themselves from being exposed for the fraud that they are, but coming after me they exposed themselves and  proved what I write in my book is true and gives me and my book more credibility.

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Last surviving prosecutor at Nuremberg trials says Trump's family separation policy is ‘crime against humanity’

This blog was triggered by the sharing of the article in the link below on Facebook
Last surviving prosecutor at Nuremberg trials says Trump's family separation policy is ‘crime against humanity’
He asks: 'What could cause more great suffering than what they did in the name of immigration law?'
"The last surviving member of the Nuremberg trials prosecuting team has said Donald Trump committed “a crime against humanity” with the recent family separation policy.Ben Ferencz, 99, made the comment during a recent interview with outgoing United Nations High Commissioner for Human Rights, Zeid Ra’ad Al Hussein. The lawyer said it was “painful” when he heard about how the Trump administration had separated more than 2,000 children from their families after they had crossed the US-Mexico border." Read more HERE 

Yes, these are crimes against humanity... as long people with the aid of hypocrisy, compartmentalization, and rationalizations keep voting into power people like Trump -- we will never be able to stop these atrocities from keep happening.
"Now that we have seen how easy it is for intellectuals in a dictatorship to be corrupted, it would be a vestige of aristocratic snobbery to think that only "the uneducated masses" are susceptible to propaganda. Both Hitler and Stalin had a surprisingly large number of enthusiastic followers among intellectuals. Our capacity to resist has nothing to do with our intelligence but with the degree of access to our true self. Indeed, intelligence is capable of innumerable rationalizations when it comes to the matter of adaptation."
I also was the target of propaganda at my job of nine and a half year and we witnessed how all the corrupted people were protected and still, are being protected. What happens in communities -- it happens in the stage of the world.--- to prevent from corrupted people reaching the highest office of the land we have to expose corruption from the bottom up, but like we witnessed the corrupted people at my last job still are allowed to go Scot free from the crimes they committed against me.

Saturday, June 15, 2019

You are never alone if you enjoy your own company

Dear J,
I hope you are hanging in there.
I’m hanging in here. As long I’m not being targeted by assholes in the workplace it’s all good! :-)
In one of your last e-mails you asked me if it wouldn’t be nice to have other people free from repression to hang out with, yes, of course, it  would be nice to meet other people free from repression, but I don’t think is possible!!! 
Everyone I meet is repressed to a degree and some are very dangerously repressed. I don’t like being for a very long time with anyone that is repressed. 
No matter how much time I spend alone it’s never enough alone time away from repressed people.
Everyone I meet is trying to avoid feeling the painful truths in their lives and no matter who they are if you spend too much time with them, they will try to make you their scapegoat sooner or later in one form or another. Avoiding from feeling our painful truths causes blockage and they will endless need new scapegoats to temporally and superficially alleviate the pent up repressed emotions of the child we once were.
I don’t have words to express how wonderful it feels to be free from the repressed emotions of the child we once were. I feel so light and free to deal with present circumstances that show up in my life without the repressed emotions blinding me, throwing off balance or overwhelming me and clouding my judgment! I never thought was possible to feel this good while we are still alive.
Before resolving my repression I used to think only death could stop the pain and free us.  When you’re free of repression life is wonderful even if you are all alone! 
You are never alone if you enjoy your own company!
It comes to mind the article I shared with my man friend the other day. via text message:
Sylvie: This article says unmarried women without children are happier. I'm proof of that! I know why! Do you know why?! Never put a ring on it! :-)

M: You don't know for sure you are happier without children?
Not ever having them?

Sylvie: When you see clearly the innate psychological patterns of people's unconscious compulsions to repeat or reenact the painful dramas of childhood. I know I would not have been happier having now adult children mad at me and making demands on me just like my childhood caregivers used to do. 

I'm free from the chains of compulsion repetition! 

People that have children before resolving childhood repression will treat their children the same way their own parents treated them when they were defenseless children and when their own children grow up, they will meet again their abusive parents or childhood caregivers in their adult children. It's an endless vicious circle very few people break free from! 

Hugs from Arizona,

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Troubled family history of slain Crystal Lake boy AJ Freund reveals missed warning signs, failed chances to intervene

Of course, they missed the warning signs! They need a dead body.  Well, they got the dead body they needed to prove a child was living in terror.

Does anyone need more proof that nobody cares about the plight of others especially of little children? People only care when affects them directly. Just like I said to my ex-boss, the bank robber! After making a complaint of emotional harassment in the workplace: I am the victim here and haven’t been able to sleep well because of the emotional harassment I have been through on the job. And yesterday when I was being interviewed by the ladies at HR, I felt like they were accusing me of wrongdoing and the problems were caused by my actions, which could not be further from the truth, but this is what the sociopaths do, they twist everything around to make them look good by destroying their target so they can steal their job or money or whatever their target have that they want for themselves. What of proof they want?! A dead body?

Days before Christmas, a McHenry County doctor asked 5-year-old Andrew “AJ” Freund how he got a large bruise on his right hip.

The boy and his mother had suggested the family dog, a 60-pound boxer named Lucy, caused the injury when the pooch jumped on him. The doctor, suspicious of the explanation but unable to pinpoint a cause after examining the child, took AJ aside and asked him what had happened.
“Maybe someone hit me with a belt,” the child said, according to newly released records. “Maybe Mommy didn’t mean to hurt me.”

Despite the boy’s alarming words, state child welfare officials investigating the Dec. 18, 2018, hotline complaint from police about the bruise determined there wasn’t credible evidence to support taking AJ into protective custody. Nine months earlier, a similar hotline complaint about the boy’s bruising also was deemed unfounded.

The Illinois Department of Children and Family Services, which on Friday revealed new details about the case, has limited legal authority to remove a child from a parent’s custody and does so only if it finds an “imminent and immediate” risk of harm.

The Illinois Department of Children and Family Services, which on Friday revealed new details about the case, has limited legal authority to remove a child from a parent’s custody and does so only if it finds an “imminent and immediate” risk of harm.